haleyhaleyhaley
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so i took oxy for the first time last night and i have to say, i don't see how people form addictions to this shit.
before i even started, i was exhausted. i almost didn't take them because i was so tired, i was afraid i would fall asleep and waste them. i recorded the whole experience on a voice recorder, but apparently i didn't actually record the majority of it. i didn't even open the app until the end. maybe i was tripping. i don't know. either way, mot of the timestamps are gone, but i can say that the whole thing lasted from about 2:19am to maybe 10:00amish.
at 2:19, i took an immediate release 10mg pill orally with water. everyone was sleeping, and i was on my loft bed, about 8 feet in the air. mistake number one.
i waited maybe 50 minutes, and absolutely nothing happened. i took another 10mg oxy, though this one wasn't ir. i waited.
after 10ish minutes, i had to pee. i was torn, because i didn't want to piss the drugs out of my system, but i didn't want the having to pee to ruin the high. (side note: i said almost those exact words to myself when i thought i was recording the experience. "...but i don't want the pee-ness to ruin the high. pppphbt, haha, penis." maybe it was the exhaustion, maybe my own sober sense of humor, probably not the oxy.) i went pee anyway. mistake number two.
it's hard to tell how much time passed without the nonexistent record of what happened, maybe another hour. not much happened except a dull headache, so i took another non-ir 10mg oxy, chewing it this time and washing it down with water.
maybe 20 minutes later, i started to feel something very weak. it's hard to explain, kind of like the lines of my body were squiggly. like dr katz from family guy. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2GBbaOU1LJA
i lay down face first on my bed, and i felt (very faintly) like i was on a boat. maybe i was so concentrated on feeling the high that i missed it, but it didn't seem like the euphoria i expected, so i took another 10mg oxy (swallowing again) after maybe half an hour. it was impalpable: i felt a little loopy, kind of like a sleep deprivation high. maybe it was because i was so tired.
i played out a little scene in my head, kind of like a daydream, but it was no more vivid than usual. it felt good, but not like a high or even a buzz. i think this is when it reached its peak.
i guess i fell asleep for a couple hours, and when i woke up, i still felt loopy and dizzy. it was getting late/early (somewhere between 4:00am and 6:00am) and i still thought the high had potential, so i took one last 10mg oxy. mistake number three. i think the only thing this did was potentiate the comedown, which i'm still suffering from.
the whole time, the most i ever felt was slightly loopy, and i've felt more of a high by staying up for two days straight. i was constantly aware of the time, what was playing on tv, and the fact that i was supposed to be high. maybe i shouldn't have put so much pressure on myself, but it was a waste of oxy and a lot of buildup to nothing.
now it's 5:31pm and i feel like my body is lined with lead, i have a minor headache, i'm nauseous, and i want a do-over on a high that never came. i have two more 10mg regular oxy and 4 or 5 10mg oxy ir, thinking about mixing them with maybe a valium or some adderall. need to do some research first. going to wait until next weekend, maybe do some pure speed before i think about mixing the adderall with the oxy, if i even should at all. either way, this experience didn't yield a dragon for me to chase.
before i even started, i was exhausted. i almost didn't take them because i was so tired, i was afraid i would fall asleep and waste them. i recorded the whole experience on a voice recorder, but apparently i didn't actually record the majority of it. i didn't even open the app until the end. maybe i was tripping. i don't know. either way, mot of the timestamps are gone, but i can say that the whole thing lasted from about 2:19am to maybe 10:00amish.
at 2:19, i took an immediate release 10mg pill orally with water. everyone was sleeping, and i was on my loft bed, about 8 feet in the air. mistake number one.
i waited maybe 50 minutes, and absolutely nothing happened. i took another 10mg oxy, though this one wasn't ir. i waited.
after 10ish minutes, i had to pee. i was torn, because i didn't want to piss the drugs out of my system, but i didn't want the having to pee to ruin the high. (side note: i said almost those exact words to myself when i thought i was recording the experience. "...but i don't want the pee-ness to ruin the high. pppphbt, haha, penis." maybe it was the exhaustion, maybe my own sober sense of humor, probably not the oxy.) i went pee anyway. mistake number two.
it's hard to tell how much time passed without the nonexistent record of what happened, maybe another hour. not much happened except a dull headache, so i took another non-ir 10mg oxy, chewing it this time and washing it down with water.
maybe 20 minutes later, i started to feel something very weak. it's hard to explain, kind of like the lines of my body were squiggly. like dr katz from family guy. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2GBbaOU1LJA
i lay down face first on my bed, and i felt (very faintly) like i was on a boat. maybe i was so concentrated on feeling the high that i missed it, but it didn't seem like the euphoria i expected, so i took another 10mg oxy (swallowing again) after maybe half an hour. it was impalpable: i felt a little loopy, kind of like a sleep deprivation high. maybe it was because i was so tired.
i played out a little scene in my head, kind of like a daydream, but it was no more vivid than usual. it felt good, but not like a high or even a buzz. i think this is when it reached its peak.
i guess i fell asleep for a couple hours, and when i woke up, i still felt loopy and dizzy. it was getting late/early (somewhere between 4:00am and 6:00am) and i still thought the high had potential, so i took one last 10mg oxy. mistake number three. i think the only thing this did was potentiate the comedown, which i'm still suffering from.
the whole time, the most i ever felt was slightly loopy, and i've felt more of a high by staying up for two days straight. i was constantly aware of the time, what was playing on tv, and the fact that i was supposed to be high. maybe i shouldn't have put so much pressure on myself, but it was a waste of oxy and a lot of buildup to nothing.
now it's 5:31pm and i feel like my body is lined with lead, i have a minor headache, i'm nauseous, and i want a do-over on a high that never came. i have two more 10mg regular oxy and 4 or 5 10mg oxy ir, thinking about mixing them with maybe a valium or some adderall. need to do some research first. going to wait until next weekend, maybe do some pure speed before i think about mixing the adderall with the oxy, if i even should at all. either way, this experience didn't yield a dragon for me to chase.
