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[ZzzJunkheadzzz]

It’s been years since I was on this Website
I sort of forgot about it in my attempt to ignore my very basic nature
But I failed to make others happy
But I tried I gave up

Nobody gives a shit about my happiness so fuck it
Im in this hotel room with this amazing guy and I’m so gross I had to get high to be ok with possibly getting rejected again

The persistence of loss

 

[Robi]

welcome back, hope you reach out alot in BL, many people have fucks to give, shits to care about, and most want to help others to be happier, but you know that comes from inside, no one can make us happy, maybe just enhance the joys and happiness we have deep inside

 

[Coffeeshroom]

Hey there @ZzzJunkheadzzz and welcome back

DOn't be so hard om yourself, we all have been there and some or most are still there. But we are here to chat with and just get some insight from a different space and have an outlet where you can feel free and know no judgment will ever be there.

all the best and we are here for you

Regards
Coffeehroom

 

[ZzzJunkheadzzz]

Thanks I’m happy to hear from you guys

I didn’t read the post about introductions I thought I did a good job but I did not mention my doc which includes everything I can put into my bloodstream or lungs

I relapsed again but I’ve been trying to also so idk why that was surprising

 

[Coffeeshroom]

Relapsing is part of the game and mostly is influenced from outside sources. But what is your goal or path that you want to walk so to speak.
And plus we happy to hear from you too and you getting this out there so that by some "miracle" things will change for you for the better.

So keep talking to us, that's why we are here and the whole community of BlueLight

Regards
CoffeeShroom