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Not remembering things when rolling or "E-dreaming"

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This is kind of an embarrassing story, but I NEED to know if this is a normal thing or not:

Okay so I've heard this called "edreaming" somewhere, but has anyone ever experienced completely losing touch with everything when rolling really hard?

It happened to me like 3 times in one night, I chewed a tab then swallowed one about 30 minutes later (one with high mdma and the other was rated medium). I have a very low tolerance so I roll really hard, really fast.

There were two times where I'd end up from point A to point B and not realize how I had gotten there. Almost like I had fallen asleep and just woke up there, feeling completely fine, just confused and wondering if I could teleport or some shit, then not really caring cause everything felt/looked so awesome.

It really got to me though when I was sitting on my friends lap while he was giving me a back massage. Its feeeling incredible, so I shut my eyes and sort of just chilled in complete bliss ("fall asleep")--unknown amount of time--("wake up") I open my eyes up to see we're pretty much at 2nd base.

I GEEEKED out. My first thought was "What the hell is going on?", I asked C whattf he was doing. He looked confused and told me that I had came onto him ..I thought he was just full of shit at first..because first of all..what the hell? There was no way I was speaking words and not remembering it.. Then I started thinking about the two times before where I had walked to certain spots of the venue and not remembered how I got there. I told him I just wasn't really with it right now.

I was really embarrassed, paranoid, and upset. I have never felt these emotions on E, I never had a roll go from completely amazing to crazy overwhelming. I kept thinking in my head that I had consumed to much MDMA and it was taking me over and making me do things.

Has anyone else experienced something like this??
 
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Havn't personally done anything like that, but i do have moments where my mind drifts off, my mates say sometimes they will ask me to give them, lets say the k bag for example, and i say ok and just don't do it. Apprently they repeatedly ask me to hand it over and i say ok but then carry on dancing like i forget that i was just asked.

The closest thing i have done to what you did was my second time ever rolling, my memory is blank then the next thing i remember is looking down and my arm is out about to grab some random girls backside, i was like wtf and pulled my hand away. I had no controll or knowledge of what i was doing up to that point lol
 
ive had that happen to me on amphetamine, and i think i mightve experienced what you describe once on a half g of molly.
but more than that, i dunno. i cant really remember the night about the molly, but i think i know what you mean, on amp ive been doing something, then just suddenly a half hour later, with no memory of the last half hour, ive been like WTF. almost like waking up.
 
It's pretty common at higher doses..

That was obviously way too much for you.

I wouldn't worry about it :\
 
You're a girl yeah? It seems like E hits you guys a little harder. Heres what I've noticed. When I start to come up on my roll it sort of takes me away. I know what I'm doing but everything just sort of happens. I definitely can't remember a lot of things, like names of people I meet and shit haha.

After about four or five hours I get an intense e tard feeling. My thoughts sort of loop, but I still feel really capable of talking to people.
 
Ive never sat down for a backrub only to end up feeling the person up. I have lost many parts of many nights and came around in completely random places, IE one minute on a dancefloor, next minute in a field somewhere :D (that was a heavy night).

I really wouldnt worry about it but I would take less the next time - I also wouldnt worry about getting to intimate with your friend. MDMA can play havoc with your thought process and friendship and the line between friend/more can become very blurred.
 
Thanks everybody for sharing similar experiences! Makes me feel loads better.

And in case any one was wondering, me and my friend joke about it now! Really wish anxiety didn't take over that night, was def not worth it. Will be sure not to put so much mdma in my system at once next time (:
 
i've never lost time while rolling but i have walked into a room and forgot why i was there lol. a few weeks ago my boyfriend and i forgot where we put the vicks and we were going from room to room trying find it and about 5 minutes later he looks at me and says "i dont mean to sound like a complete dumbass but what the hell are we looking for?" and i look at him and say "i have no idea". lol. it was kinda funny and then i remembered a few seconds later. from what you exprienced, edreaming doesn't sound like fun at all lol. i like cartoon dreams though, close your eyes and these funny, random, little cartoon images pop up in your head. anyone ever get those?
 
I totally agree with BearLove. Dont worry too much about it. Lower the dose a bit, so you stay aware the next time.
 
I did spaz alil last time... Came to in a compleetly dark Room NO LIGHT at all! and couldn't figure out for a min if my eyes were just closed or what the hell was going on... WOW how stupid I feel now.... then I relized I was looking for the light switch, It had been like 5mins so my hubby came looking for me...Thank goodness for him! It scared the hell out of me
 
Only time a similar thing happened to me was when I had about 1/3 of a gram of mdma and experimented doing 1 small bomb and then snorting lines every once in a while... I can tell you now it's not the way to do it at all. I was sitting at my mate's house preparing lines sort of lost in my own world, then I snorted my line, looked up to my friends and said "where the fuck did my line go" - I'd completely forgotten I'd just done it and when they told me I'd just literally done it I freaked the fuck out, I literally did not have any memory of the past few minutes.

So yeah moral of the story is stick to doing bombs and don't continually redose over a night.
 
Budstep said:
Only time a similar thing happened to me was when I had about 1/3 of a gram of mdma and experimented doing 1 small bomb and then snorting lines every once in a while... I can tell you now it's not the way to do it at all.
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hmmm thats basically what i think totally IS the way to do it, just tend to keep the lines small and not do them too often. I suspect the memory loss and disorientation was more to do with the amount you took over a short period.

I've only ever had memory loss from mdma when combining with too much alcohol, and then i only need about 1 pill (in the good old days when the pills i bought actually contained mdma!) to totally disorient me. it is pretty distressing to have no idea where you are/how you got in the situation you're in.

glad it sounds like you sorted it with your mate.
 
I can somewhat recall my first time dropping. It was roughly 100mg, then 2 hours later supplemented with 50mg, and hour later another 50mg, and about 30 mins after the 2nd booster I was rolling mega balls. I started to have blank spots or lapses in consciousness. I was dancing one moment, then the next moment my hand was in my pants feelin myself in front of a small group when I "woke up". It was pretty embarrassing to have woken up standing in front of a group looking as if I was masturbating....rooofl. It felt good.but wtf haha.
 
Happened to a friend of mine on our camping trip- she forgot a section of the evening entirely, and found a text message she sent to her dealer (LOL!), so apparently she was fully functional during this "e blackout".

I wouldn't worry too much- you take drugs to mess with your mind, right? =) That's what happened...just a little more mess than you intended maybe.
 
it's happened to me too, the blank spots. I once opened my eyes at event only to find myself standing with a clear swath around me with my arms up, spinning. Everyone around me was givin me looks hahaha
 
<-- come to think of it, this HAS happened to me, the one time I combined MDMA with a weed brownie. Not a big fan of "waking up" in the middle of being awake, won't mix those two again personally. LOL
 
Same thing happened to me this summer. Was at a small music festival and took 3 caps of molly throughout the night.

During this time I was on the dance floor, rockin out, then all of a sudden I'm sitting on a bench next to a fire. This confused the hell out of me.
 
This usually happens on high doses, and the best thing to do is ignore, disregard, and go about your roll, ..dwelling on it will make you freak out. YOUR JUST REALLY FUCKED UP!! Theres one night I know I was really fucked up. . I remember sitting in the car feeling like I was going to explode! ! Then I remember smoking in a hotel pool ! And that's it , I don't remember anything else about that night at all.
But hey who wants to remember ?that's why we get fucked up ehh! !?
 
Happened to me too the last time I rolled (only my 5th roll overall.) I'm a fairly new user, and the first 4 times I rolled (spaced about a month apart), I only would take half a capsule, then take the other half a couple of hours later. It would give me a nice buzz and most of the other sensations that E gives, but nothing too out-of-this-world amazing like some the stories I'd read here. The come-downs were always pretty mild too, again nothing like the hellish come-downs I've read here.

But then the last time, rolling at home with my boyfriend (it's always been just the two of us at home when rolling) I decided to take the entire capsule at once. It was also supposedly a stronger capsule than the ones weve taken previously. I also pre-loaded with piracetam for the first time, about 3g the day of the roll and 1g the day before.

And boy was I FUCKED UP for the first time ever. I don't even remember coming up. In fact don't remember a lot of what happened during the roll, maybe just about half at best, and very patchy and hazy at that, and I can't remember the order of events. I would "wake up" several times and would lose time, sometimes vaguely recalling what happened as if in a dream, and sometimes not remembering at all what happened during the last 30mins or so. I kept asking my boyfriend if I did certain things, like did I take a shower? did I go to the fridge to get some ice? Because when "waking up" I'd suddenly have vague recollection of things but unsure if they really happened. I also kept apologizing to him for "falling asleep" even though he assured that I never fell asleep the entire time. Time seemed "stop-and-start" jerky and not continuous. One minute he was giving me a light show then the next thing I know I'm lying face down on the bed getting fucked, and I don't remember how we even started fucking. And time seemed to fly so fast, I remember checking the time and was surprised to see that 4 hours had passed since we dropped, and I thought "what the hell happened during those 4 hours?!" It felt more like 30mins.

After some time it just became frustating for me, I wanted to stop "blacking out" and "waking up" with patchy recollection of what went on before. I really wanted to start remembering things and be more in control of the moment, like the previous times I've rolled wherein I was always aware of what's happening. Adding to my frustration was I wasn't sure if I was doing my part to ensure that my boyfriend was having a good time, since I just can't damn remember things! For the first time ever I wanted to lessen my roll, unlike before when I kept wishing it would last longer.

My boyfriend assured me that I had a good time and kept smiling like an idiot with my eyes at the back of my head while he was giving light shows and stuff, but for me it ain't much fun if I can't remember that I was having fun. I know there are those who like the "fucked up" feeling when on drugs, but personally I like to be more lucid and aware and in control of myself and the situation when rolling, with just the light-but-nice buzz and euphoria that I've experienced on E before. So I guess next time I'd start with a lower dosage again. Lesson learned.
 
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^ crappy that's weird. It would have freaked me out a bit. As a girl I always start of with a little and work my way up.
I suggest next time take half , then half a little over an hour later. Then when that settles take another half ...so on so forth . Get to the high you want to be at, then make it last buy taking little pieces. It hits you less HARDER. You roll smoother AND it last longer.

I've never really had the in and out thing. I always do the above method but as the night progresses I get more fucked up and can remember less and less. I'm clear throughout my roll but cant remember the following day much as the night went on. .
 
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