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Mental Health Night Terror Support Thread

I experience something that I would loosely define as night terrors (which I have trouble understanding the definition of). But I feel this in very nonspecific ways, input would be appreciated so I can have a better idea of wtf is going on %)

For the last year or two maybe I was occasionally given 30 count 0.5mg lorazepam as needed for anxiety/panic attacks, my psychiatrist seemed a little more conservative doing so and told me he wanted me to take as few as needed. Didn't do much for me so I used them for just that. But I visited him earlier this week and told him about this "night terror" I've experience[d for over a month] and he put me on 1-2mg clonazepam, and emphasized I should take it every night.

This experience goes as follows: I am tired, about to go to sleep and lay down. Can't get comfortable. I start to think about things, about 30min into laying down my mind begins to race, I try to tune out and just sleep (sip some lean or tea sometimes to sedate me). About 1-2hr into this I begin getting panicky, I feel so alone, I start shaking and crying and cannot stop thinking about death. I lock myself in my bathroom (usually its like 3 or 4 am) and smoke cigarettes and cry and panic for usually another hour or so until my eyes hurt. I don't know how to describe it really I feel insane fear, disconnected from everyone, like there is no escape from my own mind, and experience depersonalization. 3-5hr into these fits I lay down after all this stuff and either pass out from exhaustion or lay down feeling numb. I don't have a lot of memory when these things happen and I don't think I'm totally conscious when they happen.

I've had trouble sleeping since childhood. I was a sleepwalker for a several year period of my childhood. As I child I had the "nightmares leaving me sweating waking up totally depersonalized" thing, which tapered off into my teen years. I've had psychosis from sleep deprivation and excess amphetamine usage, this was last year from july-dec. I don't experience those psychosis symptoms anymore but I feel like I emerged from that experience a different person, in a bad way.

I rarely experience or remember dreams; my sleep quality is poor and my medications (and 1+g cannabis usage daily) attribute to my lack of dreams for the last 2 or so years.

yeah I don't know what to make of this haha 8(
 
Sleep terrors terrified me initially. I thought I was being haunted by a mischievous, unrestful spirit. I hear a deafening buzz, and something sitting on my chest, feeling suffocated, if I try to move or scream or talk I cant and feel extreme pain, then it suddenly would go away. It caused me to move rooms, apartments, houses several times.

Eventually, I got really angry instead of scared. SO one time it started to happen, I said, fuck no and somehow had the strength to get up and physically wrestle a spirit and shout at her.

After that, there was no more suffocation, and the night terror evolved throughout the years. I then began to feel like something was levitating me. Soon Id be hanging upside down and swung around, afraid I was going to hit my head on the wall. but it never happened so I began to enjoy this. Soon Id see spirits in solid form and interact w some of them.

And then two summers ago. I kept getting that night terror is going to happen so I tried to avoid it for a week. BUt it was too much work. and an astral face invaded my space and i had to deal. the more i accepted the more I enjoyed the experience and looking back, learned and experience alot of things i never thought possible or ever sought. I would ask him to show me my real home, another planet. And we'd travel in space. have astral sex. etc...
I still have contact with the being on a more secure, less intense way. Like when I close my eyes and focus on my third eye, the mouth Oms or I see eyes. I used to see massive orgies of light beings and found them invasive but realized that was just my issue and they were causing no harm. Then Id watch them breathe scenes of what look like me and my life. And change into dragons and other forms. I don't question my sanity or freak out or try to have any more or fewer experiences, I dont wonder or question what it is. Its not up to me. I just learned to not be afraid, trust and enjoy the flow.
 
We call that "the old hag" here where i live and it's very common for a person to wake up shaking after a visit from her. I had it for a long time but through a combo of medications and treating it like a bad trip I've managed to beat it

I'll add more to this when i can but for now it's time for me to be off to the land of sleep.
 
During my depressive episode 2/3 years ago (the worst one) I had sleep paralysis almost every single night. I'd lie down, close my eyes, then that awful pressure would hit me, then the almost floating feeling, then the sheer terror along with the typical panic attack symptoms, and then the hallucinations. Being choked to death by the Grim Reaper himself is the last thing you want at 3am, plus the full on out-of-body experience in which I was absolutely certain I'd been thrown across the room, only to come to my sense and I'm lay in bed hyperventilating and sweating buckets. Oh, just for good measure; anyone experienced the morphing heads thing? Like lamps becoming faces across the room? Or heads appearing from round the doorways?
 
Prazosin for night terrors

SproutOnSmack said:
During my depressive episode 2/3 years ago (the worst one) I had sleep paralysis almost every single night. I'd lie down, close my eyes, then that awful pressure would hit me, then the almost floating feeling, then the sheer terror along with the typical panic attack symptoms, and then the hallucinations. Being choked to death by the Grim Reaper himself is the last thing you want at 3am, plus the full on out-of-body experience in which I was absolutely certain I'd been thrown across the room, only to come to my sense and I'm lay in bed hyperventilating and sweating buckets. Oh, just for good measure; anyone experienced the morphing heads thing? Like lamps becoming faces across the room? Or heads appearing from round the doorways?
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Worked like charm for me when I had Depakote induced audio/visual hallucinations. It is a blood pressure medication but....it works for a lot of people
 
Remeron gave me sleep paralysis like you wouldn't believe. Main reason I had to stop taking it. During one, someone smashed my bedroom window in and was going to come into my room. Then I woke up. lol I very rarely have them otherwise tho. I have had a few times where I was dreaming something bad and woke up either punching or kicking at something. Good thing I sleep alone I guess.
 
dont fall asleep on your back

when you start having it happen, hold your breath, when you start getting desperate for air you should snap out of it

using a night light can help sometimes
 
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