One year of Oral Meth Daily life changing

[negrogesic]

Giving a seminar once is not "being a lecturer at" so I think this is hardly evidence of anything. Sorry for getting off topic but I felt this had to be pointed out.

I am not Dr. Carl Hart . Acklac was deadset on that idea though.

But I've been a guest lecturer there a handful of times now, but nothing to do with what Hart talks about. In fact no one here could even guess what I do occasionally lecture on, or rather what I'm actually qualified to lecture on, because it's a subject matter/field that I've never once discussed here, even in passing. It's not a hard science, but it is quantitative in nature, that's all I'll say, and it was an occasional elective in a certain graduate program. Never had more than 9 students in a given class, it only happened irregularly. And I doubt I'll ever teach that class again since the chair of that department has since changed. I designed that elective from the ground up, made all the materials myself, on very short notice (the first time around) as someone else fell through and the chair at the time knew me and liked me, and asked if I would be interested in coming up with something, and it was approved. Will never teach there again with this new chair, was really based entirely on my relationship with the chair at the time.

But I'm definitely not Carl Hart, I'm more of a dark skinned white guy than a light skinned black guy.

 

[Alex1991]

You're one of the lucky ones. Not many people face such a lack of consequence.

 

[Kurt Cobain]

Deciding to update my journal

Here I was finishing up my senior year of College, with a near 4.0 GPA laughing my ass off on the daily when teachers compliment my “intelligence”. When all of a sudden the temperature heated up over here on the coast in which I live by about 20 degrees.



Headaches and “overamping symptoms” have started to occur out of nowhere with massive amounts of tension which has temporarily put a halt to my laughter. It appears I have to up dat dere magnesium and invest in some loose fitting t shirts that hopefully allow me to be endowed by a comfortable breeze. I started my shenanigans last summer when I was tempted by the great beast, and Adderall was not enough to my satisfaction in helping my studies in which I might add the least of which are academic related. Indeed,I have read well over 100 books in the past 9 months, while scoring at the 93rd percentile on a quite difficult standardized exam, that on my next attempt will turn from 93rd to 99th. I will also add i dose 40-60 mg a day now as compared to The 15mg and 20mg back then which I guess didn’t bother me at the time since I’ve always worn hoodies even in the summer. This dosage is my limit as beyond it my cognition declines, and my anxiety increases



Now for my summary



The happiness of Crystal Meth is not passive or placid as that of beasts. It is self conscious. It tells man what he is, and what he might be. It offers him the semblance of divinity, only that he may know himself a worm. It awakens discontent so acutely that never shall it sleep again. It creates hunger. Give Crystal Meth to a man already wise, schooled to the world, morally forceful, a man of intelligence and self-control. If he be really master of himself, it will do him no harm. He will know it for a snare; he will beware of repeating such experiments as he may make; and the glimpse of his goal may possibly even spur him to its attainment by those means which God has appointed for His saints.



But, give it to the clod, to the self-indulgent, to the blasé—to the average man, in a word—and he is lost. He says, and his logic is perfect: This is what I want. He knows not, neither can he know, the true path; and the false path is the only one for him. There is Crystal Meth at his need, and he takes it again and again. The contrast between his grub life and his butterfly life is too bitter for his un-philosophic soul to bear; he refuses to take the brimstone with the treacle.

And so he can no longer tolerate the moments of unhappiness, that is, of normal life, for he now so names it. The intervals between his indulgences diminish.



Indeed there is a secret behind the madness of use For stigmas and prohibition is no cure. The cure is to give the people something to think about; to develop their minds; to fill them with ambitions beyond dollars; to set up a standard of achievement which is to be measured in terms of eternal realities; in a word, to educate them.

If this appears impossible, well and good. It is only another argument for encouraging them to take Crystal Meth.

Brother you are tweaked out writing this, I think the dosage you claimed to be at is beyond where you should be for a "medicinal" use. You're letting it get away from you and you're doing what every single addict before you has done. Your self awareness and anxiety will not prevent you from being an addict and it's quite obvious you are pretty keen to speed. You say that your 40-50mg dose is the most you'll go but you said that about 25mg now it's doubled so when will it end? What are you Going to do when your tolerance catches up again? It may be helping you now but you're on a slippery slope. You're clearly a stim addict and I'm not putting you down for that but be real with yourself man.

Best of luck to ya just don't be stupid and keep lying to yourself

 

[Kurt Cobain]

Biggest roadblock was the anxiety of having too many options. I was receiving emails and letters from Yale Harvard and Stanford to apply for free, while simultaneously I knew I did not want to be a lawyer. So this experience of too many options a long with letters and emails from top universities not to mention the pandemic caused me to fall into depression for a few months, which taking more meth just made worse so I stopped for 6 months out of the previous 12 and am now back on full time.

I took the Big 5 Personality test to be specific based on the OCEAN model which stands for Openness, Conscientiousness, Extroversion/Introversion, Agreeableness, Neuroticism and while I have two of the 3 main lawyer traits low agreeableness, high conscientiousness. I am lacking completely in the third as my openness score was at the 100th percentile yet low openness is suited for lawyers (can't be creative with the law!). So that would be one thing I would recommend a person to take if they want to achieve as close to maximum productivity as possible first and foremost since without knowing who you are I don't think you'll be able to apply my principles I would write in my handbook

I always get a good laugh at how at one point on another forum I had the highest ranked Reading Comprehension guide(I still might) which is a section on the LSAT that I wrote on Meth, and also scored perfectly on it as well (with a lot of time remaining as well) It's on Reddit, you can probably find it if you wanted to bad enough it's not a typical post lol. I also remember at one point due to my progress people were posting about if the LSAT is an aptitude or learned skill type of test. This question will be addressed in the handbook it's quite mindblowing and has a lot to do with linguistics or what is better called general semantics. I'm convinced a lot of the research and work I plan on doing with general semantics could help drug users more than possibly anything else has

I don't say these things to brag, I believe anybody can do similar things with the right group of people to discuss these things with and of course immense sacrifice. My friend was seeing tremendous results with my system until I fell into depression and then he did as well (with him it was because of COVID) but he hasn't taken it in about a year now so no harm done, but he was just getting into the grind and BAM pandemic lockdown!

I'm paving the road now as I took the first step towards my journey back into Math which suits him more also (that or computer science)

You also seem like you're seeking attention for your accomplishments which good on ya for setting a goal and getting after it but you also appear to be seeking validation as if accomplishing things is a valid excuse to use meth. This shit takes the best of people man don't go around thinking you're better than that because you've clearly had an issue with Adderall going up to 300mg daily and already breaking your vow of not going above 20-25mg of ice and nearly doubling it and saying the same thing again how you won't go beyond that. Not trying to be a dick but I think you got a weird perspective on all of this and if you are seeking validation for why it's okay to use meth for you personally ask yourself why you're seeking that validation because I'm sure part of you knows deep down it's not the actual right play for you.

 

[Parabolan]

Play it safe bro