So went to my psyche a week ago and we talked about my current state. We all thought bipolar wasn't an option because the depression is gone but apparently rapid moods and anger is enough to have that label.
I have had anger management issues, well my whole life. Minimal for most of that time. It really came to forefront when I got pregnant with my first child (my daughter) then again that might have been pregnancy rage LOL besides then the only time my anger got bad was when my #2 child (my son) was 2 years old, and then not much. It got really bad about 2 years ago.
Its funny when they say "Oh she snapped and freaked out". Ever have a feeling of literally snapping and freaking out. That happened when I was with Terry (my ex) when I got in a fight with him, not even sure what it was about but it was something to make me really angry. I snapped, yelled, and left with austin to a family shelter for 2 days. I calmed down and we went back home.
This year has been the worst out of it all. I have snapped way more than normal. I have snapped 3 times in 3 months. I get angry on a daily basis, several times a day. Its all over stupid stuff, the anger not the snapping. I hit a wall so I wouldn't hit my girlfriend.
All highly unacceptable in my books.
I have also been crying when I get into arguments with my girlfriend and either she says she's leaving or she frustrates me.
Crying is fine but not in those situations, that's completely ridiculous. I am fine with crying when its for something upsetting or hell even from fantastic love making (not that I have but still...).
So as I was stating I saw my psyche and he recommended changing my meds, which needed to be done anyhow since Seroquil caused me to have brain zaps but it did help me out a tad when I gained 20Lbs.
The psyche wants me on Risperidone and Lithium. Only thing about Risperidone that I don't like is the possible lactation lmfao I just stopped breastfeeding austin a year ago (+/-) and I don't need leaky tits again lmao
Okay, all joking aside, I just don't want to be a zombie. I wish I could just go on Clonazepam but apparently that's a controlled substance now and lil ole me who has a history of addiction -- yeah well he didn't want to give it to me. I think all I need is something to calm me down during the day and I'll be just fine.
I came to the realization that a friend of mine is stuck in a psychosis, its obvious only at times but when they talk about certain things its very obvious. Its not a dangerous psychosis BUT it is one none the less.
I think the person is realizing it slowly and is talking about seeking help. They never go and actually do it and they keep setting dates to when they will go and get help but never go through. I am not even family so I can't push it and talking about it too much would be nagging and I don't want to nag and turn it into that they resent it all and NEVER get help.
I guess I'll have to gently mention it when it comes up again.
We'll see.
I was suggested by my gf to seek out a group or counseling to talk about what has happened in my life.
Is there a "Mybrotherisapedoandrapedmybestfriendwhenshewasalittlekidandmyfamilyiscrackheadsandsoldeverythingwehadandweneverhadheatorhotwatermymomwaspsychobecauseofitallandmydadhadangerissuesbutinevergotmistreatedorbeatohandmydaughtergotstolebyherdadwhenshewas3yrsoldandineverdidanythingaboutitandnowihavebabydaddydramawithmyexandallineedisavliumtocalmmynervesandmaybesomepillthatworkslikeMDPVtomakemenotsolazy" kinda group??
I think I might be slipping again because I keep thinking maybe using PV would help me out. I know I could do just fine without it though.
Meh, what a life. LOL.
My girlfriend and I are doing great. More about us in another post another day.
I have had anger management issues, well my whole life. Minimal for most of that time. It really came to forefront when I got pregnant with my first child (my daughter) then again that might have been pregnancy rage LOL besides then the only time my anger got bad was when my #2 child (my son) was 2 years old, and then not much. It got really bad about 2 years ago.
Its funny when they say "Oh she snapped and freaked out". Ever have a feeling of literally snapping and freaking out. That happened when I was with Terry (my ex) when I got in a fight with him, not even sure what it was about but it was something to make me really angry. I snapped, yelled, and left with austin to a family shelter for 2 days. I calmed down and we went back home.
This year has been the worst out of it all. I have snapped way more than normal. I have snapped 3 times in 3 months. I get angry on a daily basis, several times a day. Its all over stupid stuff, the anger not the snapping. I hit a wall so I wouldn't hit my girlfriend.
All highly unacceptable in my books.
I have also been crying when I get into arguments with my girlfriend and either she says she's leaving or she frustrates me.
Crying is fine but not in those situations, that's completely ridiculous. I am fine with crying when its for something upsetting or hell even from fantastic love making (not that I have but still...).
So as I was stating I saw my psyche and he recommended changing my meds, which needed to be done anyhow since Seroquil caused me to have brain zaps but it did help me out a tad when I gained 20Lbs.
The psyche wants me on Risperidone and Lithium. Only thing about Risperidone that I don't like is the possible lactation lmfao I just stopped breastfeeding austin a year ago (+/-) and I don't need leaky tits again lmao
Okay, all joking aside, I just don't want to be a zombie. I wish I could just go on Clonazepam but apparently that's a controlled substance now and lil ole me who has a history of addiction -- yeah well he didn't want to give it to me. I think all I need is something to calm me down during the day and I'll be just fine.
I came to the realization that a friend of mine is stuck in a psychosis, its obvious only at times but when they talk about certain things its very obvious. Its not a dangerous psychosis BUT it is one none the less.
I think the person is realizing it slowly and is talking about seeking help. They never go and actually do it and they keep setting dates to when they will go and get help but never go through. I am not even family so I can't push it and talking about it too much would be nagging and I don't want to nag and turn it into that they resent it all and NEVER get help.
I guess I'll have to gently mention it when it comes up again.
We'll see.
I was suggested by my gf to seek out a group or counseling to talk about what has happened in my life.
Is there a "Mybrotherisapedoandrapedmybestfriendwhenshewasalittlekidandmyfamilyiscrackheadsandsoldeverythingwehadandweneverhadheatorhotwatermymomwaspsychobecauseofitallandmydadhadangerissuesbutinevergotmistreatedorbeatohandmydaughtergotstolebyherdadwhenshewas3yrsoldandineverdidanythingaboutitandnowihavebabydaddydramawithmyexandallineedisavliumtocalmmynervesandmaybesomepillthatworkslikeMDPVtomakemenotsolazy" kinda group??
I think I might be slipping again because I keep thinking maybe using PV would help me out. I know I could do just fine without it though.
Meh, what a life. LOL.
My girlfriend and I are doing great. More about us in another post another day.