Although I've went from everyday use to 2-3 days with 1-4 days clean in between, I've decided enough is enough. My father went back to jail and it triggered me to start again. Probably because his time in prison when I was a young kid is what started this whole mess, I decided fuck the addiction is a disease idea, fuck 12 steps and "relapse is a part of recovery" excuse. I decided I'm not longer an addict, and it was simple. I've decided whole heartedly that I'm never gonna use again, and I won't change my mind. That very moment i declared myself free of addiction and no longer an addict. I will not worry about relapse, or drugs in general, simply because I'm not an addict and I won't use again. Ill post at least once a day, not a road to recovery, or how I'm coping with life without drugs, but more like a blog I suppose telling you how my day has gone. It will be boring and mundane but I'm sure it will be exciting at certain points. For those "fighting" addiction, power to you. No more just for today's, cause it makes me think about drugs, I'm honestly never gonna use so that's that! 
