Hello....
I have been a user for a year or so I would say..... and in that time I am now up to maybe 9-10bags a day, and it's usually a mixture of sniffing and IV but mostly IV...
I know this is not healthy. I'm 24... went through this issue a bit when I was around 18/19 but only used for a month or so and just stopped using, probably because it was an experimental phase. I learned how much I enjoyed it though....
So basically I got into some bad company, and was dating someone that was using and it just became a habit, repetition, etc. A few things I amworried about :
The withdrawal. My body has been on a schedule, and the routine is what is making it a little more difficult. My body has been used to doing it at the same hours everyday, give or take a little but I can tell this has effected my body when she goes into withdrawal from skipping a dose.
What do you all think about tapering down? I want to do that just to lessen the WD a little bit, but is it better to just STOP??? Well I'm sure it is but.... does it actually help to taper??
The hot flashes are the INTENSE, I sweat like crazy and usually as a person I don't sweat often at all... I have some xanax, valium, and some nyquil. I think that what I plan to do is just try and sleep it off as much as I can the first 2-3 days or so, just so that the aches and pains and restless leg and heart racing and anxiety isn't so rough. Afterwards, I plan on doing some xanax here and there when I just can't take it anymore, just to be able to function. I know my heart will be racing and will have very bad anxiety so hopefully that will help as well.
Is it just me or does everything feel foggy and dizzy and clearer (visually) when it's out of your system? Do you guys think this is going to be extremely painful for me? A friend of mine who uses a little bit less than me went through it, and she said that in about a week she actually started feeling OK.....
Another concern (obviously) is staying clean. I KNOW in her mind that this is NOT the way to live. You CANNOT live a happy life and do drugs! Yes I'm sure you can always find money here or there, be able to get away with hiding the habit or using on and off and getting away with it.... but why? Part of me just enjoys the feeling and it's been such a comfort, more so it's been a ROUTINE for so long that that is what is going to be hard. Like I mentioned, I do it usually every X hours a day, first thing when I wake up and of course I do it before I go to bed (not right before but still). I know I need to consume myself with things, like taking my dog to the park and maybe pick up hobbies, heck even smoke more weed because it's great.
What are some constant reminders you all tell yourselves? I personally hate relying on this.... when you have it it's great but how depressing and useless is it to CONSTANTLY chase after something, depend on something... that really just destroys you? I have survived without this before, and I know I can again!!! It helps but it's temporary.... and it stops you from living. It really does. It helps you get by living a lie.... living a fake life..... and I am really tired of that. But I am terrified of what's yet to come.... but I love my girlfriend and we will never be together if I have this habit. I love my family and it's tough to see them and go on vacations worrying if I have enough to bring, or if I can bring it at all. I hate the constant spending of money. I hate the damage I've done to her body.... the waste of money.
But I want to change this, and I need some support.......
I have been a user for a year or so I would say..... and in that time I am now up to maybe 9-10bags a day, and it's usually a mixture of sniffing and IV but mostly IV...
I know this is not healthy. I'm 24... went through this issue a bit when I was around 18/19 but only used for a month or so and just stopped using, probably because it was an experimental phase. I learned how much I enjoyed it though....
So basically I got into some bad company, and was dating someone that was using and it just became a habit, repetition, etc. A few things I amworried about :
The withdrawal. My body has been on a schedule, and the routine is what is making it a little more difficult. My body has been used to doing it at the same hours everyday, give or take a little but I can tell this has effected my body when she goes into withdrawal from skipping a dose.
What do you all think about tapering down? I want to do that just to lessen the WD a little bit, but is it better to just STOP??? Well I'm sure it is but.... does it actually help to taper??
The hot flashes are the INTENSE, I sweat like crazy and usually as a person I don't sweat often at all... I have some xanax, valium, and some nyquil. I think that what I plan to do is just try and sleep it off as much as I can the first 2-3 days or so, just so that the aches and pains and restless leg and heart racing and anxiety isn't so rough. Afterwards, I plan on doing some xanax here and there when I just can't take it anymore, just to be able to function. I know my heart will be racing and will have very bad anxiety so hopefully that will help as well.
Is it just me or does everything feel foggy and dizzy and clearer (visually) when it's out of your system? Do you guys think this is going to be extremely painful for me? A friend of mine who uses a little bit less than me went through it, and she said that in about a week she actually started feeling OK.....
Another concern (obviously) is staying clean. I KNOW in her mind that this is NOT the way to live. You CANNOT live a happy life and do drugs! Yes I'm sure you can always find money here or there, be able to get away with hiding the habit or using on and off and getting away with it.... but why? Part of me just enjoys the feeling and it's been such a comfort, more so it's been a ROUTINE for so long that that is what is going to be hard. Like I mentioned, I do it usually every X hours a day, first thing when I wake up and of course I do it before I go to bed (not right before but still). I know I need to consume myself with things, like taking my dog to the park and maybe pick up hobbies, heck even smoke more weed because it's great.
What are some constant reminders you all tell yourselves? I personally hate relying on this.... when you have it it's great but how depressing and useless is it to CONSTANTLY chase after something, depend on something... that really just destroys you? I have survived without this before, and I know I can again!!! It helps but it's temporary.... and it stops you from living. It really does. It helps you get by living a lie.... living a fake life..... and I am really tired of that. But I am terrified of what's yet to come.... but I love my girlfriend and we will never be together if I have this habit. I love my family and it's tough to see them and go on vacations worrying if I have enough to bring, or if I can bring it at all. I hate the constant spending of money. I hate the damage I've done to her body.... the waste of money.
But I want to change this, and I need some support.......
