New Member for Old Addiction Heroind

[leoleoleo]

I am new here. I am asking about enzymes levels for the liver. I am doing the methadone clinic thing and my regular Dr. has no idea about my drug use or the fact that I take 61mg's of methadone a day. I used for about 8 months and got up to using 60 mg's a day. I had a part time gig and I was making bank spending 1200 a month on H. Iv been going to the clinic for 4 months now and I crave like hell and used one time and I want to use again. I am on phase 1 and have some take homes. I crave but I don't want to up my methadone but the clinic encourages me to. So I am really sort of fucked up. Right now Im trying to figure out a way to get a gram cause I did my UA for the month and can skip taking my methadone for a couple of days and then spend a day getting high. I am an idiot. Ok so back to the liver enzymes, I really don't want to tell my Dr. or anyone else that I am a junkie. My friends have been helping me with rent, food, bills and I am getting rent assistance and LEAP and just bullshitting my way to staying in my place and keeping it together enough to become stable again like I once was. No body knows I am going through this but me and the ex-roommate who introduced me to heroin. He is gone now. I needed money so I let this dude live with me and he introduced me to heroin and never paid me a dime and then he sued me. Yeah sued me can you believe it? When I kicked him out his shit was in my shed and my other ex-friend took his shit. I did give him written and text notice more than once to come get his stuff and them 4 months later he shows up some of his shit is gone (unlocked shed he knew it was unlocked) and then he took me to court. He lost. When I began using I found out that a co-worker (the one who stole the shit out of the shed) of mine was using ultimately, both ex-roommate and co-worker lost their jobs and became homeless and are still out there using. I am very lucky because my landlord is willing to work with me on my back rent and current rent. I am having a hard time maintaining a job. I would be homeless too if I wasn't such an excellent manipulator and liar. Anyway I just needed some information about the enzymes. Doc wants to see me about my ALT and AST and I wanted to know if the numbers could be high because of methadone? DO any of you guys know? I also just need some support with these cravings man. I know I'm gonna have them forever but sometimes Its just really hard as you guys know. H was my boyfriend, my lover, my best friend, my entertainment, my everything and when I started using I knew it was going to fuck me up and I did it anyway. I would appreciate any help and any comments I need to be around some users. Like I said my friends have no idea they think I am just having a hard time. Which I am but not because of circumstances beyond my control! It is due to circumstances within my control and bad choices. Thanks sorry this is so long. Oh I am a female and in the education/social work field.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Welcome to Bluelight!

It is best to have your enzyme levels checked by a separate doctor if you don't want to tell your regular one