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cule8960

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Hey. I just tried meth for the fist time four days ago. I LOVED it! I have been up since i first tried it and doing more all through out the day. I also have been eating it, thats how i have been using it. So I think im going on my fith day being up and i think i am losing grasp on reality. Like right now it looks like smoke and color dots are floating across my computer. I see people sitting in chairs and standing in the door way out the corner of my eye. 10 minutes ago i was looking at my backpack and i thought it was a man sleeping, until i realized it wasn't. I feel like i am in a dream right now muscles sore neck sore sometimes i get headaches, really dizzy. I am not thinking right too, I am forgetting what i am thinking about often and bright lights hurt my eyes.I feel like i am walking on the deep end of a pool, i kno this may sound insane but i feel like a another dimension is opening up for me, that i am being revealed some deep secrete. the air seems restrictive and foggy. my body is sweating but my hands are cold.....I realize that food will help maby a little bit but i havent ate anything since five days ago.


Did i permanently fry my brain?: whats wrong?
 
So do you still LOVE it? I don't think you "permanently fried" your brain but what you are doing is unhealthy on so many levels. Yes, you need to eat, you need to sleep and then when you can think a little more clearly you should ask yourself if whatever it was that you loved--euphoria, excitement, etc--was worth everything that you are now experiencing. Sorry if I sound jaded. Red flags go up for me every time someone says they tried some new drug and they loved in in capital letters. Read a few threads on here about people trying to quit meth so that at least you go in with a healthy knowledge of what the end trajectory might look like. For now, eat something, drink plenty of water and try to get some sleep.
 
You're extremely sleep deprived - you need to go to bed. Seriously, your body does need sleep, five days awake is excessive, but not uncommon amongst meth users. Do you have access to benzos or another type of downer? You need to stop the meth for a while, go eat, drink plenty of water, take a warm shower, and get some sleep.

When you wake up please carefully evaluate your life, and why you are using meth in the first place. It sounds like you are setting yourself up for a wicked addiction, and I think you need to establish the using boundaries if you plan on continuing the meth (i.e. Only use on weekend, will only stay up for x long, etc).

Since this is your first time I understand the newness and the binge. If you want to recreationally use, try setting some ground rules regarding when and how you will use, and at what frequency. If you find you can't control your using now, just stop and walk away from it as you will get addicted meth is nothing to play with.

I doubt you have done permenant damage to yourself with this run, however, if you continue using a lot and frequently, you may injure yourself in the future. In my opinion, meth is one of the easier drugs to get off of, and one of the more difficult ones to recover from with respect to mental health and the ability to feel pleasure from regular sober life. I think you need to really consider why you are using drugs, and focus on what you are trying to escape from in your life, and try to address it. Good luck, be safe, and get some sleep.
 
yeah i just got a huge bottle of water and im sipping on it. its weird, no matter how much water i drink im really thirsty again in 15 minutes. tweak dehydrates u for sure. thanks for the advice, it helped to know i didnt fry myself. i might get cheese stick or something and eat it later. and sleep? i dont think i will ever be tired again lol. i might try chillin somewhere to take it easy.
 
i do not have access to any downers. well i have a few grams of pot and spice, so i might just chill from the meth for a little bit lol. Yeah, this is a new experience for me thats for damn sure. i mean, im addicted to spice. thats what i use so im used to sometimes being out of my mind. But i guess i wasnt prepared for the intense high from tweak.
 
cule8960 said:
i do not have access to any downers. well i have a few grams of pot and spice, so i might just chill from the meth for a little bit lol. Yeah, this is a new experience for me thats for damn sure. i mean, im addicted to spice. thats what i use so im used to sometimes being out of my mind. But i guess i wasnt prepared for the intense high from tweak.
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Don't smoke spice right now, just stick with pot.
 
Damn, 5 days and its your first time doing crystal? I've pulled many 5 day binges, but i had to work my way up to that! I was pretty freaked out the first time I saw shadow people. But yeah, as soon as you start seeing them, thats a sure sign that you need to sleep, if you stay up too much longer shit can start to get weird. It sounds like your ok right now, but trust me, you do not want to experience a full on meth psychosis this early in the game. I would heavily recommend lying down and smoking some weed and not consuming anymore meth, at least for a few days. I LOVED meth too the first time i tried it, but unfortunately it brought me to a really dark place. I hope the same doesn't happen to you :/

Good luck! Oh and DON'T touch that spice! I smoked spice while on meth once and it was a terrible combo. Weed is fine.
 
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