Thanks Evey. One thing I'm uncertain about is the wording, vocabulary that I am unfamiliar with such as "stickied within the nmi sub-forum" sounds foreign to me. And since I'm new I'm having trouble navigating around the site a bit. Bare with me please. I am a 66 year old retired nurse. I live in NE Ohio USA and I am now living back at my home with my Mom who is now 90 and caring for her full time. She does wonderful, but just needs someone with her because of the ordinary problems of aging, such as forgetfulness and being a bit wobbly on her feet at times. I have abused prescription medications most of my life, off and on. I would go years with nothing and then slip back into taking an extra nerve pill (antianxioletic, I know you guys are pretty smart when it comes to these things) for simple functions such as party's at work, I'm always uncomfortable in social situations, etc. I did pretty good all my life as long as I was engaged, interested in something such as work, college, etc. Now that I'm retired, well, you can imagine. I don't remember exactly how DXM came to my attention but I was immediately VERY interested. It was legal, cheap and gave me exactly what I always wanted. Made me feel happy, outgoing, no longer painfully shy, and energetic but without the extremes of any amphetamine. I researched for about 5 months before taking the first plunge and took 250mg. in gell capsule form. Since then I have taken it almost every day (4 months now)and I know this is getting very serious and need someone to talk to. I have no family or friends who would begin to understand this. Please write back, it's nice to hear from someone.