It's interesting how many of us here have software-oriented professions, I'd like to think there's a correlation between curiosity about the deeper nature of reality that psychedelic exploration can facilitate, and curiosity about the deeper nature of human logic and the software processes of mind, itself. Just speaking for myself, coding stuff did make me think that reality itself, or at least the filter of our minds that we use to perceive it, is really just a series of if/else clauses...
Instead of say if/else, I like to say if/ OR ELSE!!!! (with a threatening tone)
I've often thought that too Vastness, humans, all humans do like solving puzzles. People that take psychedelics see a different hierarchy of patterns and pieces of puzzles. So it is understandable that a lot of tech people, especially softeware engineers have to figure out puzzles. Coding is logic. You can tell a lot about a person with how they code. I am supporting 4 other people's code that left and they way they coded almost matches their personality. lol The twisted dude does spaghetti code'. The smart calm one comments well and has structured code. (like DNA :D)
I am makimg myself inaccessible this week for a few reasons. I started with the company 20 years ago. 2 clients and worked from a basemment. The company grew to 100 clients. Was sold, bought buy a guy that took it public, bought all the competitors to pump up the stock, then dumped this mess of 12 companies under the same roof to a financial institution that is the soulless and dehumanizing image that we get when we think the worst of the corporate world. They are screwing empolyees losing clients, not listening to anyone that helped the company grow. They highered their friends to be overpaid directors that do nothing while they fire the worker bees. Wasted millions on whims of moronic upper managment. For intance, they highered a firm to do spreadhseets for a large some of money. There are people in the company that know how to query out data to a spreadhsheet. So they paid a lof of money to these consultants that could not do it since they do not know the industry or have any knowledge at all about a database. The first thing they did when they bought the company was fire 70% of operations that had been there for years and helped the company grow, moved it to China and India without training (they thought that was unnecessary) and really pissed clients off. There are still long faces. Because they screwed they lost a lof of money and clients but will not admit it. Then they used corona virus to take 10% of our pay for 6 months and layed off more people, including my one and only back up. It is now a bunch of kiss ass loser children that think climbing on the backs of others is success. Well me having taken psychdelics success to me is being a human being and present. Not screwing people and growing your ego. I often say on your deathbed you will not look back and say "damn I wish I got that client that extra report", you will look back and say " gee I was a dink in that situation, I wish I were kinder".
So yeah, I am inaccessable on purpose. If they need me that bad (which they will) then there is an issue when I can't take vacation. In my mind I have already let go of this job, so I approach it differently under this new managment. My manager is cool, from Amsterdam. She said they work 37 hour weeks and you get in trouble for not taking vacation. She has had it too. They do not realize 20 years of knowledge does not get transferred over to India in 2 weeks. So they are light with knowledgeable people and shit is starting to hit the fan.
Apologies for such long post. I guess I needed to vent and kind of like and trust people here.
