So this past year of my life a lot of shit has gone down that I never would have expected to happen at this point in my life.
Currently I am in the Marine Corps. I used to be married a few months ago, but thats no longer the case because of a story that goes like this. My unit which is located in Japan, was in the field. I call my then wife in the morning my time, and I talk to her and she seemed a little distant. I asked what was wrong, she wouldnt tell me at first, but then she eventually let it out that she said she was raped. This fucked me up pretty good, I told who I needed to tell to get myself home for a little bit. So I make the 18 hour flight back home, and literally the first day I was home, I was looking through my old iPhone (which she was using at the time) to get some phone numbers out of it. I come across the text messages of her sending less than appropriate pictures to a few different guys. I confronted her, but I was also trying to be as understanding as possible considering the reasons I was home. I pretty much get over that, but not less than a week later, she snaps, and decides she cant be married anymore and packs her shit up and leaves. She then called the cops on me saying I assaulted her, and the cops come to my house, and arrest me, question me for hours on end, but they end up letting me go because she dipped and wouldnt give a statement. I find out that the rape thing was a complete lie, and that she only said it happened because she needed a reason incase she was pregnant.
I end up being home for a month and a half, and I started using herion almost everyday, not much, just one bag, but since I was still getting paid, it wasnt affecting much.
So fast forward to today, im currently getting processed out of the Corps because my roommate was caught smoking Spice in the room, and because I couldnt prove that I wasnt there (which I wasnt) they are processing me out as well, and im fucked in the situation. This is such a low blow, after the shit that happened to me a few months before..I am going back to America soon, and I have a bit of money saved up, but I can already feel the pull of the H again..I know im going to do it, and im kind of scared, but I know I wont get out of control with it, because thats not an option..The strangest part of all this is, I dont really feel sad, but I dont know if im just numb from all this bullshit happening..I dont really know what im asking from you guys, but I just needed to let this shit out.
Currently I am in the Marine Corps. I used to be married a few months ago, but thats no longer the case because of a story that goes like this. My unit which is located in Japan, was in the field. I call my then wife in the morning my time, and I talk to her and she seemed a little distant. I asked what was wrong, she wouldnt tell me at first, but then she eventually let it out that she said she was raped. This fucked me up pretty good, I told who I needed to tell to get myself home for a little bit. So I make the 18 hour flight back home, and literally the first day I was home, I was looking through my old iPhone (which she was using at the time) to get some phone numbers out of it. I come across the text messages of her sending less than appropriate pictures to a few different guys. I confronted her, but I was also trying to be as understanding as possible considering the reasons I was home. I pretty much get over that, but not less than a week later, she snaps, and decides she cant be married anymore and packs her shit up and leaves. She then called the cops on me saying I assaulted her, and the cops come to my house, and arrest me, question me for hours on end, but they end up letting me go because she dipped and wouldnt give a statement. I find out that the rape thing was a complete lie, and that she only said it happened because she needed a reason incase she was pregnant.
I end up being home for a month and a half, and I started using herion almost everyday, not much, just one bag, but since I was still getting paid, it wasnt affecting much.
So fast forward to today, im currently getting processed out of the Corps because my roommate was caught smoking Spice in the room, and because I couldnt prove that I wasnt there (which I wasnt) they are processing me out as well, and im fucked in the situation. This is such a low blow, after the shit that happened to me a few months before..I am going back to America soon, and I have a bit of money saved up, but I can already feel the pull of the H again..I know im going to do it, and im kind of scared, but I know I wont get out of control with it, because thats not an option..The strangest part of all this is, I dont really feel sad, but I dont know if im just numb from all this bullshit happening..I dont really know what im asking from you guys, but I just needed to let this shit out.
