Oh the irony.

[harraser]

The night is over
A good time was had by all,
Maybe surprisingly, even me.
The night is over
Im tired
Id love to just curl up against your back
And drift off to a warm dreamless sleep.
But I cant.
I picked up my phone tonight,
I was gonna write you a goodnight message.
But I didnt.
I didnt want it to seem like I need you
I dont want to be the one who cant let go
Now without you here nothing seems right
My coffees too hot
My rooms a mess
The lights too bright
The TV in the next room is too loud
Im complaining too much
But even thats just another complaint
To add to the list of things
That just dont feel right without you around.
Everythings wrong
But nothing is quite bad enough
To be worth fixing.
Maybe I dont want to fix things.
Maybe I find this old feeling of dissatisfaction a comfort.
My coffees gone cold
My rooms still a mess
and Im still complaining too much
Im uncomfortable
My homeworks not done
And I cant be fucked writing
Im all over the page
But worst of all
I cant seem to care
Who gives a fuck, right?
Why should I put in the effort
If you aren't going to see it.
I hate being like this.
Im one of those people I always secretly looked down on.
Oh the irony.

 

[Bi KaNd*E* RaVeR]

I picked up my phone tonight,
I was gonna write you a goodnight message.
But I didnt.
I didnt want it to seem like I need you
I dont want to be the one who cant let go
Now without you here nothing seems right

But worst of all
I cant seem to care
Who gives a fuck, right?
Why should I put in the effort
If you aren't going to see it.
I hate being like this.
Holy shit.. u are living in my head harasser!
Man.. i love u for expressing what i sumtimes cant~ **hugg**
[ 26 May 2002: Message edited by: Bi KaNd*E* RaVeR ]

 

[Angelight]

ant- you express yourself so very very well...i wish i could just hug you.

The night is over
A good time was had by all,
Maybe surprisingly, even me.
The night is over
Im tired
Id love to just curl up against your back
And drift off to a warm dreamless sleep.
But I cant.
^^^this is the life i live lately...somedays its tolerable, but most days it breaks my heart. Keep strong my sweet.

 

[x eNiGmA kiD x]

I know this feeling...all to well.

I picked up my phone tonight,
I was gonna write you a goodnight message.
But I didnt.
I didnt want it to seem like I need you
I dont want to be the one who cant let go
Now without you here nothing seems right
nice writing harraser! I'm short on words right now... ::: huggs :::

 

[mashead testing]

Im not looking down on you!
Ive been following your work lately and its pretty up and down, which I couldnt relate to more, You are very talented though dont let things get to you as you deserve to be happy.

 

[someone]

"I didnt want it to seem like I need you
I dont want to be the one who cant let go"
I know that feeling oh so well... your writing is really amazing, and not only that but touching also. I hope you continue to share... and hang in there...
"Im one of those people I always secretly looked down on"

 

[harraser]

Ive been following your work lately and its pretty up and down trust me Ive realised, lol. I get to read everything that I write, you guys only get the things that I finish and yes things have been very up and down, but Im good at the moment, most of the time im even in a good mood, its just that when Im not I feel like writing to get things off my chest, Im sure most of you know how that is

Im one of those people I always secretly looked down on I really wasnt too comfortable putting this in, its really not something one is proud of admitting to onesself, but its the truth nonetheless, I did used to feel that way, Im not proud of it but *shrugs*

i wish i could just hug you Ange Id like that
Thanks guys for all your kind replys, they mean more to me than you realise *big hugs* to you all love ant

 

[up all night]

Originally posted by harraser:

Everythings wrong
But nothing is quite bad enough
To be worth fixing.
......
I hate being like this.
Im one of those people I always secretly looked down on.
Oh the irony.
Two of the most perfect things I've read today. Thank you for articulating things I never quite understood till now.