ChemicallyEnhanced
Bluelighter
Was wondering in the long term what would be a better solution for panic attacks. Been getting them through the years but past few months due to personal and work reasons outside my control, the anxiety has just been messing me up fucking daily. I just feel like besides wrecking me mentally, the genuine strain it's putting my body through is without a doubt worse than what either opioids or benzos would do to me, and I don't want no SSRI shit.
I work out eat well do all the good things. Just can't sleep and hurt in my chest feeling like I'm going to have a heart attack most days when I wake up, and the days I don't feel so anxious, I'm just exhausted and depressed from the rollercoster.
I can obviously get prescribed benzos quite easily with my symptoms if I go to psychiatrist(clean medical record) and I know how to extract pure morphine from poppies. I have never been addicted to either and haven't taken either for years, but I was addicted to alcohol before and was drinking bottle of whiskey a day.
For five years now I have only been drinking a reasonable two to four beers, maybe once a month or so. Really keeping it under control. But because of my current situation I stopped drinking recreationally at the start of the year, and drink only to calm things down if I've had attacks too many days in a row. This ends up being roughly once every two weeks. Obviously that's very light drinking, but I feel uneasy going down that path with alcohol again as there are better and healthier chemical solutions.
So yeah basically my thought process between benzos or opioids is that benzos do neurological damage, their sudden withdrawal may cause death, they work on same receptors as alcohol which way reduce their effect on me, and in general there's immense stigma around opioids even if in the past they were used anxiolytically in medicine. I don't know maybe I'm talking out of my ass, but I'd rather be dependant on morphine than benzos but want to hear some more well-informed opinions.
Very very definitely benzos.