I've been lurking around for a while now, and I decided to join so I can have people to talk to while going through the struggle of opiate addiction, since I don't really have a support system. I've been using opiates since I was 15, but it has never been as bad as the past 8 months. I've become completely enslaved to the heroin and opiates, and I'm in terrible withdrawals every morning I wake up, so all I think about is scoring. I've lost all interest in things I used to like, my sex drive is non-existent, and I have no motivation. I aquired several pills of suboxone and took one sub-l today and I feel almost "normal" now, no "high" at all and I still have cravings, but my withdrawals are gone. I will try my best to abstain for all of tomorrow then take 4mg the next day. The only significant clean time I've had was while incarcerated, and I felt very healthy then without opiates or benzo's. I just want my life and health and mental health back. I can't get back the ridiculous amount of $ I've wasted, but that comes and goes.
I'm happy I signed up on this forum, I've gotten much good information from all of you here, and there's much that we can learn from each other.
I'm happy I signed up on this forum, I've gotten much good information from all of you here, and there's much that we can learn from each other.
