Not at home

[Sara Tonin]

Sulfur and graphite hangs heavy in the air. The pollution, I fear, is in my lungs. But I'm home and this is how it is. The grime and dullness hide the cozy feelings that I once experienced. I no longer fit, I feel heavy here and my purpose is not defined.
Faces and voices are still familiar to me but we don't connect like we once did. They do not even try to bend their minds around what I am saying. Easier to ignore what you don't understand. They care, they kiss, they hug me with warmth and send me on my way to my home hundreds of miles away. They know I don't belong here any more.

 

[ice-9]

oh...wow
i feel as if i had been there with you.
great expression!

 

[Sweetpea]

You have your own happiness even if you had to put it in your pocket for the weekend.
and c’est la vie

 

[fizzygirl]

*sigh*...
don't you hate that all you have to do it walk through a doorway and the years of independence suddenly disappear and you become a child again?

 

[Noodle]

^
Right?
Nice to see you here again Sara.

 

[Haza]

that was a well done illustration...didnt even feel like i was reading, rather watching...i admire how you write alot, keep it up i want more

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TV says donuts are high in fat, kazoo, found a hobo in my room, its princess leia, the yodel of life, give me my sweater back or ill play the guitar!
AIM: munkyrice

 

[alykitty]

hey, Sara..were you at my place over the holidays??

Like, iceeie, said....very well expressed, my dear

(now go back to the warm, happy stuff

)

 

[FoX]

I know just how you feel...and as always, beautifully said.

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A mystery inside an enigma wrapped in something orange and fuzzy....
"Ed Meese should be ass-fucked by an acid-crazed elk."-Dr. Hunter S. Thompson
"There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio. Than are dreamt of in your philosophy." -William Shakespeare, Hamlet

 

[Sara Tonin]

Thank you for all of your replies

I had a rough time at home because I have changed so much and everything there has pretty much remained the same or gotten worse. It just took me a few days to settle back in to "me." It was good to see everyone and wasn't exactly a bad experience. It was just unsettling. The good thing is that I appreciate where I am now even more. It's good to be reminded of that.