On a binge that doesn't seem to end.

[Lifeandtimes]

She hasn't written in a while, i hope she is doing well

 

[fifleman]

We all cry out for help. But when we're confronted with what exactly to do, we become vacant.

 

[narky1]

My 2 cents,please stop the binging, I started 20 odd years ago ,started with 1 gram to myself or an 8 ball split between a group of friends that progressed to an 8 ball to myself without the need of friends to share it with lol! this over 10 years developed to 5grams to myself over 1 session , then after 15 years this resulted in pychosis,temporary scizophrenia and terrible consequences on family life. 20 years on I still do it but only once a month, have cut back from 5/6g to an 8ball , but If I could turn back the clocks I wouldnt have let my use escalate in volume as I did, please heed my advice , cut back otherwise one day you will cross that invisible line and damage your life perhaps permanently..............take care of yourself.

 

[ech0s85]

you really need to stop, but if youre not going to, you really should be getting a better deal if youre spending that kind of money. At least everywhere ive ever bought drugs. I bet youve been financing somebody elses addiction of the same size this whole time.

 

[BlueberryfishY]

Mind blowing prices..

I have read so many threads in this forum and feel selfish to write about my problems because I am aware that so many people on this forum have it so much worse than I do. But I do feel like I am going to be at that point soon if I do not quit.

I've tried to just kick it. Obviously this is a mental drug and usually has no physical withdrawl symptoms.

But I believe that is bullshit. As soon as I am out, my nasal cavities feel like they are on fire. My head hurts badly, my nose feels like I have unbelievable sinus pressure...

I do not have anything, not even depression. But I do believe that depression will be coming soon, and it will be too deep when it does.

My family has not noticed anything yet because I have not asked them for extra money until today. I told them I was moving into a more expensive living area and asked for an extra grand a month. They refused, telling me how spoiled I was and I had to work for extra. Of course I was furious at them, telling them they were selfish. I do believe my mom thinks something is wrong with me because I am not one to fly off the handle like that.

As soon as I did, she told me she would send the money only this month but after that I am done. that should last me a little more than a week. But I know once the money is gone, I will literally have no money to pay the bills next month. I am on the verge of being kicked out of my apartment. I know money will be given to me next month but I feel as if I need it for more. I don't know if I am making any sense. I am currently on my last line and freaking out right now. My dealer is at a club 30 miles away. It is snowing out of this world and I am prepared to take a shower, do myself up, and pay another 600 dollars to get 6 grams. Should I only get 3 grams and save the money? Because I know the more I get, the more I do. I don't know I am not making any sense, my mind is racing right now.

Dude WTF are you thinking paying 600$ for 6 grams? you are getting stuffed bad on that deal.

Get a bunch of benzo's with mom and dads money they give you to come off the cocaine with, use them wisely and as needed only cause you don't want to get addicted to them trust me.

but seriously quit wasting your money on that shit, i could get over a half ounce for 600$ so yeah.

 

[Provoke]

Everyone is stressing out the fact that cocaine is the problem but your true problem is not cocaine, it's the fact that you can't afford it. If you had a few million in your savings account, you wouldn't be here posting. It's like taking a Ferrari for a test drive and liking it so much that you don't want to return it to the dealership anymore and, since you can't afford it, you end up stealing it and getting into a lot of trouble. You are following the same path.

You need to look at it from a financial point of view. You do not have 4500$/month to support your lifestyle. Yes...doing 1.5g a day is nice...but there's 1000s of nice things that we all could do if we had the funds...like...I would buy myself a 0.0000g analytical scale for 4000$...nice things cost money.

We can all sit in a circle and cry because we're not actors or millionaires or we can settle for things we can afford. Ain't that right?

Another dude mentioned amphetamines...it can help.