New member saying Hi

[defconfree]

Hi,just joined bluelight,have browsed the site now and then over the years but never before bothered to actually sign up until now.
Like a smoke of hash after a long day,much prefer it to some of the skunks which kinda knock me out and if I smoke too much for too long it can get me a bit paranoid and depressed so tend to avoid it,sticking to old school hash.
Have had problems with opiates,kept off them for a long time but recently fell off the wagon,with a bit of help from our nhs hope to kick that into touch once i get a script,few weeks away though.Like my diaz as well,I don't go mad with them,just try keep it down to 2 a day at present,hope to reduce a bit more in future.

Am from up North,spent a lot of time moving around before I kind of settled back and ended up staying where I am now,just about managing to hang on to my flat,bedroom tax n everything else they try and make life harder for us.
Its probably best place I have had over the years,there's been quite a few with all the moving about I used to do.

Love all sorts of music,play bass a little when my injuries are not affecting me as badly as they can get sometimes,got a little PC based set up,cubase and Reason plus few bits of outboard gear,always want more but it can get to be a pricey hobby,software has made it more accessible and a lot cheaper but would prefer some real synths and similar to use hands on instead of messing with a mouse on the PC.

Thats about all I can think to write at the mo,hope i get to meet some good folk and take part in some interesting discussions,thanks folks.
dcf.

 

[juansalar]

Hello, since I've also joined today, I thought I'd demonstrate my 'fraternity' and reply to your introduction (and as a means of introducing myself).
I imagine 'up north' refers to the UK and north of Watford ;-)
I'm based in London.
There appear to be some similarities between our drug experiences. However, since a first fateful taste of opium in India 10 years+ ago, I experienced a moment of clarity and found myself thinking 'fuck! where have you been all my life?!'
I've always drank way too much alcohol, including drinking first thing in the morning to manage the shakes. But I hated the 'drunk me' and felt repelled by the smelly, obnoxious, crass mess of a drunk i could become (I felt like I was turning into my dad). But i needed that 'spark' and reward to keep dark feelings and emptiness at bay.
I believe someone is an 'addict' and what they're addicted to - as long as it gives a rush and feeling of wellbeing - is actually immaterial and interchangeable with another drug. So, I put this into practice when I came into contact with heroin. I have been a functioning addict for 10 years, normally having no problem negotiating work and in fact being clearer headed and healthier because I didn't drink so much. But being reliant on something to prevent terrible withdrawal is no way to live... nor is having to deal with some of the lowlife junkies associated with the drug scene. So in short, I aim to get off all narcotics and learn how to deal with life in different healthier ways.
I think a sense of community is good and necessary. I successfully quit for the first half of this year, but unemployment, social isolation and depression led me to relapse 8 weeks ago.
I want to avoid falling prey to feeling isolated next time i go clean.
Best of luck!

 

[keeping]

welcome fellow UK bluelighter
i'm London-based like juansalar, glad to have you here ☾༼ ༎ຶ ෴ ༎ຶ༽