New spiritual blog...

[Dedbeet]

Hi all,

I'm starting a new spiritual blog, if anyone's interested, with my thoughts/insights on spirituality, ego death and transcendence.

The main reason is that moderators have told me my posts are too blog-like and to take them there, so I decided to start a sort of focused or topical type blog, and simply post thoughts that come up on the subject, whatever they may be.

This is the sole/only thread I'm starting on this forum ever again -- -- I'll be doing all the rest of my thread starters there, and only casual/occasional replies in established threads here.

The first entry is here:

http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/entries/5396-Beyond-science...

Peace... enjoy, if u feel like dropping by...

 

[Dedbeet]

"Sensitive readers, and my blog"

(Blog entry)

I've called this blog a spiritual blog, but it isn't really. That's just the closest term I could use to find to describe it, as in a way it does have a focus.

The material discussed in this blog is negating to the psyche/self, and its polarized emotional roller-coaster ride of up/down, good/bad, joy/sorrow, pain/pleasure, hope/despair... its quest for the end of the rainbow, and its bleak and dismal fears.

It points consciousness/awareness beyond the psyche, like a collection of signs on the road that aren't noticed clearly, but the driver subconsciously remembers where they point to.

People have had some weird reactions to my posts in other forums, fwiw, although it isn't common.

A few get angry, as though they're been attacked, although they weren't even mentioned. Or mildly depressed, feeling like life is worthless. Negative feelings are the most common, for reasons I won't get into in this post.

They *do not* have the ability to mess up anyone's life, nor do they have the ability to enlighten anybody -- but they can sow seeds, drop breadcrumbs, flash road signs, topple matchbook fences standing on end.

P.S. by sensitive, I don't mean "emotionally hurting or depressed people may be affected". I mean that thoughtful, sincere readers who have some degree of inkling that "life just isn't working, something is wrong with how I take things to be, or myself to be" may be affected, regardless of emotional tendencies.

IMO, bluelight is a truly awesome and fitting place to post subject matter of this nature. "Enlightennext magazine" or "Buddhist online review" or "ClearConsciousness Yahoo! group" are examples of the most utterly unfitting and pointless places. People already know all about this stuff. There's no room for it there. No one is listening.

There is a timeless, non-located realm of pure Being containing no self and no others -- only unconditional fulfillment, contentment, intimacy and peace. It is completely still there, unfathomably deep and silent, eternal, immaculate, undisturbed. Only love survives there -- nothing else.

 

[Dedbeet]

I know what the monster in the closet was now.

The insight just showed up, as they've been seeming to lately. Read at your own risk.

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Fear of monsters in the closet is an early stage of the psyche/self. The split has occurred, and the psyche/self is now active.

"A monster's gonna get meeeeee, ma!"

"There's no such thing as monsters, honey."

"But I'm scared of it, mama!"

"Are you scared of your *toy* monster with the silly roar?

"No mommy... it isn't a *real* monster, it's plastic".

"What are you so scared of, honey?"

"I don't knowwwwwww... I'm just scared it'll get me".

The child's fear of big ugly monster hiding in the closet, is the child's desire
for small, pretty, comforting mom who's right here with me.

The problem is *time*.

The child says "I got scared of the monster, and wanted you here with me.

What really happened is that the child felt a desire for her, and got scared.

Desire is an invasion of awareness by the psyche/self. It is foreign to
awareness, to reality. It should not be there at all, ever. It is "time", which
does not exist. It is falsehood.

Desiring (lacking) what isn't present right now is utterly foreign to reality.

The sense of lack, of something missing, is the monster hiding in the closet
that the child is afraid of.

Suddenly, "absolute presence" felt an absence. Something was missing. Something
wasn't right. Reality was no longer real.

That was the monster hiding in the child's closet.

 

[Dedbeet]

The birth cry of the separate self...

It's too simple. The mind will never get it.

The separate self begins here:

* I want something *.

* Something is missing *

* Something is not right *

* But *

* I don't *

* Know *

* What *

* It *

* Is *.

That's it. That's all she wrote.

 

[qwe]

that (or any) self isn't separate, at all.

and we misattribute it too often to magic or god.

if i understand you correctly. either way i'm glad for your reunion.

 

[twentysix]

An absence of something created a desire for something... yeah. "Time" might not exist as we perceive it (in a sense, as we are...), but in a... thing that wants to survive (as it's sort of programmed to do)- in this circuit, having "Mom" around is going to give it a sense of security... Because at one "time" or another one might get snatched up (even now) and eaten by something if mom and connected support group wasn't around/connected at that time. Yea, time might not exist, but there are reasons for our behaviors. It was definitely real at one time or another, to become a behavior, and still has function today. A child is in a field, lost away from the mother. The mother screams for it... just because "time" doesn't exist doesn't mean it's smart to be a ... whatever it is.... for the child to just sit there and do nothing/not scream back. Just because they were once together, doesn't mean they always will be. I'm not sure what the problem in that is. Threats still exist.

But you're right... the desire from lack came first, before being confused/imagining a monster. But that's out of survival... and within this circuit of survival, "time" still is in the formula.

 

[panic in paradise]

time means less, and so is left out of the mind the more one is content with in, imagining freely, not bound/restricted in thought or 'day dreaming' - time goes by faster when one is in deep consideration of anthers demands, needs or wants, upon permission of anothers request - time also is less 'existent' when what is surrounding the individual, begins to build a relation in accordance with the individuals state of mind - be it what is in the past present or future.


what makes time mean more, be more relevant, become a crisis?!?
an addiction to the race with time, it is much the same as a slot machine,
you pull the lever, and then, before you can blink or remember that song -


ching chang chong times up and you are down.