^ Bon Scott style. I'm pretty sure if any of us made it big playing music in our younger days we would have died around the age of 27 also.
^ Bon Scott style. I'm pretty sure if any of us made it big playing music in our younger days we would have died around the age of 27 also.
damn i hate tolerance
i have only used opiates 8x in the last 3 months, 2x opana, 2x oxy, 4x hydro
the first time i used opiates i found 60mg of hydrocodone in my drawer n did a CWE on em (10/500s) n i was feelin pretty damn good
tonight i did 120mg Oxy, 25mg dyphenhydramine and 1mg xanax n its seriously lacking
i know i should jus stop trying but i really just wanna get ahold of some Heroin
was at the gas station last night at like 3 in the mornin and this dude was in there with his girlfriend he was obviously high on opiates: hunched over, noddin, eyes mostly shut, red glossy dope eyes, constricted pupils, the whole nine yards i could tell he was Oped up after about 2 seconds lookin at him, i really wanted to approach him for some drugs but i just couldnt bring myself to do it, not sure why, first off i thought about it too much/too long n didnt act on it and also i just figured id sketch him out if i did n the thought of approachin him made me anxious so i didnt but i really wished i would have cuz i am without a doubt 100% sure he had opiates in his system
Especially where you've already had a habit before you'll build a tolerance even faster. You gotta be even more careful than ever before man because your brain won't need much to become dependent again.
yea the last three months have been rough, i kept using anything to get high cuz i was just so hurt from the break up
well yesterday i had to grab a few things from the old apartment cuz she is moving out, n i was able to get her to admit to cheating on me, like i always knew it deep down n my heart n suspected n accused her of it but without proof its just a feeling. well she finally admitted it n it was like the weight of the world has been taken off my shoulders. cuz where as before i kept thinkin what i coulda done differently n all but when i found out it was such a relief cuz it was really wanna those things like you cant change some people n i didnt do anything wrong n couldnt have done anything different, as ludacris said you cant change a ho into ahousewife. n i cant tell yall how many tears i have cried the last three months n when she told me i didnt shed a tear, it was a relief, sadly i still got a little mad, wish i woulda controlled that emotion a little more cuz she isnt worth anything from me not even anger but then she txt me tellin me "yada yada yada im sorry i love you take care of yourself i dont wanna get that call hearin you OD'd" n i just replied dont act like a carrying person cuz we both know your not, n you think you impact my life a lot more then you actually do" n it was her assuming i was gonna go use that i was like damn i got no reason to use, i dont need it, i dont even want it (n thats always my go to when im fucked up n the head)
so i just dont feel that need or desire to get high like i have these last few months, im not sayin ill never do anything ever again (particularly cuz my buddies 21st is tom so im thinkin some blow n goin to the bars will commense) but i decided ima just try n kool out n take it easy for awhile n im def gonna stop dabblin with the pharm opiates n i dont really want the H any more where as last week all i wanted was some good dope
Glad you got some closure. Fuck that bitch.
^^well that was to fuck with new guy
i never really got any revenge on her, part of me thinks it'd be funny to go n spray paint whore on her car but im just lettin it go, it is what it is, i got played n im movin on, she'll prob never change, tho i do genuinely hope she does but yea im over it she can live her live n ima do the same