I don't know if i'm in the right place for support but i feel the need to start somewhere. I use opiods to treat a serious chronic pancreantitis, this has been going on for me for over 14yrs when i had a medical proceedure done in which they perferated my pancreas. This condition at times is so serious that it requires home IV feedings (TPN) if anyone out there knows what that is and at this point in time I am in that phase. My issue however is that over the years i have needed more and more opiods to control the pain, and honestly it scares me because i do at times find myself taking more that is actually needed for the pain, i wish i could say the made me sick and i don't like them but if im being honest i love them, I have been thru a total detox from all opiods including methadone (which was total HELL!!) about 4yrs ago and was able to manage to manage my pain with just Ultram for about 2 yrs, but unfortunately that is no longer the case. I have never bought a pill off the streets although i will admit to taking a family members meds at time because i have used to many of my own and am running out. I fortunately am not a heroin user i hope i am scared enuf of that that i would never try it (especially as i have an accessed central line in my chest for the IV feedings and doing so would be easy)
I guess im not sure what i'm looking for from this forum other than some advise, ideas, and support to not let the medication I use for pain spiral out of control because i am scared that it could happen easily and i will be in deep again before i even notice how deep I am in. Thanks for listening
I guess im not sure what i'm looking for from this forum other than some advise, ideas, and support to not let the medication I use for pain spiral out of control because i am scared that it could happen easily and i will be in deep again before i even notice how deep I am in. Thanks for listening
