LukeSkywalker3366
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Hello, I'll start of by introducing myself I'm a 19 yo male from Australia. I wanted to share my story about my stupidity with mdma and lsd.
I'll start at the begginning, abor 2 years ago I first got into the drug mdma I did it a couple times back then and never had any issues with it, A few months later I got into it with my now ex girlfriend and did it another couple of times and had a blast, the comedowns made me feel abit tired and sort of not myself but nothing major at all.
About 5 months ago I started to get into mdma pretty regularly I was doing it every week at times and even a couple of times back to back, aboht 3 months ago or so lsd came into the picture, I tried it once and it did nothing and I think that was just really bad/weak acid, a few weeks later I got hold of some really good acid and took 1 tab, the trip wasn't that hard but was pretty decent, I didn't really understand the drug that much and I see now that was stupid, when I took it I felt abit wobbly getting weird feelings in my body and head etc that I haven't really experienced before, and then when I peaked I felt on top of the world like I could walk forever, coming down I felt abit wonky again but went to sleep with my gf with no problems. Me being very stupid did about 1.5 tabs a week later, loving it even more and amazed by the visuals and the way I felt and thought, I thought I had found my favourite drug I loved it, I got abit over my head and used it about 6 days later doing about 1.5 tabs again,then I decided to candy flip for the first time just a few days later and was one of the best experiences of my life. then another week later did about 1.75 tabs (note these tabs were about 150uq each). Still enjoying my acid use about 2 weeks later I candyflipped with 1 tab and about 120mg of mdma, had an amazing time even better then the first, I won't go on about all the drug use because it's hard to remember exactly but basically i was abusing mdma and then acid, having the time of my life, starting to feel pretty shit with the comedowns though. I'll also note I'm a daily week smoker and was smoking quite abit of weed with my other drug use.
One day I was at home alone relaxing, decided to take 1.5 tabs and have a nice little day to myself tripping on acid alone for the first time, I was starting to feel the effects and was smoking a joint out the front, I decided to ride my bike to a mates place, as soon as I got out of my garage I saw a car across the road and it did a u turn and parked near my house for abit, in my head I was thinking they were following me but now I don't think they were, I went to approach them and they drove off me thinking that they were following me, and from there it all went really wrong it was like I was going insane I quickly rode my bike to my mates place thinking I was being followed and when I got there he calmed me down abit but I fully believed someone was after me, I left to go home and someone was walking access the road and then in front of me and I thought they were following me I was completely out of my mind, when I got home I was able to clam myself down but I was just thinking about so many things and couldn't stop, I still believed for many hours that someone was following me, I had experienced my first bad trip and it really took a toll on me.
I would like to note I have some depression and major social anxiety and I know that I shouldn't have been testing fate absuing these 2 drugs, I felt it affecting my mental health. I believe I did some mdma about 2 weeks after this incident.
Almost 2 months ago now I started to get weird feelings in my chest, my back , and my left arm, and it would feel like I couldn't breathe properly.
I also always see some sort of visuals very faint, mostly when looking at lights, about a month ago now I was feeling so bad I dropped an acid tab and for a short amount of time I was feeling great,'but my gf wanted to goto sleep and I was onu just peaking on the stuff, I was trying to goto sleep but my mind was racing crazy, I was up for about 3 hours feeling like I was going insane, having a cigerrette every half hour or so, I drank some milk and was finally able to goto sleep. About 4 days later a did some mdma with a mate....at this point I was already feeling shit and getting these pains and I know how pathetically stupid I am, then about a week later I did acid again, I was out the front smoking I heard police sirens as it started to kick in, it all went bad from here the pains that I was getting got intensified so much and it really felt like I was dying, the pain was terrible it felt like 10 heart attacks.
When these pains started also It has forced me to give up weed because the weed sets me off and makes the pain worse, I've slipped up since then and tried a couple joints but it never makes me feel any good so now I'm not doing any drugs at all. Trying to even not touch the weed as it seems to even put my sort of back in the acid headspace abit.
Sorry for such a long story I wouldn't be surprised if no one even wanted to read something this long, now I'll explain my pains abit more
Constantly I have a heaviness sort of feeling on my chest and sometimes my heart will sting, but I've also felt it on the other side of my chest sometimes, I will get a pain that goes to my left arm, and my back and even feel a pain in my neck. It also feels like I can't breathe properly. I can also feel my heart skipping beats sometimes it's a scary feeling and brings on anxiety making it worse.
I went to the doctors because I just couldn't handle it anymore and thought something was very wrong, I wore a heart monitor for 24 hrs and he says that they did find something wrong, I'm seeing a heart specialist tomorrow to properly check my heart and he has the results from my heart monitor I was wearing. I also got a chest x ray to check my lungs and the doc says they are fine. I'm really hoping for good news tomorrow and hope I haven't screwed myself up I know I need to not touch any drugs or alcohol for a very long time to get over this.
My question is, do you think I've screwed myself up physically? Could my heart be skipping beats because of severe anxiety/could all of this be really bad anxiety? Could this be a mental thing? Its even brought on bad depression because of how bad I feel. It would be good to hear from someone who knows something about this sorta thing happening im really scared for my health.
I know I have been a very very stupid person with my drug use especially still doing it a few times after these pains and mental effects starting. I just wanna get better and be ok. When I smoke weed now it's usually what makes it really really bad, but even without ifs still absolutely terrible, other issues I've been getting is being really tired all the time, and getting really dizzy mostly when I get up, sometimes It seems like I can see my heartbeat like my eyes are beating and I notice it in my eyesight, I'm always getting horrible pains in my chest and it's just really scary.
I'll also note I have abit of a bad back and don't have the best diet, I've been trying to eat better recently
This isn't written very well and I didn't explain it that well and dragged it on, sorry this is my first post.
I'll start at the begginning, abor 2 years ago I first got into the drug mdma I did it a couple times back then and never had any issues with it, A few months later I got into it with my now ex girlfriend and did it another couple of times and had a blast, the comedowns made me feel abit tired and sort of not myself but nothing major at all.
About 5 months ago I started to get into mdma pretty regularly I was doing it every week at times and even a couple of times back to back, aboht 3 months ago or so lsd came into the picture, I tried it once and it did nothing and I think that was just really bad/weak acid, a few weeks later I got hold of some really good acid and took 1 tab, the trip wasn't that hard but was pretty decent, I didn't really understand the drug that much and I see now that was stupid, when I took it I felt abit wobbly getting weird feelings in my body and head etc that I haven't really experienced before, and then when I peaked I felt on top of the world like I could walk forever, coming down I felt abit wonky again but went to sleep with my gf with no problems. Me being very stupid did about 1.5 tabs a week later, loving it even more and amazed by the visuals and the way I felt and thought, I thought I had found my favourite drug I loved it, I got abit over my head and used it about 6 days later doing about 1.5 tabs again,then I decided to candy flip for the first time just a few days later and was one of the best experiences of my life. then another week later did about 1.75 tabs (note these tabs were about 150uq each). Still enjoying my acid use about 2 weeks later I candyflipped with 1 tab and about 120mg of mdma, had an amazing time even better then the first, I won't go on about all the drug use because it's hard to remember exactly but basically i was abusing mdma and then acid, having the time of my life, starting to feel pretty shit with the comedowns though. I'll also note I'm a daily week smoker and was smoking quite abit of weed with my other drug use.
One day I was at home alone relaxing, decided to take 1.5 tabs and have a nice little day to myself tripping on acid alone for the first time, I was starting to feel the effects and was smoking a joint out the front, I decided to ride my bike to a mates place, as soon as I got out of my garage I saw a car across the road and it did a u turn and parked near my house for abit, in my head I was thinking they were following me but now I don't think they were, I went to approach them and they drove off me thinking that they were following me, and from there it all went really wrong it was like I was going insane I quickly rode my bike to my mates place thinking I was being followed and when I got there he calmed me down abit but I fully believed someone was after me, I left to go home and someone was walking access the road and then in front of me and I thought they were following me I was completely out of my mind, when I got home I was able to clam myself down but I was just thinking about so many things and couldn't stop, I still believed for many hours that someone was following me, I had experienced my first bad trip and it really took a toll on me.
I would like to note I have some depression and major social anxiety and I know that I shouldn't have been testing fate absuing these 2 drugs, I felt it affecting my mental health. I believe I did some mdma about 2 weeks after this incident.
Almost 2 months ago now I started to get weird feelings in my chest, my back , and my left arm, and it would feel like I couldn't breathe properly.
I also always see some sort of visuals very faint, mostly when looking at lights, about a month ago now I was feeling so bad I dropped an acid tab and for a short amount of time I was feeling great,'but my gf wanted to goto sleep and I was onu just peaking on the stuff, I was trying to goto sleep but my mind was racing crazy, I was up for about 3 hours feeling like I was going insane, having a cigerrette every half hour or so, I drank some milk and was finally able to goto sleep. About 4 days later a did some mdma with a mate....at this point I was already feeling shit and getting these pains and I know how pathetically stupid I am, then about a week later I did acid again, I was out the front smoking I heard police sirens as it started to kick in, it all went bad from here the pains that I was getting got intensified so much and it really felt like I was dying, the pain was terrible it felt like 10 heart attacks.
When these pains started also It has forced me to give up weed because the weed sets me off and makes the pain worse, I've slipped up since then and tried a couple joints but it never makes me feel any good so now I'm not doing any drugs at all. Trying to even not touch the weed as it seems to even put my sort of back in the acid headspace abit.
Sorry for such a long story I wouldn't be surprised if no one even wanted to read something this long, now I'll explain my pains abit more
Constantly I have a heaviness sort of feeling on my chest and sometimes my heart will sting, but I've also felt it on the other side of my chest sometimes, I will get a pain that goes to my left arm, and my back and even feel a pain in my neck. It also feels like I can't breathe properly. I can also feel my heart skipping beats sometimes it's a scary feeling and brings on anxiety making it worse.
I went to the doctors because I just couldn't handle it anymore and thought something was very wrong, I wore a heart monitor for 24 hrs and he says that they did find something wrong, I'm seeing a heart specialist tomorrow to properly check my heart and he has the results from my heart monitor I was wearing. I also got a chest x ray to check my lungs and the doc says they are fine. I'm really hoping for good news tomorrow and hope I haven't screwed myself up I know I need to not touch any drugs or alcohol for a very long time to get over this.
My question is, do you think I've screwed myself up physically? Could my heart be skipping beats because of severe anxiety/could all of this be really bad anxiety? Could this be a mental thing? Its even brought on bad depression because of how bad I feel. It would be good to hear from someone who knows something about this sorta thing happening im really scared for my health.
I know I have been a very very stupid person with my drug use especially still doing it a few times after these pains and mental effects starting. I just wanna get better and be ok. When I smoke weed now it's usually what makes it really really bad, but even without ifs still absolutely terrible, other issues I've been getting is being really tired all the time, and getting really dizzy mostly when I get up, sometimes It seems like I can see my heartbeat like my eyes are beating and I notice it in my eyesight, I'm always getting horrible pains in my chest and it's just really scary.
I'll also note I have abit of a bad back and don't have the best diet, I've been trying to eat better recently
This isn't written very well and I didn't explain it that well and dragged it on, sorry this is my first post.
