Misc Newly Started Risperidone… Side Effects?

[Jabberwocky]

So here’s a break down of my Rx list:
- Day -
Buspirone 10mg
Lamotrogine 150mg
Omeprazole 40mg

- Night -
Buspirone 10mg
Risperidone .5mg

Past Drug Use:
I have used LSD a ton in the last 2 years (not every week but closer to once a month to once every 2 months. There was a period where I went 6 months without tripping. I accidentally took an NBOME instead of LSD about 2 months ago. However I’ve been drinking alcohol almost every weekend since July 2020 (previously 14-16 shots 2-3 times per week and more recently 5-8 shots 1-2 times per weekend). I haven’t drank in almost 3 weeks now though.

General Question:
So I started on Risperidone about a week ago and so far I’ll get hot flashes about 20 minutes after taking it and now my perception of time is ridiculous. I’ve always had an anxiety based preoccupation with time, constantly feeling like one hour was equivalent to 15-20 minutes. Now it feels like time goes on forever. When I’m doing something I enjoy it’s great bc I feel like I have plenty of time to do absolutely whatever I want. But when I’m doing something monotonous or something I don’t want to do literally 10 minutes feels like 40-50. I still check the clock frequently because it’s an anxiety based habit but it is excruciating looking at the clock seeing only 5 minutes have gone by when it feels like 20. It’s similar to time dilation on LSD but instead it’s almost entirely upsetting. Is time dilation a side effect of Risperidone or do you think it’s probably just my body adjusting to limited/almost no drug use for a while? I guess it could be like withdrawal symptoms. I’m also nauseous most of the time, either super hungry or not hungry at all most times, I feel weak and tired, and I constantly want to sleep. I’m depressed, I already know that but god it seems like so much all at once. I’d like answers but it seems more like I’ll just have to ride everything out and hope for the best bc my drug use has been too much in the past.

 

[negrogesic]

Yeah, what was it prescribed for?

Should be avoided if not needed but it looks like it was prescribed for a reason. The reason of course may be questionable -- or it may not depending on your medical history.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Get rid of the risperidone. I experienced symptoms similar to you but the worst of all was extreme restlessness. I couldn't sit still for 5 minutes (which felt like an hour) and sleep was impossible without benzos. What was the doctor's reasoning for prescribing that medication?

Well I have very mild auditory and visual hallucinations (they’ve only happened once or twice in the last 7ish months) but I used to have the auditory ones full blown about a year ago. I had unknowingly taken an NBOME in 02/2020 and everything spiraled mental health wise but I’d gotten significantly better recently.
I spoke with my psych nurse and told her about the few hallucinations but that my depression was the biggest problem at the moment and she decided to prescribe me the Risperidone for sleep, the hallucinations, and because my memory has been jack shit for the last 5-10 months.
Im kinda bummed bc I was looking more to getting on Wellbutrin or some meds for depression that may not necessarily be antidepressants but she felt this was more appropriate?

 

[Jabberwocky]

Yeah, what was it prescribed for?

Should be avoided if not needed but it looks like it was prescribed for a reason. The reason of course may be questionable -- or it may not depending on your medical history.

She prescribed it for mild hallucinations, sleep, and memory issues (I’m struggling to remember things I did just a day before). I told her I had two mild auditory hallucinations within the last two months (after months of not having anything) but that my depression was insanely bad since it’s been going on 5 weeks without a break and she felt the Risperidone was more appropriate for some reason. Check OP’s comment for background on the NBOME triggered hallucinations

 

[negrogesic]

She prescribed it for mild hallucinations, sleep, and memory issues (I’m struggling to remember things I did just a day before). I told her I had two mild auditory hallucinations within the last two months (after months of not having anything) but that my depression was insanely bad since it’s been going on 5 weeks without a break and she felt the Risperidone was more appropriate for some reason. Check OP’s comment for background on the NBOME triggered hallucinations

If the auditory hallucinations were drug induced you might want to reconsider the antipsychotic.

 

[Jabberwocky]

@Yeetdruggie I fried my brain with LSD and tryptamines and was prescribed olanzapine and risperidone... and tbh the risperidone always gave me less side effects than the olanzapine. I was on 2mg, too high dose. But everyone's body is different. Risperidone is certainly a very potent antipsychotic

May I ask the nature of your auditory hallucinations? Are the internal or external?

Did this all start after psychedelics?

what you are going through sounds A LOT like what I experienced, but I definitely had more of a sudden "break", like a light switch turning on, in which there was a clear difference in my usual sanity and my new found schizophrenic break and hallucinations

 

[Jabberwocky]

There's a lot of other antipsychotic meds that can treat hallucinations without causing those awful side effects. My personal favorite is Haldol (your experience may differ). Olanzapine is also another option but you really got to keep an eye on your weight with that one. You pretty much have to be in the gym 3-4 days a week lifting weights and doing cardio. Seroquel is another option, I've been using it lately (not prescribed) and haven't noticed any side effects except lowered libido. But really, if you are taking any antipsychotic meds, you should be in the gym frequently. Also ask your doctor about metformin. Studies have shown it is effective in reducing weight gain from antipsychotic medications. I take 1000mg daily. Just tell your doctor what's been going on and they'll switch it for something better.

Thank you! This is definitely very helpful but for right now I don’t think antipsychotics are right for me just bc my hallucinations are barely there and haven’t occurred more than twice over the last 7ish months and I was just on lamotrogine and buspirone. I think depression is really my problem at the moment but my psych nurse keeps pushing antipsychotics. I’ve done seroquel but it had me fucked up where I was incoherent, could barely move, but with muscle restlessness not a great mix lol but the others I haven’t tried. I’ve only done Abilify outside of seroquel and now Risperidone.

 

[Jabberwocky]

@Yeetdruggie I fried my brain with LSD and tryptamines and was prescribed olanzapine and risperidone... and tbh the risperidone always gave me less side effects than the olanzapine. I was on 2mg, too high dose. But everyone's body is different. Risperidone is certainly a very potent antipsychotic

May I ask the nature of your auditory hallucinations? Are the internal or external?

Did this all start after psychedelics?

what you are going through sounds A LOT like what I experienced, but I definitely had more of a sudden "break", like a light switch turning on, in which there was a clear difference in my usual sanity and my new found schizophrenic break and hallucinations

The auditory hallucinations are along the lines of hearing a loud crash noise or someone speaking abruptly/calling my name loudly all of a sudden. When I looked online is was just labeled a brain explosion or something lol because it is common among a lot of people. They always usually happen when I’m resting or about to fall asleep regardless of intensity. Those are the more mild ones but after accidentally taking an NBOMBE 17 months ago they increased significantly to having full on conversations with people I lived with (who may have physically been in the room at the time). It was all mental/internal and most often I’d be envisioning the room I was in exactly how it was and the conversations were completely normal things with relevant topics. Most often and even still I’ll respond back verbally to something being said and realize what I’m hearing isn’t real. I usually also got sleep paralysis with the hallucinations. I remember one time I had an in depth serious conversation with my boyfriend (hallucination) in our room followed quickly by 4 “layers” of sleep paralysis and I approached him about the conversation later. When I asked him about it he had no clue what I was talking about. I’d never physically witness the interactions though, just very realistic dream type situations that I’d have still mostly conscious. I have coherently talked back to my “hallucination” bf and my real bf would physically move me to get me to open my eyes asking what the hell I was talking about lmao.

I only had mild visuals like leftover trails and a neon grid pattern I’d sometimes see in the dark from LSD specifically. But it was only the NBOMBE that triggered the intense hallucinations, depression, and anxiety. The visuals from the NBOME are more peripheral or I’ll think I saw a giant spider/indistinguishable monster and it’ll be something mundane. I did used to get intense paranoia when I got insomnia from the NBOME. Basically I’ll stare into the dark and start to see outlines of structures and people that fluidly move and they would inevitably come up beside my bed and rush at my face or hover over me. I still get those but way less frequently now that my sleep is a bit more normal.

 

[Jabberwocky]

The auditory hallucinations are along the lines of hearing a loud crash noise or someone speaking abruptly/calling my name loudly all of a sudden. When I looked online is was just labeled a brain explosion or something lol because it is common among a lot of people. They always usually happen when I’m resting or about to fall asleep regardless of intensity.

Yes friend I have these.

You are describing hypnagogic jerks and hypnagogic hallucinations perfectly. I had them quite severely for a few years.

For me these hallucinations were extremely vivid and seemed to be connected to memory and past events, yet often were unique in appearance (hard to explain)

That transitionary period between wakefulness and sleep. Hallucinations, I'd typically have very wild visual hallucinations. Then just before you actually fall asleep you are physically jolted awake with a loud hallucinated sound. Someone screaming, calling your name, doorbell ringing, window smashing, etc... different every time. Sometimes I even had tactile ones like feeling someone was punching my face or a bowling ball being dropped on my bed. I've even pulled some minor muscles in my back by jolting awake violently in my bed.

I had these for years after some major psychedelic drug abuse (and alcoholism, prolongued sleep deprviation, among other things)

they increased significantly to having full on conversations with people I lived with (who may have physically been in the room at the time). It was all mental/internal and most often I’d be envisioning the room I was in exactly how it was and the conversations were completely normal things with relevant topics. Most often and even still I’ll respond back verbally to something being said and realize what I’m hearing isn’t real.

Does this occur hypnagogic? While you are attempting to sleep but still awake?

I can relate to having very vivid hallucinations (with my eyes closed) of the room around me, different rooms, different places, things and people. These closed eye hallucinations would be so insanely vivid that I often had to remind myself that my eyes were closed and I was trying to sleep. So detailed I thought it was real life.

However, I have never actually had conversations with people like this - but I could see how someone with even more sever hypnagogic symptoms could.

It feels like the realest dream you've ever had - but it's not a dream - right? (just trying to relate and understand)

I only had mild visuals like leftover trails and a neon grid pattern I’d sometimes see in the dark from LSD specifically. But it was only the NBOMBE that triggered the intense hallucinations, depression, and anxiety. The visuals from the NBOME are more peripheral or I’ll think I saw a giant spider/indistinguishable monster and it’ll be something mundane. I did used to get intense paranoia when I got insomnia from the NBOME. Basically I’ll stare into the dark and start to see outlines of structures and people that fluidly move and they would inevitably come up beside my bed and rush at my face or hover over me. I still get those but way less frequently now that my sleep is a bit more normal.

The one time I tried nBOME is was the worst trip of my life. Horrible.

What I did to my brain was 5 months of extreme tryptamine and LSD use. At one point I was smoking DMT 3x per day on top of LSD.

I want you to know that what I did to myself and my brain healed over a few years. It's been 3+ years since my drug induced schizophrenia diagnosis and I would say I'm about 95% back to normal now.

I no longer have major hypnagogic hallucinations. They stopped about 4-5 months after when I quit using LSD.



in my case and most cases these hallucinations are caused by drug use and resolve/get better after quitting. There is hope friend. When's the last time you took any psychedelics?

 

[Jabberwocky]

Yes friend I have these.

You are describing hypnagogic jerks and hypnagogic hallucinations perfectly. I had them quite severely for a few years.

That transitionary period between wakefulness and sleep. Hallucinations, I'd typically have very wild visual hallucinations. Then just before you actually fall asleep you are physically jolted awake with a loud hallucinated sound. Someone screaming, calling your name, doorbell ringing, window smashing, etc... different every time. Sometimes I even had tactile ones like feeling someone was punching my face or a bowling ball being dropped on my bed. I've even pulled some minor muscles in my back by jolting awake violently in my bed.

I had these for years after some major psychedelic drug abuse (and alcoholism, prolongued sleep deprviation, among other things)


Does this occur hypnagogic? While you are attempting to sleep but still awake?

I can relate to having very vivid hallucinations (with my eyes closed) of the room around me, different rooms, different places, things and people. These closed eye hallucinations would be so insanely vivid that I often had to remind myself that my eyes were closed and I was trying to sleep. So detailed I thought it was real life.

However, I have never actually had conversations with people like this - but I could see how someone with even more sever hypnagogic symptoms could.


The one time I tried nBOME is was the worst trip of my life. Horrible.

What I did to my brain was 5 months of extreme tryptamine and LSD use. At one point I was smoking DMT 3x per day on top of LSD.

I want you to know that what I did to myself and my brain healed over a few years. It's been 3+ years since my drug induced schizophrenia diagnosis and I would say I'm about 95% back to normal now.

I no longer have major hypnagogic hallucinations. They stopped a year after when I quit using LSD.

OH MY GOD this is literally so helpful and yes that is exactly what happens!! Even envisioning the room other people. They started out short with no mind visuals but then progressed to whole scenarios. Unfortunately I had extreme fatigue the first 6 months after the NBOME and would get tired in the middle of the day all the time. I also had sleep paralysis like a mother fucker but the sleep paralysis and hypnagogic hallucinations combined so I’d end up falling through multiple realities/situations before I was able to move and wake up. The scenario/convo would basically end and I’d get really weak and fall to the floor in my hallucination then immediately transition to the next sleep paralysis hallucination. Prior to the NBOMBE the weakness and falling + transition to sleep paralysis would only ever happen in dreams. I think the most I counted at one time was 8 transitions.

 

[Jabberwocky]

OH MY GOD this is literally so helpful and yes that is exactly what happens!! Even envisioning the room other people. They started out short with no mind visuals but then progressed to whole scenarios. Unfortunately I had extreme fatigue the first 6 months after the NBOME and would get tired in the middle of the day all the time. I also had sleep paralysis like a mother fucker but the sleep paralysis and hypnagogic hallucinations combined so I’d end up falling through multiple realities/situations before I was able to move and wake up. The scenario/convo would basically end and I’d get really weak and fall to the floor in my hallucination then immediately transition to the next sleep paralysis hallucination. Prior to the NBOMBE the weakness and falling + transition to sleep paralysis would only ever happen in dreams. I think the most I counted at one time was 8 transitions.

Wow, my friend. I am so sorry. I have experienced sleep paralysis a few times relating to GHB use, but never sleep paralysis + hypnagogic hallucinations together!

That honestly terrifies me, and if anyone here can relate it would be me since I've had both.

Both hypnagogic jerks and sleep paralysis have made me actually SCARED to try to go back to sleep. I don't think a lot of people can relate to that, but I can. Knowing that closing your eyes will lead to something bad happening,... sucks

I want to know so much more out of curiosity. How old are you? What is your drug history like (specifically psychedelics)? Did this all start after a bad nBOME dose?

I can't blame one psychedelic drug dose on what happened to me. It was many, repeated doses combined with intense stress, alcoholism, sleep deprivation and other things over a long period of time. Then one day my brain just snapped. Night and day. The hypnagogic shit started instantly. I was diagnosed with drug induced schizophrenia (not genetic).

But I want to give you hope in that I no longer have hypnagogic hallucinations now. My brain healed after 2-3 years. There is hope.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Wow, my friend. I am so sorry. I have experienced sleep paralysis a few times relating to GHB use, but never sleep paralysis + hypnagogic hallucinations together!

That honestly terrifies me, and if anyone here can relate it would be me since I've had both.

Both hypnagogic jerks and sleep paralysis have made me actually SCARED to try to go back to sleep. I don't think a lot of people can relate to that, but I can. Knowing that closing your eyes will lead to something bad happening,... sucks

I want to know so much more out of curiosity. How old are you? What is your drug history like (specifically psychedelics)? Did this all start after a bad nBOME dose?

I can't blame one psychedelic drug dose on what happened to me. It was many, repeated doses combined with intense stress, alcoholism, sleep deprivation and other things over a long period of time. Then one day my brain just snapped. Night and day. The hypnagogic shit started instantly. I was diagnosed with drug induced schizophrenia (not genetic).

But I want to give you hope in that I no longer have hypnagogic hallucinations now. My brain healed after 2-3 years. There is hope.

I totally feel you! Back when the hallucinations and sleep paralysis were at their worst I was prescribed Prozac and it made me so drowsy that my body was constantly giving out to sleep during the day. But the problem was I would get insanely tired and start to fall asleep then have the hallucinations. But heat especially triggers sleep paralysis for me (and all this stuff happened during the summer where I had no AC) so I ended up in a constant battle fighting off narcolepsy bc I’d inevitably end up in sleep paralysis hallucinating the entire time for 30-40 (real time) minutes.

I’m only 21 and my drug progression basically played out like this:

• August 2018 I first tried MDMA and have probably done it about 6 more times since but the last four times I’ve had blood in my vomit on the come up and one time I almost overdosed bc our drug dealer gave us MDA instead of MDMA and I double dosed since the first didn’ do anything
• December 2018 I first tried weed/edibles and started out accidentally taking a 50mg edible I don’t really like weed that much though so I smoke or eat an edible maybe 1-4 times a month at best.
• June 2019 I first tried LSD and ended up doing it once almost every two to three weeks for a few months
• February 2020 I accidentally took an NBOME that I thought was LSD and had a crap ton of painful muscle spasms and I thought I was going to die. I swore off LSD for 6 months following that but then got some really good LSD from a friend that was exquisite Basically a few months after the NBOME I started to have mild visual hallucinations while awake and I had the mild hypnagogic jerks/halluincations (hearing my name, stuff dropping, gunshots). I started to develop manic symptoms, severe depression, and my anxiety went through the roof. I started working with a psych nurse around May of that year and everything peaked from May to October of 2020. I had full blown internal/mental hallucinations similar to lucid dreams but I was in all respects mentally present. There were never weird environments, scenarios or conversations, just normal stuff but it was extremely in depth. Then the sleep paralysis came on with the ensuing summer heat so I would start in one hallucination and try to wake up but then feel physically weak in the hallucination (akin to the way your body gives out with narcolepsy) and I’d transition to the next hallucination. It would take me a while to realize that the situation was a hallucination because everything was so real. I think the only time I would realize is because I’d go to use my phone or PC and suddenly I couldn’t read or the devices wouldn’t work right. That’s was absolutely horrid as I’d transition a minimum of 3 times each time I’d try to sleep and I’d have about 6-12 attempts at sleeping per day. Everything gradually declined and now I don’t have much but I’m anticipating things getting worse after taking the NBOM
• May or June 2021 I took a tab from the same NBOME batch figuring I’d give it another go (thinking it was LSD still) and had a horrible fucking time. Crazy muscle spasms, felt like I was carrying 40lb weights in each hand for 8 hours, my head/eyes/tongue felt like they were going to explode, I was showing symptoms of hypertension, and I thought I was legitimately going to die. About a week after I tried shrooms for the first time and also had an unpleasant experience with bloody vomit. The shrooms were so strong that I was tripping balls 20 minutes after dosing and that was just during the come up that lasted about 30-40 minutes. After the come up I barely had anything just nausea and mild visuals.

My psych nurse didn’t want to label me with schizophrenia (genetic or otherwise) but she didn’t even want to acknowledge my hallucinations as such. To this day she still calls them auditory/visual disturbances… why? My best guess is that because my hallucinations aren’t irrational she assumed they were probably just dreams or something. I believe she thought my body was just entering REM sleep too fast thus causing the visuals/auditory stuff as I fell asleep. But hell yeah feel free to ask as many questions as you want bc it’s great to finally hear from someone who has helped me put a label to my experience!!

 

[Jabberwocky]

I totally feel you! Back when the hallucinations and sleep paralysis were at their worst I was prescribed Prozac and it made me so drowsy that my body was constantly giving out to sleep during the day. But the problem was I would get insanely tired and start to fall asleep then have the hallucinations. But heat especially triggers sleep paralysis for me (and all this stuff happened during the summer where I had no AC) so I ended up in a constant battle fighting off narcolepsy bc I’d inevitably end up in sleep paralysis hallucinating the entire time for 30-40 (real time) minutes.

I’m only 21 and my drug progression basically played out like this:

• August 2018 I first tried MDMA and have probably done it about 6 more times since but the last four times I’ve had blood in my vomit on the come up and one time I almost overdosed bc our drug dealer gave us MDA instead of MDMA and I double dosed since the first didn’ do anything
• December 2018 I first tried weed/edibles and started out accidentally taking a 50mg edible I don’t really like weed that much though so I smoke or eat an edible maybe 1-4 times a month at best.
• June 2019 I first tried LSD and ended up doing it once almost every two to three weeks for a few months
• February 2020 I accidentally took an NBOME that I thought was LSD and had a crap ton of painful muscle spasms and I thought I was going to die. I swore off LSD for 6 months following that but then got some really good LSD from a friend that was exquisite Basically a few months after the NBOME I started to have mild visual hallucinations while awake and I had the mild hypnagogic jerks/halluincations (hearing my name, stuff dropping, gunshots). I started to develop manic symptoms, severe depression, and my anxiety went through the roof. I started working with a psych nurse around May of that year and everything peaked from May to October of 2020. I had full blown internal/mental hallucinations similar to lucid dreams but I was in all respects mentally present. There were never weird environments, scenarios or conversations, just normal stuff but it was extremely in depth. Then the sleep paralysis came on with the ensuing summer heat so I would start in one hallucination and try to wake up but then feel physically weak in the hallucination (akin to the way your body gives out with narcolepsy) and I’d transition to the next hallucination. It would take me a while to realize that the situation was a hallucination because everything was so real. I think the only time I would realize is because I’d go to use my phone or PC and suddenly I couldn’t read or the devices wouldn’t work right. That’s was absolutely horrid as I’d transition a minimum of 3 times each time I’d try to sleep and I’d have about 6-12 attempts at sleeping per day. Everything gradually declined and now I don’t have much but I’m anticipating things getting worse after taking the NBOM
• May or June 2021 I took a tab from the same NBOME batch figuring I’d give it another go (thinking it was LSD still) and had a horrible fucking time. Crazy muscle spasms, felt like I was carrying 40lb weights in each hand for 8 hours, my head/eyes/tongue felt like they were going to explode, I was showing symptoms of hypertension, and I thought I was legitimately going to die. About a week after I tried shrooms for the first time and also had an unpleasant experience with bloody vomit. The shrooms were so strong that I was tripping balls 20 minutes after dosing and that was just during the come up that lasted about 30-40 minutes. After the come up I barely had anything just nausea and mild visuals.

My psych nurse didn’t want to label me with schizophrenia (genetic or otherwise) but she didn’t even want to acknowledge my hallucinations as such. To this day she still calls them auditory/visual disturbances… why? My best guess is that because my hallucinations aren’t irrational she assumed they were probably just dreams or something. I believe she thought my body was just entering REM sleep too fast thus causing the visuals/auditory stuff as I fell asleep. But hell yeah feel free to ask as many questions as you want bc it’s great to finally hear from someone who has helped me put a label to my experience!!

Yes bro I went through the exact same thing. After my break and I was put on medication i started becoming narcoleptic at work. Extreme overpowering tiredness then as soon as I close my eyes the hallucinations start. I actually got fired from that job because of the narcolepsy.

I was doing the same thing dosing lsd every 2 weeks for almost a year, and before that it was even more extreme was smoking DMT 3x per day.

We are experiencing the same thing. I'm telling you friend lay off the psychedelics and drugs in general. As soon as I stopped dosing psychedelics it slowly went away over several months. I still have them very very rarely but they are so mild now it's nothing. I'm sure in another month or two they will be completely gone.

I gotta say that shrink sounds horrible man. I would find another doctor if I was you. Your doctor doesn't seem to understand what is going on here. We have damage to the serotonergic system and need to avoid all drugs like that like prozac and psychedelics

Also: SSRIs make my symptoms worse!! I don't think you should be on that.

What meds does she have you on?

But #1 man just lay off the psychs and your brain will heal with time. There is hope. Trust me. I last took LSD 8 months ago and I stopped having the hallucinations about 2 months ago

I know how scary it is thinking your brain is permanently broke. You will heal!!

 

[Jabberwocky]

Yes bro I went through the exact same thing. After my break and I was put on medication i started becoming narcoleptic at work. Extreme overpowering tiredness then as soon as I close my eyes the hallucinations start. I actually got fired from that job because of the narcolepsy.

I was doing the same thing dosing lsd every 2 weeks for almost a year, and before that it was even more extreme was smoking DMT 3x per day.

We are experiencing the same thing. I'm telling you friend lay off the psychedelics and drugs in general. As soon as I stopped dosing psychedelics it slowly went away over several months. I still have them very very rarely but they are so mild now it's nothing. I'm sure in another month or two they will be completely gone.

I gotta say that shrink sounds horrible man. I would find another doctor if I was you.

Also: SSRIs make my symptoms worse!! I don't think you should be on that.

What meds does she have you on?

But #1 man just lay off the psychs and your brain will heal with time. There is hope. Trust me.

I know how scary it is thinking your brain is permanently broke. You will heal!!

I’m hoping the same thing for the decline of symptoms! I’ve limited my use so in the last 7 months I’ve tripped maybe 5 times but I’m planning to stop completely for 6 months again at the least. My only concern is that I took almost 2 tabs of the NBOME this last time whereas the first time I took 1/2 a tab I’m scared it’s going to have me way worse off than the first time. And sameee dude SSRIs have typically made things worse, but so have antipsychotics (or at least Abilify did). My meds are below

- Day -
Buspirone 10mg
Lamotrogine 150mg
Omeprazole 40mg

- Night -
Buspirone 10mg
Risperidone .5mg

So far I’ve tried Prozac, Zoloft, Abilify, buspar, lamictal, seroquel, some allergy med that’s also used for anxiety and I think there’s at least two others. But only the lamictal and buspar have consistently worked for my anxiety/momentary depression.

I definitely want to find a Different psychiatrist because she doesn’t really acknowledge how the drugs I’ve used affect the situation, she just keeps prescribing stuff in the hopes it works ugh.

 

[Jabberwocky]

I’m hoping the same thing for the decline of symptoms! I’ve limited my use so in the last 7 months I’ve tripped maybe 5 times but I’m planning to stop completely for 6 months again at the least. My only concern is that I took almost 2 tabs of the NBOME this last time whereas the first time I took 1/2 a tab I’m scared it’s going to have me way worse off than the first time. And sameee dude SSRIs have typically made things worse, but so have antipsychotics (or at least Abilify did). My meds are below

So far I’ve tried Prozac, Zoloft, Abilify, buspar, lamictal, seroquel, some allergy med that’s also used for anxiety and I think there’s at least two others. But only the lamictal and buspar have consistently worked for my anxiety/momentary depression.

I definitely want to find a Different psychiatrist because she doesn’t really acknowledge how the drugs I’ve used affect the situation, she just keeps prescribing stuff in the hopes it works ugh.

Do you have non-hypnagogic hallucinations as well? After my schizo break I was hearing voices and had visual hallucinations akin to severe HPPD. The voices went away after about 6 months. I also, still to this day have very odd internal music hallucinations. Very strange. I will see a random word or person and suddenly hear a random song repeating in my head for hours. The music is slowly going away too

We are on similar meds too, but I was on 2mg of risperidone and 10mg olanzapine.

Yes. Take a break bro, but please longer than 6 months. You need more time for your brain to heal. I am 8 months into a 1 year break and at this point I want to finish out the year.

I have met god on psychedelics so many times. I love them so much, but too much of a good thing is always bad

 

[Jabberwocky]

Do you have non-hypnagogic hallucinations as well? After my schizo break I was hearing voices and had visual hallucinations akin to severe HPPD. The voices went away after about 6 months. I also, still to this day have very odd internal music hallucinations. Very strange. I will see a random word or person and suddenly hear a random song repeating in my head for hours. The music is slowly going away too

We are on similar meds too, but I was on 2mg of risperidone and 10mg olanzapine.

Yes. Take a break bro, but please longer than 6 months. You need more time for your brain to heal. I am 8 months into a 1 year break and at this point I want to finish out the year.

I have met god on psychedelics so many times. I love them so much, but too much of a good thing is always bad

Thank you dude I really appreciate this. I think I am gonna take a break from all psychs for a while. I’m really trying to limit my drinking (totally forgot to mention that in the drugs) bc I’ve drank basically every weekend for a year with occasional breaks. The first 8 months I drank basically 14-18 shots of vodka per day 2-3 days per week the last 4 months was closer to 4-6 shots 2-3 times per week bc my meds hit me harder. And as of a month ago I’ve not drank anything. The problem isn’t really dependence but rather my living circumstance. I honestly feel if I lived by myself I wouldn’t use drugs hardly ever. I started bc my bf wanted me to do it with him and although I have some good memories out of it, it’s just getting so sketch and concerning.
I do have non-hypnagogic hallucinations from LSD that have been there since maybe the fourth month after starting LSD. They’re more subtle though like popcorn ceilings and wood grains moving. I also have neon patterns that sometimes look like spiraled block letters of the alphabet stringed together in circles (lmao sounds weird) or hexagonal shapes. Kind of like a barely there barrier in my vision that I mostly only see in dim lighting. If I’m really stressed, anxious, or in pain I will see them in broad daylight. I also have a tendency to not be able to distinguish certain objects momentarily. Like let’s say I saw a clump of junk, a blanket sitting in a weird shape, or a sweater slumped on the floor. I’d see some indiscernible mass that looks monster like and start to panic inside. I usually try to calm myself bc I know it’s probably something normal. I also see stuff move in my peripheral or will sometimes see giant spiders for a second and panic. (And giant like 5+ inches with legs extended)

I think there have been a couple times where I’d heard distinct loud alarm buzzer noises or thumping/knocking during the day. There was one instance where I heard something that sounded like a jet breaking the sound barrier and it was so insanely loud I had to cover my ears. It was like a deep vibrational tone that was deafening and I felt the house shaking. I heard it as 6:30-7am when I got up and I checked outside- nothing, I also asked other people and no one heard or felt it. I was terrified and crazy confused!

 

[Jabberwocky]

Thank you dude I really appreciate this. I think I am gonna take a break from all psychs for a while. I’m really trying to limit my drinking (totally forgot to mention that in the drugs) bc I’ve drank basically every weekend for a year with occasional breaks. The first 8 months I drank basically 14-18 shots of vodka per day 2-3 days per week the last 4 months was closer to 4-6 shots 2-3 times per week bc my meds hit me harder. And as of a month ago I’ve not drank anything. The problem isn’t really dependence but rather my living circumstance. I honestly feel if I lived by myself I wouldn’t use drugs hardly ever. I started bc my bf wanted me to do it with him and although I have some good memories out of it, it’s just getting so sketch and concerning.
I do have non-hypnagogic hallucinations from LSD that have been there since maybe the fourth month after starting LSD. They’re more subtle though like popcorn ceilings and wood grains moving. I also have neon patterns that sometimes look like spiraled block letters of the alphabet stringed together in circles (lmao sounds weird) or hexagonal shapes. Kind of like a barely there barrier in my vision that I mostly only see in dim lighting. If I’m really stressed, anxious, or in pain I will see them in broad daylight. I also have a tendency to not be able to distinguish certain objects momentarily. Like let’s say I saw a clump of junk, a blanket sitting in a weird shape, or a sweater slumped on the floor. I’d see some indiscernible mass that looks monster like and start to panic inside. I usually try to calm myself bc I know it’s probably something normal. I also see stuff move in my peripheral or will sometimes see giant spiders for a second and panic. (And giant like 5+ inches with legs extended)

I think there have been a couple times where I’d heard distinct loud alarm buzzer noises or thumping/knocking during the day. There was one instance where I heard something that sounded like a jet breaking the sound barrier and it was so insanely loud I had to cover my ears. It was like a deep vibrational tone that was deafening and I felt the house shaking. I heard it as 6:30-7am when I got up and I checked outside- nothing, I also asked other people and no one heard or felt it. I was terrified and crazy confused!

I really want to see you a new doctor. Are you honest with your doctor? Does he/she know about your drug use?

I was completely open with my last doc about my extreme psychedelic use and he ended up being the best most understanding doc I've ever had. I think it's weird your doctor doesn't consider you schizophrenic. I was diagnosed with Drug Induced schizophrenia. It's not genetic. In my case it was temporary

.5mg risperidone sounds a bit low to me for the symptoms you're having. I was on 2mg. Maybe try olanzapine?

 

[negrogesic]

I have no experience but i must say its interesting to sort of hear about the manifestation of probable serotonergic psychedelic induced/precipitated psychosis. It also sort of serves as a warning. Physiologically i wonder what the etiology of serotonergic precipitated psychosis looks like and how it differs from say dissociative induced psychosis. Do they both precipitate a latent psychosis, is it dose/frequency dependent, i dont know.

 

[Survival0200]

Risperidone was terrible! I couldn't concentrate on anything and it destroyed my sexuality. I'm glad I got rid off it.