Must be some scatterbrains around here. You know when you lose important things? Like... keys, ID, that kinda thing?
Aye, well, I'm a bit (an epic) scatterbrain.
Today I lost my bag of meph. At work!
Was running really really late this morning so instead of making a few "maintenance bombs" (parachutes?) I just scooped a load into a baggy.
I had some at work, in the loo, and then..... it vanished. Didn't notice til a few hours later when I went to have more.
So.... basically, in a nutshell, I dropped a baggy of unidentifiable white powder.... at work.
Instant reaction - total panic.
Secondary reaction - re check bag, coat, all pockets meticulously
Next, I went wandering around the places in the building I'd been that day.
What makes it even shitter and stupider is that this isn't the first time this has happened. Last time though it was just 1 relatively innocent (compared to powder!) looking bomb. And I did find it again by wandering around.
No luck finding it this time.
By then I was in full on panic+paranoia mode
A neat psychological trick I learned ages ago was to think of the worst case scenario, the best case, and the most likely case. Usually this helps.... because the absolute worst case is often something that I could deal with.
In this case, I wouldn't be able to cope. One of two people in EADD have said that I've got my priorities wrong, and that I shouldn't value my career so highly. Even if you replaced "career" with "shitty job" --- how do I pay the rent? Buy food?
I know the answer .... move back in with my parents. They're lovely lovely people but living with them... they wind me up in all sorts of ways, but they also look after me 100% so I can get wasted every day all day. I'd drag myself out of it eventually, but not ending up in that situation is something I'd rather avoid.
So here are my top tips!!!
- Don't take drugs at work
- If you must, try not to leave them lying around or lose them
Edited to add......
arrrrg
iam trying not to think abuot it, but I know how stupid and idiotic this was. Believe me, my flippancy is just a defence mechanism. I feel so stupid and pathetic and useless.... ahhhh - defence #2, self pity 
How dull.
Aye, well, I'm a bit (an epic) scatterbrain.
Today I lost my bag of meph. At work!
Was running really really late this morning so instead of making a few "maintenance bombs" (parachutes?) I just scooped a load into a baggy.
I had some at work, in the loo, and then..... it vanished. Didn't notice til a few hours later when I went to have more.
So.... basically, in a nutshell, I dropped a baggy of unidentifiable white powder.... at work.
Instant reaction - total panic.
Secondary reaction - re check bag, coat, all pockets meticulously
Next, I went wandering around the places in the building I'd been that day.
What makes it even shitter and stupider is that this isn't the first time this has happened. Last time though it was just 1 relatively innocent (compared to powder!) looking bomb. And I did find it again by wandering around.
No luck finding it this time.
By then I was in full on panic+paranoia mode
A neat psychological trick I learned ages ago was to think of the worst case scenario, the best case, and the most likely case. Usually this helps.... because the absolute worst case is often something that I could deal with.
In this case, I wouldn't be able to cope. One of two people in EADD have said that I've got my priorities wrong, and that I shouldn't value my career so highly. Even if you replaced "career" with "shitty job" --- how do I pay the rent? Buy food?
I know the answer .... move back in with my parents. They're lovely lovely people but living with them... they wind me up in all sorts of ways, but they also look after me 100% so I can get wasted every day all day. I'd drag myself out of it eventually, but not ending up in that situation is something I'd rather avoid.
So here are my top tips!!!
- Don't take drugs at work
- If you must, try not to leave them lying around or lose them
Edited to add......
arrrrg
iam trying not to think abuot it, but I know how stupid and idiotic this was. Believe me, my flippancy is just a defence mechanism. I feel so stupid and pathetic and useless.... ahhhh - defence #2, self pity How dull.
