I've basically been taking ultram daily for the past year and a half. I get the ultram from some online places. I never took a ridiculous amount and for the past three months got my usage down to ~200mg/ day- taking like 1.5 in the AM and then 2.5 at night. It's a pretty small habit but it really became ingrained in my life. You'll have to take my word that 100mg of ultram actually gets me pretty high- even after a year of taking it. I'd probably take more but if I take more than like 2.5 pills, I get really panicky.
Got sick a few days ago and the doc gave me codeine cough syrup. It's generally not a good idea to mix codeine and ultram so I stopped with the ultram. The result- feeling some withdrawals and some pretty bad depression (Codeine doesn't get me high).
For reasons I can't explain- I realize it's time to stop taking ultram and opiates in general. This can't go on. Sooner or later- and this is inevitable- my supply is going to be interrupted somehow. It's going to happen. I can either deal with this now at a time of my choosing or sometime down the line under circumstances possibly not under my control.
I obviously have a way smaller drug habit than many people on BL- laughingly small probably. Nevertheless, after over a year of taking this shit I'm in for some pretty serious depression (a problem even without opiate withdrawal) and some other bullshit as well. Realistically, It'll probably take a month for me to feel better.
My dilemma- I just moved across the US to a new job and I'm going to be a slightly different person for the immediate future. Maybe I should go get some professional help- but who can help? I'm certainly not a suboxone candidate.
Got sick a few days ago and the doc gave me codeine cough syrup. It's generally not a good idea to mix codeine and ultram so I stopped with the ultram. The result- feeling some withdrawals and some pretty bad depression (Codeine doesn't get me high).
For reasons I can't explain- I realize it's time to stop taking ultram and opiates in general. This can't go on. Sooner or later- and this is inevitable- my supply is going to be interrupted somehow. It's going to happen. I can either deal with this now at a time of my choosing or sometime down the line under circumstances possibly not under my control.
I obviously have a way smaller drug habit than many people on BL- laughingly small probably. Nevertheless, after over a year of taking this shit I'm in for some pretty serious depression (a problem even without opiate withdrawal) and some other bullshit as well. Realistically, It'll probably take a month for me to feel better.
My dilemma- I just moved across the US to a new job and I'm going to be a slightly different person for the immediate future. Maybe I should go get some professional help- but who can help? I'm certainly not a suboxone candidate.