new to this site lurking for a while please help me!

[Ce2700]

Well I'm an idiot had almost 11 years clean and sober and last year the weekend before Christmas I decided to pickup again. I managed for a while just smoking and drinking unfortunately now I find myself with a daily opiate habit and xannax that I'm battling with.

I really need help I am trying to wein myself from the Roxy I don't really know how many I was taking daily I know yesterday I took 4.5 30s
And didn't feel great at times. Today I've only taken 3 so far and have basically felt like crap most of the day.

I've taken 1 every 6 hours and after about 4 hours I start hurting (body aches) and getting hot and cold chills\sweets

I was fortunate to obtain allot of things (responsibility during sobriety) I own a thriving company with employees so going cold turkey is basically impossible at the moment. I really don't know what to do or how to handle this as I've never been physically addicted to anything before. I got clean and sober at age 23 for over 10 years and was basically a garbage head as a kid (anything and everything) but this is entirely new and I don't know how to manage this or tapper and further more many people done even know I've relapse I've told no one. I don't know what to do I want my old life back and I don't know the best way to get there please help.

Peace

 

[Bearlove]

Hi there and welcome to the site,

Can you not seek medical help who can assist you with a taper? The short answer is you have to start taking a little bit less over a long period, I'm sure that somebody can give you a tapering guide in the other forums Sober Living would be a good place to look - as quite a few people have been in the same position as you.

Bearlove

 

[xxixamxninjaxx]

Only a doctor can tell you what is best for you. I have always been a jump off the deep end kind of guy myself. I am currently detoxing from 250 mg daily of Norco 10/325 and almost to hour 72. It's a brutal few days to start man and there is no avoiding it. I feel like tapering just causes more pain over a longer amount of time. You got to look the demon in the eyes and tell him to go fuck himself. I find it helps to count the hours like you are counting down to Christmas. I know I'm almost to the top of the mountain and by tomorrow night it's me 1 drugs zero. This time I'm going to make the challenge to never use this road again. I've wasted a decade of my life to this shit and I have kids and people who love me I've let down too many times before. My dad died 2 months ago and he never knew me sober since I was 15...That hurts me a lot....Just fucking find something you love or cherish and hold tight and jump.

 

[PhantomPain]

Only a doctor can tell you what is best for you. I have always been a jump off the deep end kind of guy myself. I am currently detoxing from 250 mg daily of Norco 10/325 and almost to hour 72. It's a brutal few days to start man and there is no avoiding it. I feel like tapering just causes more pain over a longer amount of time. You got to look the demon in the eyes and tell him to go fuck himself. I find it helps to count the hours like you are counting down to Christmas. I know I'm almost to the top of the mountain and by tomorrow night it's me 1 drugs zero. This time I'm going to make the challenge to never use this road again. I've wasted a decade of my life to this shit and I have kids and people who love me I've let down too many times before. My dad died 2 months ago and he never knew me sober since I was 15...That hurts me a lot....Just fucking find something you love or cherish and hold tight and jump.

Wow, bravo man. You got a standing ovation from me my friend. Great way to put it, and powerful short story about you and your father. We learn the most from our biggest mistakes. You learned the value of a relationship and not to take those in your life for granted, it came at a steep price, but it will serve you the rest of your life.

God bless.

 

[Acidburn1987]

Well this is a new account for me, (had an account maybe 5-6 years ago but damned if i can even remember the username) but on to you. I found that getting about 80mgs of methadone ( 8 10mg pills) works, i will take 3.5 of them on day 1 then 2.5 on day 2 qnd then as needed on day 3. Because its a complete synthetic it will make you feel better without prolonging the opiate process. You also wont be taking the methadone long enough to become physically addicted to it. On day 4 you will have bypassed the horrible part of the withdrawal so you may feel a bit sluggish but won't be puking or have the shits. Even if you don't take my advice good luck my friend. I understand the hell you are going through and have gone through it myself with both rx pills and dope both of them orally, snorting and iv. Feel better