I feel almost weird posting this on BL but here goes. I've been IV'ing dope for about 2 years now and during this time period i've OD'd at least 4 times. I have been trying to quit for months and am now 2 months clean off it. Now i'd like to say i'm done with opiates, but the thing is I still want to keep using them? what the fuck do I do...?
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addictivepersona
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Never feel weird about posting on BL, esp. about drug-related issues. :) Gonna move this where you'll get some more helpful answers.
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OverDone
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hi sleep, the constant thoughts about getting high are going to last for a little while. They do go away at some point. Hang strong, man and push through until those cravings pass. It won't happen overnight, though.
For me, the pain had to get great enough to never want to return to that shit. The disgust I felt for myself and remembering how it gets kept me from giving in to those cravings.
You gt this, man
For me, the pain had to get great enough to never want to return to that shit. The disgust I felt for myself and remembering how it gets kept me from giving in to those cravings.
You gt this, man
batmanplaybaseball
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For real. Do you really want to return to waking up sick and fumbling for your gear.
Or worse, waking up sick and having to go cop and then fumble with your gear.
Or worse, waking up sick and trying to find a way to get some money to go cop and... you get the idea.
Or worse, waking up sick and having to go cop and then fumble with your gear.
Or worse, waking up sick and trying to find a way to get some money to go cop and... you get the idea.
BangoSkank
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Like OverDone said, the pain/price had to get too great for me to ever want to return to opiates. It's been two months...give yourself some time. Imagine dating someone whom you lived with and shared your most intimate moments with for two years suddenly getting up and walking away. You'd be devastated and it'd take some time to get over it. Same thing with opiates.
I know for me, I had a moment of clarity (as cliche as that sounds) where I realized how much money I was spending a day (upwards of $200-300 depending on my hussle) just to get well, and how many people I had isolated, hurt, etc. Also, now when I fuck something up, I look at myelf and smile and say, "hey, at least you aren't shooting dope!"
Goodluck man! Don't hesitate to come to BL for support...this site and these people, whether they know it or not, have helped me more times than not.
I know for me, I had a moment of clarity (as cliche as that sounds) where I realized how much money I was spending a day (upwards of $200-300 depending on my hussle) just to get well, and how many people I had isolated, hurt, etc. Also, now when I fuck something up, I look at myelf and smile and say, "hey, at least you aren't shooting dope!"
Goodluck man! Don't hesitate to come to BL for support...this site and these people, whether they know it or not, have helped me more times than not.