I agree with 'some' bits of miss apples' post. I am definitely NOT a candy raver, a raver or whatever. I like miss apple have never been to a proper rave, although yes our NYE party could have been seen as one. I can't say I really have a preference for hanging out with an 'older, more experienced' crowd, as long as the people are having an awesome time and not fucking up in the toilets then I really don't mind.
People who are 'hardcore with their drugs' ?? Well I have this thing...like where it's the end of a long weekend and everyone has been partying for like 3 days straight and the only drug left that will work at this stage is speed. So people have pumped copious amounts of it into their bloodstreams and they're all walking around, eyes popping out of their skulls, faces morphing into that of a scary monsters (maybe that was my fault)..anyway, my point is, I get freaked out easily. When it gets to that point I start getting scared about what the drugs are actually doing to us all. I wonder if I look like them too, I wonder if these are 'hardcore drugs users', and if I fit in. Sure, we know how to handle them...we do, BUT is that so good? when you know how to handle them you can just take more..and more.
People's faces change. I don't like that. It scares me.
I started of my 'career' in the scene in the clubbing side of things. I hung out in the 'beautiful' scene. It's horrible. I hate it...now. It's ugly. BUT it was all that I knew. After my first big party, my life changed forever. I LOVED wearing trainers and comfy pants, hair up, minimal make-up (yeah yeah..I still wear it)and i especially loved being able to sprwal myself out on the ground and be next in line for a massage.
I'd never been able to do this in a club. In sydney there are 3 types of clubs. The 'beautiful', the 'trendy' and the what i like to call 'real' clubs. I stay away from the beautiful ones, unless a friend's b'day absolutely calls for it. I pop in on occasion to the 'trendy' ones (these vary from month to month..ie, home, gas, sublime) and I freuent the 'real' ones. My idea of a real club offers top quality music (debatable, I know), through a sometimes poor sound system, but the dj's are running the joint and can't afford top notch equipment like @ 'home', the people are mixed, some are freaks, some aren't, some are dirty, some are clean, NO-ONE dressed the same...ANYONE wearing ANYTHING is allowed in... and generally there is an air of "we don't care" around the place, an air of "we just came here to dance and don't give a fuck about anything else". I love it when people keep dancing after the lights have been turned on and the music has stopped.
I go to a club to hang out with my friends, to dance like a maniac and and to sit around and chat for a while.
Don't people who go to raves do the same thing? Is there REALLY a big difference apart from the clothes we wear and the things we keep in our bag?
I guess i 'could' be a raver, I just haven;t really been exposed to that scene yet. Sure I have some little toys that I take to parties with me sometimes..am I raver? I don't know. I don't like to think I'm anything. I like to think I'll fit in anywhere I go.
One thing I did looooove about NYE (my closest thing to a rave) were the people. I had the most amazing night of my entire life. I met some awesome people, everyone was so friendly...but then again, I think anywhere would have been like that on the eve of the Millenium (argh! the dreaded word) in Sydney.
And everyone's drugs seemed to be working just fine
... it IS about the drugs too you know. You'll find more drinkers in clubs, so I guess that's why the atmospehere is sometimes a bit stale...but we make up for it I'd say. I guess I dont go out to meet people, when I do, it's a bonus...but that's not what it's about. As long as my buddies are happy, that's all that matters.
I'd like to go to a proper rave. Maybe I'll find that it IS my thing. Maybe I AM a candy raver at heart. I dunno, I can't get into the whole plur thing..sorry.
Right now though, I'm happy with my balanced diet of club/party/home roll...
Does me fine
I don't know if i just fucked this whole thread or not..but now you know a bit more about my habits
ps. oh yeah apples, I HATE it when people ask me what drugs I've taken. If they do, I usually just say "nothing". I don't like to make a show of it either.
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sunshine,smiles and stardust
mona