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Miss Trust said:
Thanks J3. Don't worry if it takes quite a while as I am on a waiting list to see a psychiatrist, that takes a year around here.....at least and sometimes longer...
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Wow...assume you are in US? What a shitty healthcare system we have....
 
I'm sorry you're having a rough time Miss Trust. I messed up my life with opiates and alcohol so I can relate to the hopelessness. I'm also bipolar and cannot tell you how many meds I've been on over the years. The most recent was latuda which I hated so quit taking it. Have you considered opiate replacement, like methadone or suboxone?
 
I'm bipolar too and recently went through a bad depressive phase because my physical condition is shot to hell. I am also a rapid cycler and I was depressed for TWO MONTHS, something that almost never happens to me. I even made a half-assed attempt at hanging myself (my husband was laughing at me the whole time because I was trying to duct-tape the rope to the ceiling cuz I didn't have anywhere to tie up the rope! Pathetic, I know.) but I knew, thanks to my bipolar tendencies, that "what goes down must come up." It's simply my brain chemistry. I can't STAY depressed. I'm coming out of it now....my appetite is back, I'm sleeping less, can't say that I'm "happy" but I'm not miserable anymore.

I take Zyprexa, 5 mg at night. It works...WHEN I REMEMBER TO TAKE IT. I think the reason I got into this depression was I kept taking opiate meds at night for the pain and I'd conk out before I took my evening meds. If I had been steady with them, it might not have been so bad.

Hang in there. You'll swing the other way soon. And you CAN find meds that help and a therapist that understands.
 
Treefa said:
Yup life sucks half the time..it's not fair and all that noise, but hell at least you got money and oxycontin!

Life ain't no Goddamn video game..you just get 1, like them kids in Africa. It could always be worse..always.
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this... glad you didn't kill yourself <3
 
Turk@GG said:
Miss Trust- No problem, and I am speaking from experience. I was in your position a couple times in my life (though I gotta say having BP must make it more difficult for you) I got help and things slowly started getting better. Suicide is just not an option.
Do not be ashamed to ask for help either, it is a good thing!

Oh and to answer your question, a pyschoactive substance is any substance that can affect your brain/mood/perception....includes all legal pharmaceuticals and street drugs.
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Thanx Turk. Nice to talk to people who have been here and know what I am saying. You got it right, we get "ashamed" after a while and then just hide out and hope it all goes away soon. :(
 
T. Calderone said:
I'm sorry you're having a rough time Miss Trust. I messed up my life with opiates and alcohol so I can relate to the hopelessness. I'm also bipolar and cannot tell you how many meds I've been on over the years. The most recent was latuda which I hated so quit taking it. Have you considered opiate replacement, like methadone or suboxone?
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Hey Judge Judy, I never thought I would end up in your court...=D (I didn't do it).....
Pills all have side effects. So hard to take them.
 
xtcgrrrl said:
I'm bipolar too and recently went through a bad depressive phase because my physical condition is shot to hell. I am also a rapid cycler and I was depressed for TWO MONTHS, something that almost never happens to me. I even made a half-assed attempt at hanging myself (my husband was laughing at me the whole time because I was trying to duct-tape the rope to the ceiling cuz I didn't have anywhere to tie up the rope! Pathetic, I know.) but I knew, thanks to my bipolar tendencies, that "what goes down must come up." It's simply my brain chemistry. I can't STAY depressed. I'm coming out of it now....my appetite is back, I'm sleeping less, can't say that I'm "happy" but I'm not miserable anymore.

I take Zyprexa, 5 mg at night. It works...WHEN I REMEMBER TO TAKE IT. I think the reason I got into this depression was I kept taking opiate meds at night for the pain and I'd conk out before I took my evening meds. If I had been steady with them, it might not have been so bad.

Hang in there. You'll swing the other way soon. And you CAN find meds that help and a therapist that understands.
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Don't you gain weight on that Zyprexa? I hate to gain weight. I am already 20 lbs over weight. Thanks for your post.:)
 
ComfortablyNumb95 said:
Hey Miss..
you could try and post in The Dark Side and theMental Health forums..
I'm sure you'll get a lot of support :)
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Thanks CNumb. I will do that. I am trying to get off oxy, most important, but then my bipolar kicks me hard. When I take oxy, I feel so damn happy. I love the feeling, but eventually I can't breath, then I have to take more. My doctor gives me 240 a month and I can get more thru my bro and friends, if I need it. I would like to just stay on it, but we all gotta breath, A?
 
Fuck off - it's the best way to go... Op8 wise yeah.... Amphet would suck dick, but I'ma going out sinking into that warm bath fo fucking sho... Anyhoo - old mate's not gonna do it, it's a plea for help...
"I'm the Rzarector, be my sacrifice
Commit suicide and I'll bring you back to life.
The first was convinced
Stuck a water hose in his mouth at full blast so his head can explode
Second one said, "Hmmmm, that's good but I can top it!"
Put an ax up to his head and then he chopped it
Blood shot out in every direction
The rest didn't know what to do, I made suggestions
Put a slug in your mug; overdose on a drug;
Wet your hand, stick a knife in the plug
Or be like Richard Pryor set your balls on fire
Better yet, go hang yourself with a barbed wire.
Three and Four fell deep into the spell and
Ran to the zoo, locked themselves in the lion's den
Number Five said, "It ain't worth being alive!"
Smoked a dust joint, mixed it with cyanide
The only one who escaped was number six
He went home, sat in the tub, and slit his wrists
Yeah, more graves to dig. Goodbye
There's no need to cry...cause we all die."
GRAVEDIGGAZ
PtP
 
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