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Thanks man. I'm making an appointment for the cat oncologist so I can at least know what's up and what my options are... seems liike the surgery to remove the cancerous lump is a solid call, if not chemo. It's just hard to not do whatever I can because I want her to be alive as long as possible, but it's also true that quality of life matters.
 
I'm sorry to hear about your cat man. Someone in my family is a vet and I've seen her deal with this stuff a lot. I'm not a vet but in this situation I would expect her to tell you that chemo might be a bad idea because the cat is already so old and has lived a long time. She'd probably be sketchy about operating on a cat that old too unless the lump was in a place where it could be easily removed. I would probably make the call to remove the lump and let her enjoy what time she has left. If you decide to go chemo it's going to be very hard on both of you and you have need to know that at best you might only be getting another year or two with her. If you have a good relationship with this particular vet and they've been dealing with the cat for a long time they know best of course.

Try to take confront in the fact that you got 14 years with that animal and the reason she's lived this long is because you've taken such good care of her. It's hard making these decisions for your pets because they can't communicate what they want or even understand these things. This is the main reason I don't keep more pets or get them intentionally anymore. I'll take it strays from time to time but it's always so hard when they get hit by a car or I have to put them down due to illness. Every time I've taken an animal in to be put down I feel like I'm leading my family member to the gas chamber.
 
Thanks man. Yeah chemo seems like a sketchy option. But I made an appointment to get some chest x-rays to see if there are any signs that it's metastasized, and if not, I'm going to definitely do the surgery. I guess if it has... then there's not really any point...
 
That seems like the best plan of action.

What a shitty situation, I hate when animals get sick. It's the worse, I love them so much they become a part of me and when they leave it's devastating. I couldn't function for a week when my childhood dog died. I remember talking about his passing on here, you all have been here through everything. Bluelight is a really special community to be apart of, especially PD.

Hope she feels okay, treasure this time

Charlie ? ✨
 
13 years later and we're still turning to PD for support and friendship.

Thanks buddy. ❤
 
Shadow, I really feel for you. The same thing happened to me a year and a half ago when my guinea pig got sick. I had been ignoring minor symptoms thinking he'd get better... eventually I got him to the vet, but by then it was too late, and the vet basically told me, "We can do some tests, and it'll cost you about 1k. I would understand if you just let him go." I had just got my tax return so I splurged and ended up spending about 1200 to try and save him... but to no avail. He was too sick, and I was still out the money.

I hope your cat recovers. Y'all are in my thoughts <3
 
Gonna be testing out some 4-AcO-DET soon. Was planning on taking a 20mg dose after the allergy test. Haven't had this 4-sub before and heard alot of mixed reviews. After taking this on its own I'm going to use it in a 15mg 4-HO-MET and 15mg 4-AcO-DET combo. Alot of you have been saying it gets sorta dark, thinking mixing it might cause a little positive push.

We shall see :)
 
Oh man, we played a good show tonight. Then we went to a party on someone's land on the top of a mountain... when we left, my guitar player was driving and I fell asleep in the car, and he almost did too, I came to as he was asking me where to go. We ended up going an hour too far east and it took us almost 3 hours to get home, and he was trying not to fall asleep. I talked to him the whole time ever since I woke up, I really wished I could have driven for him because I was wide awake but my license is suspended. Really glad we didn't die, he told me he got really close to driving off the road before I woke up.
 
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I went to my cousin's wedding last night. It was extremely extravagant, it had to have cost at least 50-100k. My uncle is a lawyer and I guess since it's his first kid to wed he decided to splurge. It was such a fun night, and my wife and I danced a bit which we haven't done in years.

It was a great night until I got home. We came in and saw our bedroom door open... maintenance staff had come by to fix our plumbing, but didn't know to close the door to stop our cat. He had literally torn the roofing of our crested gecko's tank to shreds, and the gecko was terrified and hiding in some cork. When we got her out to put her in temporary housing, she was so scared, and her tail was gone... We don't know if she dropped it in fear or if our demented cat got her by the tail and she barely escaped. Either way, if he managed to claw her body somewhere, she could end up dying from the bacteria in the cat's claws... She's my favorite of all our six pets and if that cat caused her a long painful death, I just might cut HIS tail off in retribution. I had finally accepted that I loved him, and then he tries to murder our favorite pet....

Mrs. Gravy is so depressed she's still in bed. I NEVER beat her out of bed...
 
Well, we managed to repair Pimienta's tank, and got everything cleaned up and put her back in it today. She's still as docile as ever, but she looks real funny with her 'frog butt' now. I can't really tell how the wound is healing. It doesn't look like the cat actually got to her, rather she dropped her tail in fear. It was weird having to pick it up and throw it out... As long as her tail wound heals well (which it should, crested geckos drop their tails often in the wild and are seldom seen with a tail still in adulthood) and doesn't get any sort of infection, I think she'll be on the up and up.

I'm happy she's seeming better, and hopefully in a week or two the wound will have healed over.
 
I'll keep her in my thoughts, that sounds really scary. Cats can be assholes, especially to small animals.
 
Just spilt like 20 or 30mls of 1,4 BDO on thw floor. The GHB and the edibles have me all fucked up. Still have like 150mls left so it will be okay. About to get on the subway and head to work. What a waste guys, but such a good high I feel fucking great!!#

Hope you guys do too :D
 
Once when I was 10 there was this stray I'd alway play with and feed. Once when coming back home I noticed her in my window. Then I freak out and ran to my back room and saw my bird cage on the floor and my parakeet freaking out but thankfully not hurt. Fortunately she didn't get to my frog tank.

Don't think I could have any small animals as pets now with my cat.
 
Nope, cats pretty much want to hunt, kill and eat small animals. or at least torture them to death. Cats can be kinda creepy. But god do I love them. :)
 
I have good news: I'm employed again! An old job begged me to come back.

Bad news: I was planning to taper off my olanzapine/trazodone that I've been taking for sleep. Looking like I'm going to have to put it off for another few weeks which means no tripping for some time and I'm causing tolerance to LSD and related substances until I can stop the meds. I don't see the doctor for 3 more months but I'm going to request that he switch my meds for the third or fourth time and request a sleep study. I don't feel like he's taking me seriously because he knows I used to take opioids/benzos unprescribed. I'm being punished for self medicating all those years when I couldn't afford a doctor. I'm not even requesting those drugs either I just don't want to be on an anti-psychotic/anti-depressant off label for sleep. The Zyprexa really has to go because it causes too many side effects. I get odd pains all over my body when I take it and it causes me to eat too much. I've gained 10 pounds just in the last two weeks. I eat constantly and never feel full I swear the munchies on that stuff are worse than any grass I've ever smoked.

I've been piddling in my garden and that's going pretty well. My tomatoes are doing great, I'm putting in cantaloupe today, the flowers are blooming, and I've got 15 special tomato plants sprouting right now. First day in the sun for them along with the 6 clones I took off my strongest regular tomato plant. If all goes well come fall I'll have so many special tomatoes I won't have to buy any until next spring. ;)
 
I just piddled in the garden some more. I should be happy because most everything I have is doing so well but I have one thing that's frustrating me. I bought a Japanese Red Maple Bonsai kit at Disney and sewed the seeds about a week ago. They aren't doing anything yet and I'm worried they'll all rot in the pot before I get a tree started. The company will send new seeds if I request them but I really don't want to go through all that trouble. I followed the instructions instead of doing my own research like I usually do. Turns out I'm supposed to soak the seeds for a few days, put them in the fridge for about a month, and then put them in the soil. I don't know if the company that sold them to me prepped them or not.

I really excited to finally get these trees sprouted. I'm going to make Bonsai with one of them and plant one in my yard near a 300 year old Maple. If there are any left over I'm going to give them away (I had 6 seeds). I've been attempting to get started with Bonsai for two years now and I've already killed multiple trees attempting to transplant them to a pot from the wild. I'm probably going to go to the garden center to see if anything catches my eye that I can practice on while I grow this one from seed. I probably should have just bought a started tree instead but I was worried about getting it back home. ;/
 
Congrats on the job. :)

I went in to see a urologist because of the kidney stones I had the other week, I saw him on Thursday last week. I gave a pee sample before going on and the doctor looked at it before seeing me. Dude spent like 5 minutes in the room with me and I explained what happened and he was like "it doesn't sound like anything to worry about if you feel fine now, and there's nothing worrying in your pee, but let's get you a CT scan to see if there are more in there". Then he was out the door I went ahead and signed up for the CT scan, and was supposed to have that today. But my insurance company called to let me know there was a cheaper facility down the road... and they gave me price estimates for both facilities. The one I was going to was $460, and the other one was $440. OOOH big savings. :cautious: In any case I canceled my appointment for the CT scan, or well, I tried to, the place wasn't answering any calls and their voice mail was full. So I just didn't show up. I had no idea it was going to cost that much. Problem is, I haven't been to the doctor at all this year so my deductible isn't met so I would have to pay the whole thing (though my deductible would be about met after that). And I am about to have to get an expensive surgery for my cat who has cancer. And I'm about to owe my ex $10-16,000 depending on where it lands. And I need to buy a new washing machine.

So many doctors are so unhelpful. Seems like every time I've been to a specialist in this health system, they've tried to push expensive procedures on me. The hand doctor, when I broke my hand, literally tried to force me into surgery where he was going to put titanium rods in my hand, for a little boxer's fracture. They refused to answer the phone whenever I tried to cancel and they'd leave me threatening voice mails after business hours saying I was going to owe them if I didn't make the surgery (that I specifically told them NOT to schedule and I'd call them back about it). Nonsense.

Anyway I'm going to schedule a physical, I get a totally free one, no copay even, once a year, and I haven't been in like 4 years. They get a little blood and check levels of a bunch of things so if something is off there, I will investigate further. In the meantime, I think I'm fine. Sadly I just can't afford to pay almost $500 for a scan that is almost for sure going to just show me that I'm fine (and then the doctor also wanted to schedule a follow-up office visit to discuss the results = more money). If it wasn't so expensive or if my insurance deductible was already paid I would have definitely done it. So... I think I'm glad I skipped it but I do hope that there isn't something wrong.
 
Dude, that's fucked up, both the price and the unhelpfulness. Where I live almost everything gets payed back by insurance for almost everybody, and normal doctors don't have a real way to take advantage like that of people. Healthcare seems like a big booming business with mainly money grabbing intentions, disgusting.

If I were in your shoes, I wouldn't have taken the scan either, fuck those guys.
 
Yeah the medical industry in America is so fucked, it's 100% for profit. And the insurance companies are fucked up too. Basically health care costs have exploded astronomically because they can bill insurance companies large amounts of money. Which is turn makes insurance premiums go up. Which makes it so less and less people can afford health insurance, which further raises the prices of insurance premiums. I have friends who haven't been to the doctor in 10 years, even when something seems sketchy. I mean I have a good group rate for health insurance through my job, where they pay 80% of the cost. And I am still paying $120 a month out of my pocket (pre-tax at least), so if $120 is 20%, that means my company is paying $480 a month, which means if I was just trying to get insurance as a single-payer, I'd be paying at least $600 a month which is fucking absurd and criminal. And today I was just thinking, you know, I pay about $1,440 a year on my insurance premium. And I also have a $600 deductible which just means the first $600 each year you have to pay out of pocket, and after that you only have to pay a small co-pay of $20-$40 per visit. So I am actually paying about $2000 out of pocket before my insurance benefits kick in (including the monthly premiums). I have never once in my life had to spend that much money on health care in a year. But you have it because what is something happens? What if I get appendicitis and need an operation in the ER and sudden;y I'm stuck with a $30,000 bill (this happens to people, it's horrible). With insurance I'd pay $600 of that plus a $150 emergency room copay and my insurance would pay the rest. So I guess it's for peace of mind but fuck, what a racket.
 
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