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Obsessive fear of death, DMT?

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psychedelixxx

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I've been meaning to try DMT for a good bit now and i've been super stoked on it up until i decided to watch the movie Enter the Void while tripping on 2c-I. At the time the movie opened my mind and made me appreciate alot about my life, i really enjoyed it, but the after effects have been awful. After the come down all i can think about is my death and the death of those around me and i've been trying to get out of the bad state of mind when it comes to death, trying to stop being afraid of death because i never used to be, but for some reason now i'm terrified of it. obsessively.
I only did this three days ago, and ever since i've been paranoid 24/7 and if there isn't music playing or something distracting me i get nervous and twitchy and start to panic. I'm hoping it will just fade away with time.
The main question i have is, should i still try DMT? considering alot of people have said it feels like death, or alot of people have experienced ego death with DMT, i'm unsure about it with my current state of mind.
 
Psychedelixxx, fear of death is a fear of letting go of something probably not identified. Search within and see exactly where and why that fear is surfacing. You can probably pinpoint exactly what the fear is. If fear of death is fear of letting go, try letting go of the fear first as a warm up to letting go. ;) As soon as you let go some relief can happen. It's a strange paradox.

If you are interested in DMT to possibly give glimpses of what life is, including the death part, then that is a good motive and intent to move forward. That's a much better intent than someone wanting to "party". The people that don't like ego death usually have a bad time with psychedelics if they come on strong enough. The people that are able to let go love it and get more of themselves by releasing the fear of letting go.

I would start with some identifying some fears and exactly what they are. If you do try DMT, make sure you go slow and low. When a person goes into the ocean the first time they (hopefully) work with little waves first to get their feel. I think we've all seen someone get their ass kicked by an ocean wave by going out too far and too fast and they get toppled and shaken up. Same thing with DMT. Work you way up.

And most importantly, for me, once I fact fear straight on it fades away and I usually wonder why I had the fear in the first place. There really is nothing to fear ever. Deep breaths, let go, and live.
 
Thanks for your input! I've never been into hallucinogens for the intent of partying. That's what alcohol is for, lol. I've just heard that ego death is a painful and agonizing experience up until the rebirth and i don't think i'm prepared for that when i'm already in a constant state of paranoia for whatever reason.

I remember imagining my mother dieing during the movie, and getting really sad but appreciating her that much more, i've been treating her much better since then. Also, i was lying down with my boyfriend listening to his heartbeat as we were both tripping and watching the movie. He has a history of being suicidal and i also remember thinking his heartbeat was slowing down, almost coming to a stop, but then it would pick back up and i would calm down. Still, it was very sad to think about. Before that trip or that movie i had recurring dreams of his death aswell. Now i'm freaking out about death in general and i don't know how to pinpoint it at all.
 
I would maybe keep the DMt and save it for for a time you feel more relaxed and comfortable rwith the idea dying and death. I know this is something hard though and I worry about leaving my wife and friends to early. However since takin DMT I believe more so than ever that our spirits are eternal and that we all live thousands perhaps millions of lives, but I still wasn't prepared for DMT to pull back the veil, and was absolutely terrified, and thank god I had this experience after over a decade of psychedelic use.

It's something I don't think should be taken willy nilly so to speak, especially if death occupied ur recent thoughts often in a paranoid way. Be ready to let go completely and honestley within ur core as you will striped naked anyways.
 
^^^ thanks for posting that cosmic ape. I was left with the same horror as didier gas in that thread and it took me two days of constant thinking and pondering to get over it.

That was 6-7months ago and have had several other trips on mainly acid and ketamine, but no DMT. I wasn't as convinced as this guy but there were some simarlaities and reading all the replies really answered some stuff for me.

Are the beauty of the Mind and psyches!

I still won't take DMT again until I feel ready for what uncovers for me again.
 
DMT, or at least oral DMT/ayahuasca doesn't feel like death. It feels like the absolute peak of being alive - intense euphoric joy. Like mushrooms but a bit more psychedelic.
 
You should try changa before DMT because in my opinoin it is much gentialer on the mind compaired to DMT. even if you do try DM all u have to keep in youre mind if things go tits up is it only last bout ten mins so if you do slip in to a dark place u wont be there for long
 
I've already read that link, scary shit. But i don't see that happening to me, i have a crazy overactive mind but i can usually tell when i'm just thinking too much and letting things get out of hand. Plus my dealer is also my friend and tattoo artist and i trust everything he has completley. My bad trips never came from him (;
I would love to try changa but i have no idea where to get it lol
 
The problem is your fear of death. Until you can come to terms with the fact you will die in the future you will not be able to move on. Embrace death, no one is immune to death. The moment we come out of the womb we are all in the same boat. Each day is one more day closer so why live with the fear when we have made it this far already. Each day is not a guarantee so live it like you should brother.<3
 
This is true. Thanks everyone for your input, the paranoia faded away and now my brain just feels fried from thinking so hard on it. lol im still iffy about the DMT for a good bit though.
 
Haha yeah i'm fine now! It went away, guuess it was just a mix of lack of serotonin in my brain which always makes me feel sluggish for a few days, and the effects of gaspar noe's incredible work. I'm just glad i didnt decide to watch Irreversible while tripping ;p that wouldve traumatized me lol
 
DMT is nothing you should rush into. Experiencing what can feel reminiscent of death can happen, but I get that feeling more often with 5-MeO-DMT than DMT. 5-MeO-DMT is more merciless in it's slashing of your ego.

Ego death itself is IME an experience that feels like the ultimate freedom. You don't necessarily have to take DMT to experience ego death. Most psychedelics will induce that state if the dose is high enough.
 
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