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Bluelighter
Im on 12.5mg stillnoct right now so if my gramma is horrendous then ill come back when im sober and clean it up 
The day begins with a 30mg IV of pentazocine. I watch family guy and browse FB all day between pentazocine injectios, probly 4 from 10am to 3pm. If I stare off into space i can see a shimmer pattern vaguely on the walls. I feel quite good actually this batch of pentazocine must have less of the k-opoid receptor agonist (its other opitcal isomer)
Im feeling tired, so I take two mogadon, big MFing pills, took a full glass of 10 vegetable juice to get em done and set. and since my ambien just arrived i firgure "what the hell i feel like hallucinating today"
Being the pentazocine addict i am, I prep a 60mg shot to "help me rest/sleep"
I change into my clothes and ly in bead.
this is where it gets weierd. OEV are still shimmery wall patterns, but closed eyed I can see a box, made of a red, warping membrane of some sort. behind it, background hallucintions resembling the kinda patterne s you see on the back of your paystubs. (could someone post a link, or maybbee i will of the image).
I like this box and concentrate on it. And it forms a spehere, and the more I concentrate the easier it is for me to controll what the primary hallucination is. I trun it to an old GF of mine, but her skin resemble the wireframe fiters from smash bro melee.
I open my eyes and see trees growing on my ceiling. not made of a weird membrane, but if i knew i wasnt on drugs I'd be convinved they were real trees.
I close my eyes once again and I'm overwhelmed by vivid jungle imagry. I swear i was right smack in the middle of the rain forrest. I saw a python, i saw a panther, and a monkey. trees and vines all over the place.
I might have dozed off here but next thing I conciously remember is that Im sitting here infront of my comp writting this trip report. suddenly my front bottom teeth start to hurt, like they have in past vivid dreams. My mouth starts to bleed and I run to the bathroom and spit out chunk of blood and teeth. then i thouth to my self "this is odd, it makes no sence"
BAM
I wake up safe and sound in my bed with all my teeth
I doze off again. now im infront of my computer watching family guy. the mother teresa ODing in stewie's car scene comes on, I have a good laff and reminds me, "oh ya I have opiate too" so i prep a shot of pentazocine. follow throught with all my injection rituals savouring everyone of em, and notice half way thro the injection that i didnt empy the syring of air before injecting. "i just injected alsmot a full cc of air!!!" oh no, Iam igonna die, will it hurt. im scared.
then it hit me "im too smart to let this happen, this must be some fuck up"
and yes i was right cause right then i woke up again, heart pounding and cat snuggled up by my side.
there may have been more but they escape my neurons at the moment, oh, and one more thing:
how is my writting syle? I welcome some constructive criticism or a pm on how i can improve it. I read alot of scientific journal articles and letters sent by scientists back before the invention of telecomunications. So i feel as if Im usual a sliglty outdated vocab the really doesnt suit my speach style.
peace to all, hope you enjoyed the read,
The day begins with a 30mg IV of pentazocine. I watch family guy and browse FB all day between pentazocine injectios, probly 4 from 10am to 3pm. If I stare off into space i can see a shimmer pattern vaguely on the walls. I feel quite good actually this batch of pentazocine must have less of the k-opoid receptor agonist (its other opitcal isomer)
Im feeling tired, so I take two mogadon, big MFing pills, took a full glass of 10 vegetable juice to get em done and set. and since my ambien just arrived i firgure "what the hell i feel like hallucinating today"
Being the pentazocine addict i am, I prep a 60mg shot to "help me rest/sleep"
I change into my clothes and ly in bead.
this is where it gets weierd. OEV are still shimmery wall patterns, but closed eyed I can see a box, made of a red, warping membrane of some sort. behind it, background hallucintions resembling the kinda patterne s you see on the back of your paystubs. (could someone post a link, or maybbee i will of the image).
I like this box and concentrate on it. And it forms a spehere, and the more I concentrate the easier it is for me to controll what the primary hallucination is. I trun it to an old GF of mine, but her skin resemble the wireframe fiters from smash bro melee.
I open my eyes and see trees growing on my ceiling. not made of a weird membrane, but if i knew i wasnt on drugs I'd be convinved they were real trees.
I close my eyes once again and I'm overwhelmed by vivid jungle imagry. I swear i was right smack in the middle of the rain forrest. I saw a python, i saw a panther, and a monkey. trees and vines all over the place.
I might have dozed off here but next thing I conciously remember is that Im sitting here infront of my comp writting this trip report. suddenly my front bottom teeth start to hurt, like they have in past vivid dreams. My mouth starts to bleed and I run to the bathroom and spit out chunk of blood and teeth. then i thouth to my self "this is odd, it makes no sence"
BAM
I wake up safe and sound in my bed with all my teeth
I doze off again. now im infront of my computer watching family guy. the mother teresa ODing in stewie's car scene comes on, I have a good laff and reminds me, "oh ya I have opiate too" so i prep a shot of pentazocine. follow throught with all my injection rituals savouring everyone of em, and notice half way thro the injection that i didnt empy the syring of air before injecting. "i just injected alsmot a full cc of air!!!" oh no, Iam igonna die, will it hurt. im scared.
then it hit me "im too smart to let this happen, this must be some fuck up"
and yes i was right cause right then i woke up again, heart pounding and cat snuggled up by my side.
there may have been more but they escape my neurons at the moment, oh, and one more thing:
how is my writting syle? I welcome some constructive criticism or a pm on how i can improve it. I read alot of scientific journal articles and letters sent by scientists back before the invention of telecomunications. So i feel as if Im usual a sliglty outdated vocab the really doesnt suit my speach style.
peace to all, hope you enjoyed the read,
