Of Virgos & Scorpios,
by rewired,
04/05/03,
6:13 AM.
She brought the Californian sunshine
to my Ohioan hell.
Her pink hair, funky socks,
soft lips and smooth chin brought
a glimmer to my sea of darkness,
lifted me out of my pit;
my delusional well.
Those brilliant blue Virgin pools trying to lock
with my shit-colored Scorpion eyes...
I looked like a mishshaven stressed-out John Cusak
she looked like Claire Danes off My So-Called life.
This is the past we shared together,
these are our roots, our birth.
You were my first Solutio,
my water grounded
by your earth.
I am riddled with complexity.
I am darkened and overflowing with negativity.
I must be mad, this must be insanity.
Save me from this chaos, bring me
the gift of your simplicity.
I am lost without you, without this.
You pull at me harder the more I resist.
I am lost in this without you,
more confused than I was
before you.
Do I have to cut away?
I thought this was dead already,
thought I killed this feeling long ago...
it's been years now.
Yet I see where my mind is going,
and you're visiting me in dreams again.
Do I have to let go?
Or am I not the one who's grabbing a hold?
Friendships are fond memories
and histories, love has roots
deep beyond the fold,
and we are both.
Do I have to let go,
turn the other way?
Is there hope for the California sunshine
in my dark Ohio night again?
Come back, pull me away,
pull me back, I need firm ground again.
You were the perfect distraction.
by rewired,
04/05/03,
6:13 AM.
She brought the Californian sunshine
to my Ohioan hell.
Her pink hair, funky socks,
soft lips and smooth chin brought
a glimmer to my sea of darkness,
lifted me out of my pit;
my delusional well.
Those brilliant blue Virgin pools trying to lock
with my shit-colored Scorpion eyes...
I looked like a mishshaven stressed-out John Cusak
she looked like Claire Danes off My So-Called life.
This is the past we shared together,
these are our roots, our birth.
You were my first Solutio,
my water grounded
by your earth.
I am riddled with complexity.
I am darkened and overflowing with negativity.
I must be mad, this must be insanity.
Save me from this chaos, bring me
the gift of your simplicity.
I am lost without you, without this.
You pull at me harder the more I resist.
I am lost in this without you,
more confused than I was
before you.
Do I have to cut away?
I thought this was dead already,
thought I killed this feeling long ago...
it's been years now.
Yet I see where my mind is going,
and you're visiting me in dreams again.
Do I have to let go?
Or am I not the one who's grabbing a hold?
Friendships are fond memories
and histories, love has roots
deep beyond the fold,
and we are both.
Do I have to let go,
turn the other way?
Is there hope for the California sunshine
in my dark Ohio night again?
Come back, pull me away,
pull me back, I need firm ground again.
You were the perfect distraction.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
bittersweet. beautiful. i always enjoy your work.