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E-wreck

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Got here because I was looking into a “rehab” I was in long ago here in San Diego, called Freeway. From what I’ve read, it was the prototype for the rest of Meehans “rehabs” all over the country. Went in with preexisting conditions like depression, ocd, and social anxiety, which I didn’t want to have, so ignoring and self medicating were my coping skills. At that time mental health was less treated and acknowledged than it is now, so as a child, as a male, my issues were my fault, I had learned to believe. Still stuff I work thru now. This lockdown has ramped up my isolating(not good for my head, but what is best for all), and I don’t have experience with computers or the internet, unless its(ok, I don’t know the level of folks sense of humor here, so I’ll keep it clean)... basically, help please.
 
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I doubt anyone on BL isn't struggling with the lockdowns and isolation in one way or another.

We tend to have a good sense of humor too😉
 
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SnafuInTheVoid said:
What exactly do you need help/advice with?

Most of us here have problems with drugs/mental health. You are among friends.
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Thank you. I guess I’m just afraid that this will all overwhelm me. I’ve told 2 close friends that we have put ourselves thru worse, so we are actually ahead of the curve, but they don’t know I’m using. I can care about the world, but me?
 
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I doubt anyone on BL isn't struggling with the lockdowns and isolation in one way or another.

We tend to have a good sense of humor too😉
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Thanks for that. It’s true, this is a general feeling, but that’s almost what makes it worse. I’m used to being sick, and knowing that if I lose it there’s someone, somewhere who can talk me down, but now...and the bitch of it is that life is going on, shits still hitting the fan in ways I can’t control. No universal scale that says we’ve had enough for a while. So, I’m using. Bad. And not taking care of daily stuff
 
@E-wreck

Sometimes I crack under the stress of life, loneliness, almost 20 years of drug addiction, depression, anxiety, etc...

One thing that always keeps me moving forward is knowing that "everything always works out"... because it's true. Everything always works out one way or another.

If there is anything I can help you with like specific drug use problems or mental health issues let me know. Tons of people here to help you. BL is a very supportive community.
 
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“You know what a shit barometer is, Bubs? It measures the shit pressure in the air. You can feel it. Listen, Bubs. Hear that? Sounds of the whispering winds of shit.”

RIP
 
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Hey @E-wreck,

E-wreck said:
Thanks for that. It’s true, this is a general feeling, but that’s almost what makes it worse. I’m used to being sick, and knowing that if I lose it there’s someone, somewhere who can talk me down, but now...and the bitch of it is that life is going on, shits still hitting the fan in ways I can’t control. No universal scale that says we’ve had enough for a while. So, I’m using. Bad. And not taking care of daily stuff
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I think of a lot of us can relate to you and hopefully you find peace in your time at bluelight.

Maybe check out the Health and Recovery sub-forum.

I wonder if this shit storm will ever stop. But i find that things come in waves.

Welcome to Bluelight :)
 
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