New user. Long time user.

[Puddlez587]

Hello;

Stumbled upon this forum 5 minutes ago, in one of my newly found habits of hours upon hours of staring at nothingness and seems like a decent place to get some info and waste more time.

I'm a heavy drug user. Whatever I could get my hands on. It used to be cocaine. Still is, but it used to be to. Now, after being introduced to it only a few months ago, it would seem meth is my choice. Ugh.

Hello.

 

[Jabberwocky]

It used to be cocaine. Still is, but it used to be to.

Lol.

Welcome to Bluelight Puddlez587

My DOC was meth as well. Such a beast of a drug to get into.. do you have any intentions on slowing down? No judgement if not.

What other types of things do you like doing in your free time?

 

[Puddlez587]

Honestly? I'm not really sure what my intentions are really. I know my want is to not be doing what I'm doing. But that isnt going to happen anytime soon. I'm on day 3 of sitting here looking at a screen and not knowing really what I'm looking at. Something, sometime, somewhere down the road is going to flip and the lights will come on, but, who knows when that will be. My story over the past 30 days is a horrible one, coupled with some extreme sadness, and currently, I sit in a very dark room, in a very dark place, with not of care.

Slow down? No, I think I'll floor it.

 

[Jabberwocky]

All good.

But if you ever need some support in stopping, or merely want to vent what's going on, please check out The Dark Side.

Peace!

 

[TheLoveBandit]

I know my want is to not be doing what I'm doing.

Well, we have a LOT of members who find themselves in such a mindset. Usually more than once in awhile - which may sound depressing as in 'you keep falling into it' but the point is to highlight 'there are ways out of it'. We're pretty non-judgemental around here, as we know everyone has flaws (self-induced or not), and we're trying to make the best of it. If you feel like sharing more, we're here and we can help direct you to specific forums that might help if you're interested - though, as ever, it is your choice. Just know you aren't alone in any of this unless you choose to be. Meanwhile, we'll be here, ready to help - even if helping is just listening. I hope to see you around.

 

[Puddlez587]

Wow. This Reply. What timing. It hasnt been that long since my original post, but it feels like a lifetime. I think I've slept a handful of times since then, if that, lost nearly 50lbs as I havent eaten barely, been in jail twice, tried to commit suicide, and lost my family. I'm homeless, and no end in sight. I'm in serious trouble.