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Stimulants Paranoid, insecure, worthless comedown feelings

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Dotpool

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When I take Adderall 50 mg IR and above (my recreational dose), I feel great and dandy. Although after this short sensation I go into what I personally classify as an amp comedown. All I feel is energy and I can focus a lot more but no more euphoria. I start getting very VERY self conscious and anxious. I feel that everyone's saying bad things about me, and even staring at me. When I walk past people I hear them say hurtful things towards me..every single person. I really don't know if it's happening or not but if it isn't, I really would like a way to reduce or even eliminate these delusions. It's hard for me to get anything done when I hear people saying hateful things every time I come within 5-10ft. I've only been back on amphetamines for maybe 2-3 weeks, having a moderate-heavy use 2 or so years ago, and I'm already going down the same trail that is cut off by a giant ditch. I'm getting better at not re dosing, but if I don't re dose I get these paranoid, insecure, and worthless thoughts, rather than passing out from a 3-4 day binge usually accompanied by static and beeping noises, that came from my usual first time amphetamine experiences. I really have no motivation for anything, and everything doesn't even matter. I just can't deal with normal life AND the hurtful words and the mocking laughter I assume are towards me. Are there any ways to reduce paranoia and anxiety during times like this? I've gained weight recently and I feel like this may be connected to that? I've never had this problem before. :( I know this looks like a pathetic post. But if you have any personal ways of calming down during paranoid thoughts, it would be greatly appreciated if you could share. I just can't put into words how horrible it feels to have the feeling of being stared and mocked at the whole time one is in public.
 
Sadly, In my own experiences with any kind of uppers Adderal, Meth, coke, crack, ect.. The come down is so hard that it makes the high not even worth it. The come down makes me so depressed, super anxious, paranoid and negative thinking, to the point of even suicidal thoughts. The only thing to make it better was using opiates when coming down, thats the only thing I found to help. I do not recommend using MORE Drugs to help your situation.

Just wanted to say that your not the only one who gets like that on uppers. Hopefully you can find something to help.
 
It seems to be triggering social anxiety . Anxieties and stimulants = BAD combo.
You may need to find yourself a new drug if you're insistent on getting high.
 
Dude... i used to get this with weed. No i get tha feeling randomly when im not ecen high and i hate it so bad!!!! In sorry u have to deal with it too!!
 
One of my buddies used to get like that on amphetamine come downs...I always felt really awful for him
We would be out in public and he would be fully convinced he was overhearing people talking shit about him, looking at him....when no one was, I was right there to witness it.
Looking at it from an outsider perspective I was never sure if telling him it was all in his head would make him feel worse or not. All I could really do was let him vent about it.

Are you normally alone when this happens? I'd think it would be beneficial to be around someone you trust when you get to that point...or in a safe/comfortable place
o ya and SLEEP!
 
Thanks for the replies, I thought I would get hate but I just had to accept that I should not use amps for social interactions. I'll stick to them on the weekends alone and use my opiates for more social interactions. They used to give me confidence and self respect, guess I'm paying for it now. It's fine though, stims aren't the only drug in the world. Thanks guys :).
 
Most anyone gets some of that but normally takes more than just 50mg . See about anxiety problems with a doc . 1 or 2 mg klonopin or a Xanax bar will ease a dose of 60+ but anymore benzo or less amp and you'll just kill the amphetamine effect
 
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