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finallyfree1982

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Hello everyone! So, I decided to join this site because so many people on here helped me get through my battle with suboxone withdrawal. I wanted to share my experiance and hopefully help someone out there get the answers they are looking for. I am a 33 year old male from Maine. I started my addiction with oxy's when I was 17. I was not aware of the addictive traits of opiates when I started doing oxy. Before I realized it, it was too late!! I came clen to my parents, joined the Navy and shipped off to bootcamp in 2003. I was clean for 4 years but always craved pills. When I got out of the service in 2007, I quickly went down hill back on pills. One day I couldn't get any pills, so I got 4mg of suboxone from a friend and before long I was fully addicted to the suboxone. I went to a doctor and was perscribed suboxone. I was on suboxone for 6 years!! I lost myself. I had no motivation. I lost friends, felt like crap all the time and hated being chained to a medication so I decided to quit. I weened myself down to 2mg a day and jumped off. April 1st 2015 was the first day I was clean. After 4 days, I felt awesome and thought there was no way I would get off that easy, boy was I right!! After day 4 things got worse every day. Day 6-13 were my worst days. I had no energy and felt like I couldn't be around anyone. The worst part was the restless legs and insomnia. I didnt sleep more than maybe 3 hours of broken sleep per night for 3 weeks! I am on day 29 today and feel pretty much like myself again. Still don't have a lot of energy and get anxious from time to time, but I am done. I will NEVER use again! I want anyone who is trying or thinking about getting off suboxone that it can be done. The withdrawal is long and drawn out, but even after 6 years of being on suboxone, the withdrawal symptoms are manageable and it is very doable if you stay positive. When I had bad days, I would tell myself, "You felt like crap on the suboxone, just push through a month and feel better already!" You will feel like it will never end, but it does. I promise you that once you wake up on that day when you realize, "Hey, I feel good again!" It will all be worth it!! I took fish oil every day, multi-vitamin, potassium, B-vitamins and immodium for the really bad days. I only took about 12mg of immodium though, some people i read took like 100 pills of immodium twice a day!! Thats just crazy to me!! Immodium is an opiate but doesn't cross the blood brain barrier but I didn't want to take any chances extending my withdrawal!! Please feel free to ask questions! I didn't write very much detail, but feel free to ask. I will answer you honestly. I am not a doctor, but I have learned through personal experiences. I am here to help anyone who needs it as some of you have done for me! Paying it forward!!
 
Hey FF-

So happy for you! You worked hard and it has paid off! That is so nice to hear :)

Awesome of you to pay it forward, really :) That's what it's all about :)

I just wanted to say hi and congrats to you :)

Keep up the good work!

Peace.
 
Thank you very much! It really comes down to wanting it bad enough. I just got to the point where I was so unhappy being on the suboxone that I knew it was time for me. I failed many times before with in the first week because I wasn't quitting for me. Either my connection was dry, I moved or went in the service. It took a long time for me to realize how much being in that fog of opiates really made me a completely different person. I became someone I was not happy with. For me it was a question of, should I jump and feel sick for a month and be done forever, or stay on suboxone and feel horrible for the rest of my life. I chose freedom. Everyone is different. I just want people to know that it IS POSSIBLE! It wasn't that severe. Long and drawn out, but it's very manageable. If I can do it I believe anyone can! It's not a walk in the park by any means, but I caused the damage to myself and knew eventually I'd have to face my demons. I'm very happy I did it and I'm proud of myself. The insomnia is the worst but by day 30 I am able to sleep normally. I wake up early now which I love. No longer do I feel like burying my head under pillows and sleeping all day. I enjoy the little things in life again! I hope I can inspire someone out there. Getting off suboxone is doable ladies and gentleman! Thanks for all who share their stories here. Fellow addicts understand each other and I read hundreds of people's stories before, during and now happy to say, after my withdrawal! Keep soldiering on! Be strong. Do it for you. Nobody else can make you stop if you don't want it. Don't attempt it unless you know you're ready. If you try and fail, try try again!
 
Hey FF-

"Do it for you."

Words of wisdom! :)

This is so true. No one can MAKE anyone else quit ANYthing. At the most, you can maybe make someone else THINK. But you cannot do the work for them, and they have to decide to do the work...and then do it.

It would be so nice if we could make someone quit - successfully. It is so hard to watch the ones you love struggle, and destroy themselves, and everything in their life with meaning.

Again, I think it is awesome that you are here to encourage others, and offer them the benefit of your experience. I think "paying it forward" is a beautiful concept. If everyone would do that, the world would be a much better place, wouldn't it?

Enjoy your (SOBER!!!) day today!

Peace.
 
Thank you! I know how helpless being addicted can make someone feel. I didn't post a withdrawal log like some. I know myself in withdrawal. I know I have days that are horrible during the process and didn't want to post my feelings during withdrawal due to the fact that I was hurting and not myself. It's all normal. I just wanted to keep it positive. It's not fun but it beats being chained to a chemical for several more years. I knew the time had to come that I had to face reality. My reality was, I am an addict. I have to get clean and go through withdrawal so I never have to fear it again. I promise there is light at the end of the tunnel. Did suboxone withdrawal last a month? Pretty close! It's not fun but I wasn't having fun on the medication anyway. I hated who I became. Today I can laugh and smile. The fog is gone. I regret not doing it sooner, but like I said, I couldn't do it till I was ready. Please know that you will feel so much better when it's over. You can be that old you again. Stay strong and keep positive thoughts. It will amaze you how much better you will feel if you tell yourself that you're done. I read someone's thread who said, "fake it till you make it." If I started feeling kinda bad, I just made myself do something and forced myself to recognize that it isn't really that bad. Once I tried to focus on the fact that I wasn't comfortable but I could definitely handle it, I actually started feeling better! Thanks for your kind words! I appreciate you all so much!
 
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