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[RaveAngel]

I stopped by... here... Monday. For the first time in... a very long time. It's been... maybe years (or a year) since I've written in here. So many times I've typed a message, only to get to the end and decide it's not worth it. But Monday... Monday got me thinking. Thinking so hard that on the way home from work I heard this song, that I'd never heard before, and I cried.
And I can't believe how much has changed. My life. This place. Everything. I remember my first time here... probably before most of you even knew it existed, because it was years ago, now. And I read my old posts... my old words... and they sound so old. And I was sad. In different ways and for different reasons. Because I remember so much. And I can't change any of it. And I can't relive any of it. And I can't feel like that anymore.
Because some days I miss it. And some days I wish I could do it again. And some days I know that I'm better off without it, because I'm a better person now. Some days. I'm happy now... I was sad then... but I miss it. Define irony.
You're right, it doesn't make much sense. I've realized that too. But I remember. And I'm all grown up now... making obligations and plans for my future. Remembering all this. And how it got so hard. And how I moved on.

 

[Tribal Hybridz]

Dont stop now...

 

[lilygirl]

i know exactly how you feel... i've posted the most depressive poems on this board, and for a while i lost my inspiration. it wasn't because something awful happened, i was just too happy to write.
it does feel kind of eery, i think i share the happiness you're describing. i'm still amazed when i can just bounce back from things that used to send me into days and weeks of dispair. but, i guess it's definitely for the best and now i can write and smile at the same time.
hope you can do the same
-lil