budsnbars712
Bluelighter
I have been to the hospital for oxy last year as one day I woke up and was vomiting and had diarrhea at the same time. Along with SEVERE anxiety as I am on klonopin 1 mg 2 times a day and still am. I stopped oxy for months and this winter slowly would grab a couple at a time. Maybe do one every other weekend or go on a two-3 day binge and then stay away from them for a couple of weeks.
But this past week I got my hands on 15 20 mg roxys. So I wont lie as I am on here for my own safety and have done about anywhere from 20-40 mgs a day in the last 5 days. I plan on cranking another 30 mg right now.
After having what happened to me last year, I am afraid to ever withdraw like that again. At that time I was taking percs, klonpin and 30 mg blues. But on and off with the opiates. Then one morning after taking a perc, klonopin and drinking a beer, I was so sick and than suffered from multiple panic attacks. They landed me in the hospital as I thought I was going to die. I was pacing in a minivan breathing into a paper bag for christ sakes on the way there. Then I could not be left alone for the next couple of days as I was super scared of life. I never want to experience this ever again.
It is really the panic attacks I am worried about getting again as I do not know why I got them. Maybe from straight oxy withdrawal as it increases anxiety and I already suffer from that? Or maybe that I really couldn't keep anything in my system and I might have also been going thru klonopin withdrawal? Now I never abuse the klonopin. I take it as directed, 1 mg twice a day. When I come off the benzos, which I have done before successfully with xanax tapering, I will also taper with the klonopin. But for right now I would like to know am I vulnerable to this again? Last year when I did go thru this, I was on and off opiates for about 4 months before I woke up that morning. More on than off though. Any advice or input would be helpful thanks..
Also, what about kratom for my situation? I have a low opiate tolerance as I need 30 mg roxi to feel good.
But this past week I got my hands on 15 20 mg roxys. So I wont lie as I am on here for my own safety and have done about anywhere from 20-40 mgs a day in the last 5 days. I plan on cranking another 30 mg right now.
After having what happened to me last year, I am afraid to ever withdraw like that again. At that time I was taking percs, klonpin and 30 mg blues. But on and off with the opiates. Then one morning after taking a perc, klonopin and drinking a beer, I was so sick and than suffered from multiple panic attacks. They landed me in the hospital as I thought I was going to die. I was pacing in a minivan breathing into a paper bag for christ sakes on the way there. Then I could not be left alone for the next couple of days as I was super scared of life. I never want to experience this ever again.
It is really the panic attacks I am worried about getting again as I do not know why I got them. Maybe from straight oxy withdrawal as it increases anxiety and I already suffer from that? Or maybe that I really couldn't keep anything in my system and I might have also been going thru klonopin withdrawal? Now I never abuse the klonopin. I take it as directed, 1 mg twice a day. When I come off the benzos, which I have done before successfully with xanax tapering, I will also taper with the klonopin. But for right now I would like to know am I vulnerable to this again? Last year when I did go thru this, I was on and off opiates for about 4 months before I woke up that morning. More on than off though. Any advice or input would be helpful thanks..
Also, what about kratom for my situation? I have a low opiate tolerance as I need 30 mg roxi to feel good.
