Johnny blue said:
I don't give a shit if he does or doesn't but he certainly doesn't do it because oxy doesn't work for him. We're talking about one of the most successful opiates ever. I should have never come to his defense earlier in this thread.
Well, I said I was done with this thread, but I saw the recent reply (I was hoping that everybody would just leave it alone) and like a drug, I had to come back again.
Johnny blue, this thread isn't some kind of contest or war of wits or some attempt by me to deceive people. I don't get my kicks by making outrageous threads full of lies. I've been here at Bluelight for years and If you went to my profile and checked all of the threads I've made, you'd see that I'm not one to make grandiose claims or blatantly ignorant posts. I'm mainly known on these boards as a person with extensive experience with poppy seed tea and tramadol. Anybody who knows me at all knows these things about me and knows that I'm not prone to telling outrageous lies. That's a pathetic thing to do, to try to garner attention at online forums by making up lies, and I'm not a pathetic shut in who craves attention and tries to get it any way he can. I'm a 37 year old man who shares a house with his brother, I have a regular job managing a store, I have friends and family who I'm close with, I have a dog, I have a computer animation degree, I play guitar and classical piano, and I'm a moderator at another popular online forum for video games and classic console emulation. I'm just a regular fucking guy (by the way, just for your information, I never abused drugs regularly until I was 33 and it started by taking darvons for tooth pain) who also happens to be an addict. And about that oxy you seem to think I'm lying about... here is the
trip report I posted back in '04. Apparently,
This guy had a similar experience to mine, so I guess he's lying too, huh? The general consensus seemed to be that when I snorted it, my nasal passages were too dry and it didn't get absorbed, and was therefore wasted. I also had a decent tolerance at the time, so I'm sure that had something to do with it.
Johnny blue, you say that you should have never come to my defense earlier in this thread. I assume you're refering to
this post? Well, I wouldn't really call that 'coming to my defense' (you're giving yourself WAY too much credit there, buddy). After you 'defend me', you apparently have a change of heart and profess a certain expertise in 'detecting lies', and then you go on to call me a liar. I believe what you said was "
I really think your reaching to defend this and am pretty positive your flat out lying at least to some degree. A good way I've learned to tell a liar is when someone details an explanation that no one asked for" (by the way, it's YOU'RE, not YOUR). Well, I'm not going to sit here and be called a liar without defending myself, but I'm also WAY beyond trying to convince anyone otherwise by actively arguing my point. I'll just say that I've been telling nothing but the truth since the beginning of this whole thing, I am not a liar, and if I gave more of a shit than I do, I might actually be offended at being called one. So as it stands, merely rebutting your accusation is enough for me.
When I made this thread originally, I only posted a couple of times at the beginning because I didn't have an internet connection (I used the University computers, and no, I'm not a student). Several months after all of this had gone down, I got my internet back and checked on this thread. I have to say that I was really surprised at the reaction I was getting from people. It really didn't cross my mind that there would be such an overwhelming wave of rejection and disbelief about this topic. The thread was closed at the time and I couldn't reply, so I made another thread in trip reports, where it really belonged (people there for the most part have reacted with more of an open mind, so a thanks goes out to all of them).
I have suffered a lot of derision because I was honest describing my experiences in this thread, and as a result my reputation here has suffered. Because I told the truth about my experience with loperamide, now a lot of people here think I'm a troll and make active fun of me (don't think I haven't noticed the title of
this thread). Some people are taking potshots at me in unrelated threads,
such as this post (I was kidding in that quote, by the way, I don't really hate the guy... I was just getting into the spirit of the thread, which is 'what do you think of each other in the lounge') and
these posts. There are more, but I'm not going to dig them up. Those are just a few examples of the kind of crap that I have to put up with now because I was honest and, in restrospect, somewhat naive about how people would react.
Let me ask you this Johnny blue. Based on my history here since 2003, and the presence I have established as a generally normal thinking person, why would I want to subject myself to the ridicule and derision that I have experienced here as a result of saying what I've said and continue to say? I don't like being called a liar and having my credibility called into question. I don't enjoy being alienated and ridiculed. And I especially don't relish having to put up with the plethora of ignorance being displayed in this thread, along with the 'witty asides' being made at my expense in other threads.
I remember the original thread that was made a couple of years ago by somebody who also claimed that they could get high on loperamide. Based on the general reaction in that thread, I shoud have expected how people would react to this one, but like I said, I was naive. I expected that since I was confirming the other report, and also including a lot of detail about my expereince, that people would generally accept it. Man, was I ever wrong. And man, have I learned my lesson. Here it is, if anyone wants to take any benefit from it. Three things I have learned or been reminded about people as a result of all of this:
1. People, generally, are willingly blind and ignorant when it comes to controversial ideas and would prefer to jump on the popular bandwagon.
2. When a person is given the choice between considering or belittling a controversial idea, generally he or she will choose to belittle because it's the popular thing to do.
3. People don't WANT to change or consider their beliefs, especially if their beliefs are challenged and the alternative is unpopular.
I can't say that I'm enjoying this thread, but as long as it's open, I've decided that I'll continue to reply to the occassional asshole when required. Like I said, I'm not going to just sit back and let somebody call me a liar or offer any other type of derision to me personally without at least a standard rebuttal.