fixedatzero
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- Apr 18, 2011
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Hi everyone,
I've been dreading posting on forums about this but I've had a history of opiate use due to chronic and major depression and anxiety. I never considered myself the so-called 'hardcore user' because my habits have never lasted more than 2 months and the only time I've ever done anything considered seriously hardcore was snorting high doses of opana for about 3 weeks and then having to withdraw from it. It was one of the worst experiences of my life.
I stayed fairly clean after my opana binge back in 2011 but I recently ran into a large supply of Oxycontin (OP) 40s and I've been using them for about a month. My tolerance kicked in quickly so I started taking 80mg in the morning and 80mg 12 hours later. All of this came after coming out of a psych ward for severe depression. They tried to put me on on all sorts of anti-psychotics like Zyprexa, and changing my other meds and I've been dealing with that since I was 11 years old. I'm sick of it. So I was looking at using this Oxycontin as a mood stabilizer for depression. I take them orally so they euphoric effect is pretty minimal. They just make me feel happy for about 4-5 hours.
5 days ago, I tried to stop them (cold turkey) while I was ahead but failed. I cry every night as they wear off because I know I'll have to stop eventually and go through that horrible withdrawal and return that horrid depression and anxiety 24/7. The unavoidable sadness of coming off aside, how can I make my withdrawal more comfortable. The 3 days I experienced were nothing like the Opana back in 2011 and I still don't know how I got through that but this was pretty bad too.
I read on a forum people were taking 50mg of immodium every 2 hours (that's a LOT of immodium) and DXM. I've never had any desire to go on DXM trip so I was scared to do that. So if you guys have any tips to get off 3 months (assuming that's how long it'll last) of 160mg or sometimes more Oxycontin OP (every 12 hours), please lay it out for me. I didn't like NA and I'm afraid of rehab but those are some long distance goals I have right now. Right now I need a plan to detox without suboxone or methadone (scared of those).
And please no judgments... if you have nothing constructive to add, I prefer you do not add anything at all. I'm going through a life-crisis at 25 and I'm trying to find the light.
p.s. The good news (I guess) is I have a new psychiatrist who may be able to find the right meds for me. I've been to so many and they never couldn't so I'm hoping for the best. I'll be seeing him in May.
I've been dreading posting on forums about this but I've had a history of opiate use due to chronic and major depression and anxiety. I never considered myself the so-called 'hardcore user' because my habits have never lasted more than 2 months and the only time I've ever done anything considered seriously hardcore was snorting high doses of opana for about 3 weeks and then having to withdraw from it. It was one of the worst experiences of my life.
I stayed fairly clean after my opana binge back in 2011 but I recently ran into a large supply of Oxycontin (OP) 40s and I've been using them for about a month. My tolerance kicked in quickly so I started taking 80mg in the morning and 80mg 12 hours later. All of this came after coming out of a psych ward for severe depression. They tried to put me on on all sorts of anti-psychotics like Zyprexa, and changing my other meds and I've been dealing with that since I was 11 years old. I'm sick of it. So I was looking at using this Oxycontin as a mood stabilizer for depression. I take them orally so they euphoric effect is pretty minimal. They just make me feel happy for about 4-5 hours.
5 days ago, I tried to stop them (cold turkey) while I was ahead but failed. I cry every night as they wear off because I know I'll have to stop eventually and go through that horrible withdrawal and return that horrid depression and anxiety 24/7. The unavoidable sadness of coming off aside, how can I make my withdrawal more comfortable. The 3 days I experienced were nothing like the Opana back in 2011 and I still don't know how I got through that but this was pretty bad too.
I read on a forum people were taking 50mg of immodium every 2 hours (that's a LOT of immodium) and DXM. I've never had any desire to go on DXM trip so I was scared to do that. So if you guys have any tips to get off 3 months (assuming that's how long it'll last) of 160mg or sometimes more Oxycontin OP (every 12 hours), please lay it out for me. I didn't like NA and I'm afraid of rehab but those are some long distance goals I have right now. Right now I need a plan to detox without suboxone or methadone (scared of those).
And please no judgments... if you have nothing constructive to add, I prefer you do not add anything at all. I'm going through a life-crisis at 25 and I'm trying to find the light.
p.s. The good news (I guess) is I have a new psychiatrist who may be able to find the right meds for me. I've been to so many and they never couldn't so I'm hoping for the best. I'll be seeing him in May.
