well, sober to me is not on dope. ill prob have a sip of champagne come time but other than that prob. not a damn thing.
I COULD NOT TELL YOU ONE NYE OVER THE LAST 4 YEARS! I just would get dope, xanny and whatever and then drink on top and black the fuck out. wake up the next day not caring about the night before and ready to score my next bundle. kinda sick, huh? needles and dope is what NYE was about; nothing to do w/ the new year and new way of life; it all had to do w/ what meant a lot to me... DRUGS! not family, not GF, not anything.. just DRUGS!
sounds sick, huh!? for years I lost control and now I finally feel I have full control of my life and my being! I know what will happen daily and I know I have no problems w/ sobriety. is that good? will one day all of a sudden I want dope in me? who knows. I never get the craving at all but I thank the bupe for that as well. who knows, tho. what I DO KNOW is that I am no sober for 4+ months and I have been happy as a mother fucker between the money, life, people, job, etc since my sobriety. I am truly blessed and happy I am not addicted to HEROIN anymore. that fucking SHIT killed me for many years. hell, it almost KILLED ME many times as well.
I guess you need deadly OD's to get woken up. sad, huh? well, I am thankful it worked this time and I am thankful I awoken from my last OD.
Thank you, GOD! Thank you, family! Thank you, ME! for being ME and confident w/ what will happen... and oh yea, THANK YOU SUBOXONE! ha.
I COULD NOT TELL YOU ONE NYE OVER THE LAST 4 YEARS! I just would get dope, xanny and whatever and then drink on top and black the fuck out. wake up the next day not caring about the night before and ready to score my next bundle. kinda sick, huh? needles and dope is what NYE was about; nothing to do w/ the new year and new way of life; it all had to do w/ what meant a lot to me... DRUGS! not family, not GF, not anything.. just DRUGS!
sounds sick, huh!? for years I lost control and now I finally feel I have full control of my life and my being! I know what will happen daily and I know I have no problems w/ sobriety. is that good? will one day all of a sudden I want dope in me? who knows. I never get the craving at all but I thank the bupe for that as well. who knows, tho. what I DO KNOW is that I am no sober for 4+ months and I have been happy as a mother fucker between the money, life, people, job, etc since my sobriety. I am truly blessed and happy I am not addicted to HEROIN anymore. that fucking SHIT killed me for many years. hell, it almost KILLED ME many times as well.
I guess you need deadly OD's to get woken up. sad, huh? well, I am thankful it worked this time and I am thankful I awoken from my last OD.
Thank you, GOD! Thank you, family! Thank you, ME! for being ME and confident w/ what will happen... and oh yea, THANK YOU SUBOXONE! ha.