thesethingshappen
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I UNDERSTAND THE CONSUMPTION OF MASS AND DIFFERENT RESEARCH CHEMICALS IS VERY RISKY AND OFTEN LETHAL. I UNDERSTAND THAT I PUT MYSELF AT RISK BY DOING THIS AND I DO NOT ADVISE ANYONE ELSE TO EVER TRY IT. I HAD A GREAT TIME BUT I COULD HAVE ALSO BEEN AT MY OWN WAKE TODAY.
Well dudes.. I started a live trip log yesterday not realizing it wasn't allowed, you know, in case i died then they'd blame bluelight I assume.
Getting my first few posts together from my live thread, I'll organize everything here with less chaos.. Although I'm no longer 'high' the chemicals are in my system and I either have some visuals or residual HPPD.. afterall...I haven't slept in T+23H...
So here we go, in an organized, way.. keep in mind, this was reckless. So please feel free to chew me out. Keep in mind I'm still alive and here (tell me luckily, I'll say I know, call me a moron, I'll say my wife said it.. just shut up and read the trip report!) My wife is a R/N and for whatever reason we have a defibrillator on site... and of course, lots of benzos.
Chemicals involved:
MDPV
5-MeO-AMT
Methylone
Freedom Herbal Incense
2C-I
Cannabis
4-MEC
NRG-1
T0:00 Dissolved 20mg 5-MeO-AMT in alcohol and orange juice. Stirred it really well (5-MeO is supposed to dissolve, easy, this isn't? but it's been tested.. hmm...) Decided to take a nap and hope to wake into the AMT craziness...
T+0:40 Woke up from my nap, I feel nothing. My vision is a little skewed, but wtf? 20mg and I'm not tripping? This is where the recklessness started, I decided I'd search for bliss. (No, not death, Bliss.. I wanted that feeling of STUNNING euphoria). Decided I'd ingest some JWH via some headshop incense, 0.7g or so. It had HU-210, HU-211, JWH-018 and JWH-250 in it. (They run tests prior to selling it, I'm working out on a contract to sell the shit through them)
T+0:45 Hmm.. I always love a marjiuana/jwh buzz.. prefer cannabis but don't have much, wanna save it for later. so fuck it. JWH it is.
T+0:50 Impatience is bad, this is where my wife was like no idiot, wait for the effects of the drug to hit you before you do anything else. Idiot argues, idiot loads up another gram of freedom and decides to try and force induce anxiety (have 6mg kpin on hand, if I can catch it early enough I can just get the euphoria of it all, at least that's my plan as my chemical mixture gets more deadly.)
T+0:52 In order to get some nice euphoria and the most hated anxiety I've ever felt but I'm a sucker for the high. 15MG MDPV insulfated. I know I'm going to be racing very soon, grabbed the kpin from my stash. Sat down with a bottle of water and decided to see. So far, none of the drugs I've ingested slow down my breathing, so I know the kpins are okay.
T+1:00 I lost 8 minutes somewhere, I donno where. Why do I suddenly feel lost and high at the same time? I forgot to take the kpins to curb the anxiety. What I did instead was load up a bowl of some reggie brown a co-worker gave me and sprinkled 30mg 5-MeO-AMT (wtf are you doing, trying to kill yourself? dose.) the thing is, 5-MeO-AMT seems to smoke like shit compared to it's non analogue counterpart. As well, I have a mild tolerance for it and I'm 325.
T+1:05 Well.. then the idiocy started, I can make an excuse for the 5-MeO-AMT, but I need the stim buzz! 2C-I vaped in doses of 50-80mg gives me a huge euphoric rush, no change in vitals and makes me love lights and patterns. (I don't have a tolerance for this shit, I somehow have an immunity to it's oral consumption. I ate 200mg one time because the shit just wouldn't do anything. I then ripped my vendor apart and he reccomended a different ROA, I couldn't find anything about anal ROA so I vaped 80mg 2C-I at this point the rush is similar to cocaine.
T+1:10 Too many drugs in my system already, why did you do this. You can get it out of you, you just have to stab your lungs (I think I was losing it at this point, I quickly talked myself out of this after picking up a rusty screw driver) were you ready for this? Quick search Erowid for trip reports.. Fuck you're outside, check it on the phone. So shaky I couldn't even get the fucking e in. Holy shit, where's your wife? Oh.. she's sitting there, pissed off.. Hmm.. Wait, that's not your wife, that's the last fucking boss from Mario, Bowser! At this point I get scared and seeing bowser for whatever reason gives me the feeling of anxiety 'wanting' to come on. I run and hide behind our shed and duck down.
T1:It feels like the MDPV is making me focused/anxious, maybe it's the quick euphoria come up of the 5-MeO-AMT.. whoa I feel good, I wanna have sex.. wait... wait... is my heart beating? Nope, it definitely stopped. Oh man, this is bad.. I walk to the kitchen and go outside under the impression I'm doing it all without my heart beating. and... horny? Okay time to wake the wife back up, need a sitter, anxiety is rocking my fucking world. Wait you moron, there was a reason you were at this table and not in your room.
T+1:25 Chew 6mg in kpins, die anxiety DIE! (not me, the anxiety). (Hey, I remembered my purpose) Now my breathing feels forced, but my vitals are fine. Wife takes them O2SAT 98, BP 149/94 (high-lowhigh, this is mdpv induced) and 115 pulse (fucking anxiety). Wife gives me what I think was 500mg of aspirin. This is the 'just incase your heart cant take the flow of your stupidity' thing she does to me when I make myself a human guinea pig.
T+1:30, I'm tripping hard.. super hard. I'm happy. I'm like, affectionate and for whatever reason needy in love. I reallllly want to have sex. The ground is warping, people are popping up out of it and having a great time laughing at me. They look like they're supposed to be scary, but I'm too focused on 'forcing my breathing' to be scared. The cold air outside brings the anxiety down some.
T+1:40, Hmm.. This forced breathing shit sucks. Let me use my albuterol inhaler 6 times. Lol, fucking moron. NOS is gonna make your heart race. Did the Kpin kick in? No way, I only ate them a couple seconds ago. No way they kicked in yet. Were they kpin? Shit I think I took heartburn pills, well no wonder the anxiety won't stop. I'm walking around outside @ 5:15AM at this point enjoying the cold air and talking myself down from anxiety... wait.. Fuck I didn't mean to use the inhaler 6 times, here comes the NOS Rush....
T+1:50, 10 minutes of hell. I feel the benzos bringing me down. Ahhh, haven't felt benzos in a long time, tolerance was dead. 6 is too many. Wait, you didn't eat 6. You ate 2.. right? FUCK YOU MDPV YOU'RE EATING MY SHORT TERM MEMORY HERE! <MDPV kicks into anxiety overmode< AHHHHH WHERE'S MY SITTER. The worst possible anxiety, the one where it's almost impossible to talk yourself down. The anxiety you think is the end of your existence. Fuck why did I ingest all these chemicals? Any real reason? Oh yeah... I wanted to be AS HAPPY AS A CLAM.
T+1:40, ok the fear of death has subsided, that's cool. the nos wore off and the kpins kicked in, that's not cool -- I only know now, as I write the trip report that I took 12mg of kpin. I'm very well experienced with benzos and I really only use them to kill trips when I lose it too hard. Other than that I don't eat them, so my tolerance is low. I meant to take 2 to control the anxiety. Unfortunately 12mg is a trip killer dose. Bye visuals, bye anything that may have even resembled anxiety . Now the forced breathing will remain neccessary from here on out and I need a definite sitter if I do anything else. Nahhh.. I won't do anything else.
T1:41(?) Well this blows, I'm not happy. Fuck I hate benzos. Why did I take you stupid kpins. (I'm still high and confused, who knows what combo of the drugs caused the confusion - i wrote the short term memory loss off to mdpv.)
T+2:00 I want my high back. Fuckers. You stole it benzos! I make sure no drugs I that I involve from here out reduce breathing at all... (lol, I smoked them though like a moron). Vision is wavy, I hate the fucking light it's evil and makes my head hurt. I decide to stay outside, but first grab my bag of goodies and my vaporgenie. My wife comes out on the back porch and tells me if shes staying up we're going to buy her a chocolate pie (i talked her out of this, but wtf women!). She takes my vitals, they're written down as 144/90, 99%O2SAT (good lungs man!) 130 Pulse (wtf?, why so high.. what are you damn kpins doing.. I'm starting to get like this actual 'feeling of anger' over these kpins.)
T+2:05.. Hmm, what stims did this vendor send me samples of? wtf? they all have stim properties? Is anything going to beat this stupid dose of kolonopin? I suddenly feel great anger for my doctor at this point like almost what I'd write off as a 'smoking dust rage', I run to the garage, I grab every blunt object there is and I throw it in the car and this whole time I'm screaming at the top of my lungs in rage (thank god we have no neighbors) and I tell my wife we need to go get this fucker, my wife left me in the car screaming and really raging. My throat hurts more from the screaming than harsh chemical smoking. After bout 5 minutes this subsided and I realized but again, this subsided.. (note, this is the second episode of delirium - the reason I say delirium is because I don't think I'm overpowering my 12mg of kpin at this point)
T+2:10 Ok, feeling like the doctor can live, in fact I love him. I need to give him a call tomorrow tell him for thank you for taking care of me and I'm a moron.. ahh let me call him now. I started to walk inside then I remember I have my bag of goodies and a vaporgenie in my left pocket.
T+2:15 Okay, back to the original plan. I'm no longer tripping. I'm high, I'm still really euphoric there's no anxiety, breathing is what i believe is forced due to kpins and the intense body high.. O2SAT 90 BP 153/94 PULSE 95 (not low, but low enough to believe I'm invincible.)
T+2:25 Here comes the real idiocy, you thought the 80mg of 2C-I & 5-MeO-AMT was enough to believe I wound up in the hospital.. Grab the vapor genie, I premeasured doses prior to this knowing I would be unable to do so high because of the shakes and my wife will watch me and keep me alive but not help me.
My pre measured doses look massive to me, somethings not right. No, you're just high. You pre measured them to be safe, so you're okay. Let's get it going!
T+2:26 I fumble around for what I feel is literally HOURS trying to get this fucking pipe out of my pocket. My wife said it lasted a minute. Load 15mg of MDPV (I know smoking it is considered dangerous because of the possible carcinogenic release, but the way it hits me like this over insulffated makes it one of those things I'll do occasionally. Vape it until it's gone. Oooooh, I feel good. Scrape out the genie. What else did we pre-measure here.. let's see... wait you already smoked everything, there's nothing left to smoke. I sit down and begin to pout because I feel my journey has ended with shitty results (I don't realize how high I am right now, but I'm not "stunningly euphoric").
T+2:50 I hear someone yelling, I plug my ears like a child and I hum because my journey is over and I refuse to be yelled at. All the sudden my arm pulls away from my head. My wife yanked my finger out of my air and told me to get the hell off the ground and get inside. I asked her what happened last night and she said what do you mean, it's not over, you tell me. Now I suddenly feel like I'm in a time warp or she's really fucking with me. Last night's over, it was intense but the journey ended. I handled it fine and overdid the benzos. I start wandering towards the house and it quickly hits me that I can barely walk straight, oddly breathing is no longer forced (MDPV ANXIETY GO, BUT NO ANXIETY!). Things start to make sense, I was still high but I was out of drugs. Well let me go inside and just hang out for now I guess, my wife's bitching about the cold (28 degrees)
T+3:00 We get inside, we go to the room and I'm a giddy school girl. My wife said (I don't remember) I jumped up and down clapping my hands when I saw the rest of my pre measured doses. (I thought they were LOL, they were the piles I had left AFTER the pre measured doses that were STILL IN MY FUCKING POCKET.)
In those piles, I had left...
500mg Methylone
250mg 4-MEC
300mg NRG-1
and last but not least.....
300mg MDPV (super high, super super high. I do not EVER reccomend a dose like this intentionally, it is lethal. It's not 'winnable' like the 500mg of Methylone)
T+3:10 Scrape the first pile in (500mg of dirty ass looking methylone), these are definitely my pre measured doses in my head. The other ones were surely my left overs and I left them in the car. I'll get em later.
T+3:15 Vape the 500mg Methylone... hmm.. let me spark the bowl again, didn't get much (Methylone vapes like shit, the shit still looked wet and again, Methylone really seems to vape like shit, especially the brownish stuff.) Spark again.. inhale.. let's see if I feel anything.
T+3:16 You know what, I didn't see anything come out so I'll hit it again (again, my wife says other wise - she said my first hit was HUGE) Spark again.. inhale.. exhale a huge cloud.. hmm, is there any more of those? spark again, hold it to the genie for over a minute reallllllly slowly inhaling. This will definitely give me a huge hit. (That makes 3) I let it out.. it tastes like shit, but the Methylone rush is instaneous when I exhale the second hit, I've never felt it this strong. Whoa, I wasn't supposed to mix it with these chemicals.. Ahhhh.... FOCUSED. ENERGY. GO... Methylone has a speed type effect on me with a 50min duration in doses of 150mg and no comedown. If I didn't have the kpins in me at this point, I'd of probably had a heart attack lol.
T+3:30 Meh, I need some pot. I smoke a bowl of reggie brown with some more methylone on top, roughly 50mg. Look out the window, the suns coming up.. wow.. I've been up awhile, I still have a ton of energy. My wife and I begin to talk, I feel super social for some reason. I think the higher dose of Methylone did this (it did, I'll explain later)
T+4:00 Well, it's been about an hour since I did the Methylone, I still feel kinda speedy and social from it but I don't feel like going to bed yet. I'm still upset I didn't get to trip. Load my next preloaded bowl in, this was the 300mg NRG-1..
T+4:15 I realize I packed the genie! It must burn! I'm super excited and I even tell my wife I'm really excited and I made this big thing out of it supposedly. (MDPV really rocks my short term memory when I'm high)
T+4:20 I smoked the 300mg NRG-1 after my wife took my vitals and wrote down the dosage. She wrote it down as 100mg (what it was supposed to be, lol) NRG-1 doesn't do much for me but make me focus. In doses this high it makes me focus and it makes me do the fucking crackhead rock. T+4:20 was so miserable, because that's when the rock started. I really hate compulsive or uncontrollable body movements. They make me feel funny, it's why I never messed with DPH. I heard the shit makes people twitch. It's T+23:30 now and I'm still fucking rocking... anyways...
T+4:30, okay, it's been about 12 hours (lol, really it's been about 2) the kpins should starting to be settle off! (super long half life ftl), so I load up my last bowl of White Widow, sprinkle my 30mg of 5-MeO-AMT and yet again, my 80mg of 2C-I on top. Spark, inhale, sizzle, burn. Ooh this is a bad idea, the smell is burning my nose. Don't inhale this, do something else. Ahh fuck it, just inhale it you've done it before. I can't hold it. 2C-i is too fucking rough, held the hit honestly 2s. This hit is what has had me tripping ever since though. I feel the instant euphoria rush, YAYYYYY.. I beat the kpins!~ (No, they just only work for so much.. lol)
Really after T+4:30 shit gets fuzzy until about T+10:00, at this point I started to come back to earth instead of feeling like I was trapped in lego land. I really really enjoyed this and it lasted for what felt like until T+10:00 but it was probably only about 20 minutes. Everything in our kitchen looked to be built of legos to me.
I've had intense visuals that were OEVs not good CEVs.
CEVs weren't really there, they were like tons of little pacman circles that would not stop moving, they actually made me sick to watch.
Mind blowing sex, rolling on e type sex.. I need to figure out what drug made me so ... touchy and sexual. That's an important part of this learning experience!
Very intricate and intellectual conversations and debates with my wife. Keep in mind, my wife and I never really 'debate' we 'argue' (it's a happily married argue) and our intellectual conversations are far and wide because I don't know shit about being a nurse and she could care less about the structural properties of a roadway. We're both typically very heavily work focused.
Also, just to throw it in there... I had what I still believe to have been 'revelations'. I feel very calm about a lot of things and I feel like I really bonded with my wife and understand her so much more. I as if we renewed our vows (as in a sense of how much these conversations benefited our marriage and I feel we already have a good marriage although she feels I do too much stupid shit)
I feel very calm right now, but obviously 24 hours after loading up on drugs and not sleeping I'm going to be a bit tired. I stayed awake with the trip and will update this report just a bit further so the other drugs I did are included.. I redosed all day on all of the chemicals besides 5-MeO-AMT, Kpins and 2C-i.
Here's to hoping I feel like absolute shit when I wake up so that the quick fixes of methylone and mdpv don't haunt me. Compulsive motherfucker I am I should probably flush the bags haha.
I haven't eaten in 32 hours. I hear my stomach but because of the silly stims I don't feel hungry. I know I need to eat something and let it digest before I go to sleep but bleh. That's about 45 minutes of being awake depending on what I eat.
I did though make sure to drink fluid regularly on the hour and my wife made sure I did as well when I was too far out of it. About 4oz water/hr.
I am a strong believer in harm reduction and do not endorse nor recommend any dose that I noted here. Please prior to ingesting ANY chemical I listed here, do complete and full research. It is needed. Every single person reacts differently. While I did do all these chemicals at once, I did allergy test them all over the prior week. Please understand that what I did was very reckless and if my wife wasn't a R/N and one of the best sitters in the world, I'd probably not have made it because I'd of lost mind of doses, where I was, what I did, and just kept going.
All that said... god damn I had fun.
Well dudes.. I started a live trip log yesterday not realizing it wasn't allowed, you know, in case i died then they'd blame bluelight I assume.
Getting my first few posts together from my live thread, I'll organize everything here with less chaos.. Although I'm no longer 'high' the chemicals are in my system and I either have some visuals or residual HPPD.. afterall...I haven't slept in T+23H... So here we go, in an organized, way.. keep in mind, this was reckless. So please feel free to chew me out. Keep in mind I'm still alive and here (tell me luckily, I'll say I know, call me a moron, I'll say my wife said it.. just shut up and read the trip report!) My wife is a R/N and for whatever reason we have a defibrillator on site... and of course, lots of benzos.
Chemicals involved:
MDPV
5-MeO-AMT
Methylone
Freedom Herbal Incense
2C-I
Cannabis
4-MEC
NRG-1
T0:00 Dissolved 20mg 5-MeO-AMT in alcohol and orange juice. Stirred it really well (5-MeO is supposed to dissolve, easy, this isn't? but it's been tested.. hmm...) Decided to take a nap and hope to wake into the AMT craziness...
T+0:40 Woke up from my nap, I feel nothing. My vision is a little skewed, but wtf? 20mg and I'm not tripping? This is where the recklessness started, I decided I'd search for bliss. (No, not death, Bliss.. I wanted that feeling of STUNNING euphoria). Decided I'd ingest some JWH via some headshop incense, 0.7g or so. It had HU-210, HU-211, JWH-018 and JWH-250 in it. (They run tests prior to selling it, I'm working out on a contract to sell the shit through them)
T+0:45 Hmm.. I always love a marjiuana/jwh buzz.. prefer cannabis but don't have much, wanna save it for later. so fuck it. JWH it is.
T+0:50 Impatience is bad, this is where my wife was like no idiot, wait for the effects of the drug to hit you before you do anything else. Idiot argues, idiot loads up another gram of freedom and decides to try and force induce anxiety (have 6mg kpin on hand, if I can catch it early enough I can just get the euphoria of it all, at least that's my plan as my chemical mixture gets more deadly.)
T+0:52 In order to get some nice euphoria and the most hated anxiety I've ever felt but I'm a sucker for the high. 15MG MDPV insulfated. I know I'm going to be racing very soon, grabbed the kpin from my stash. Sat down with a bottle of water and decided to see. So far, none of the drugs I've ingested slow down my breathing, so I know the kpins are okay.
T+1:00 I lost 8 minutes somewhere, I donno where. Why do I suddenly feel lost and high at the same time? I forgot to take the kpins to curb the anxiety. What I did instead was load up a bowl of some reggie brown a co-worker gave me and sprinkled 30mg 5-MeO-AMT (wtf are you doing, trying to kill yourself? dose.) the thing is, 5-MeO-AMT seems to smoke like shit compared to it's non analogue counterpart. As well, I have a mild tolerance for it and I'm 325.
T+1:05 Well.. then the idiocy started, I can make an excuse for the 5-MeO-AMT, but I need the stim buzz! 2C-I vaped in doses of 50-80mg gives me a huge euphoric rush, no change in vitals and makes me love lights and patterns. (I don't have a tolerance for this shit, I somehow have an immunity to it's oral consumption. I ate 200mg one time because the shit just wouldn't do anything. I then ripped my vendor apart and he reccomended a different ROA, I couldn't find anything about anal ROA so I vaped 80mg 2C-I at this point the rush is similar to cocaine.
T+1:10 Too many drugs in my system already, why did you do this. You can get it out of you, you just have to stab your lungs (I think I was losing it at this point, I quickly talked myself out of this after picking up a rusty screw driver) were you ready for this? Quick search Erowid for trip reports.. Fuck you're outside, check it on the phone. So shaky I couldn't even get the fucking e in. Holy shit, where's your wife? Oh.. she's sitting there, pissed off.. Hmm.. Wait, that's not your wife, that's the last fucking boss from Mario, Bowser! At this point I get scared and seeing bowser for whatever reason gives me the feeling of anxiety 'wanting' to come on. I run and hide behind our shed and duck down.
T1:It feels like the MDPV is making me focused/anxious, maybe it's the quick euphoria come up of the 5-MeO-AMT.. whoa I feel good, I wanna have sex.. wait... wait... is my heart beating? Nope, it definitely stopped. Oh man, this is bad.. I walk to the kitchen and go outside under the impression I'm doing it all without my heart beating. and... horny? Okay time to wake the wife back up, need a sitter, anxiety is rocking my fucking world. Wait you moron, there was a reason you were at this table and not in your room.
T+1:25 Chew 6mg in kpins, die anxiety DIE! (not me, the anxiety). (Hey, I remembered my purpose) Now my breathing feels forced, but my vitals are fine. Wife takes them O2SAT 98, BP 149/94 (high-lowhigh, this is mdpv induced) and 115 pulse (fucking anxiety). Wife gives me what I think was 500mg of aspirin. This is the 'just incase your heart cant take the flow of your stupidity' thing she does to me when I make myself a human guinea pig.
T+1:30, I'm tripping hard.. super hard. I'm happy. I'm like, affectionate and for whatever reason needy in love. I reallllly want to have sex. The ground is warping, people are popping up out of it and having a great time laughing at me. They look like they're supposed to be scary, but I'm too focused on 'forcing my breathing' to be scared. The cold air outside brings the anxiety down some.
T+1:40, Hmm.. This forced breathing shit sucks. Let me use my albuterol inhaler 6 times. Lol, fucking moron. NOS is gonna make your heart race. Did the Kpin kick in? No way, I only ate them a couple seconds ago. No way they kicked in yet. Were they kpin? Shit I think I took heartburn pills, well no wonder the anxiety won't stop. I'm walking around outside @ 5:15AM at this point enjoying the cold air and talking myself down from anxiety... wait.. Fuck I didn't mean to use the inhaler 6 times, here comes the NOS Rush....
T+1:50, 10 minutes of hell. I feel the benzos bringing me down. Ahhh, haven't felt benzos in a long time, tolerance was dead. 6 is too many. Wait, you didn't eat 6. You ate 2.. right? FUCK YOU MDPV YOU'RE EATING MY SHORT TERM MEMORY HERE! <MDPV kicks into anxiety overmode< AHHHHH WHERE'S MY SITTER. The worst possible anxiety, the one where it's almost impossible to talk yourself down. The anxiety you think is the end of your existence. Fuck why did I ingest all these chemicals? Any real reason? Oh yeah... I wanted to be AS HAPPY AS A CLAM.
T+1:40, ok the fear of death has subsided, that's cool. the nos wore off and the kpins kicked in, that's not cool -- I only know now, as I write the trip report that I took 12mg of kpin. I'm very well experienced with benzos and I really only use them to kill trips when I lose it too hard. Other than that I don't eat them, so my tolerance is low. I meant to take 2 to control the anxiety. Unfortunately 12mg is a trip killer dose. Bye visuals, bye anything that may have even resembled anxiety . Now the forced breathing will remain neccessary from here on out and I need a definite sitter if I do anything else. Nahhh.. I won't do anything else.
T1:41(?) Well this blows, I'm not happy. Fuck I hate benzos. Why did I take you stupid kpins. (I'm still high and confused, who knows what combo of the drugs caused the confusion - i wrote the short term memory loss off to mdpv.)
T+2:00 I want my high back. Fuckers. You stole it benzos! I make sure no drugs I that I involve from here out reduce breathing at all... (lol, I smoked them though like a moron). Vision is wavy, I hate the fucking light it's evil and makes my head hurt. I decide to stay outside, but first grab my bag of goodies and my vaporgenie. My wife comes out on the back porch and tells me if shes staying up we're going to buy her a chocolate pie (i talked her out of this, but wtf women!). She takes my vitals, they're written down as 144/90, 99%O2SAT (good lungs man!) 130 Pulse (wtf?, why so high.. what are you damn kpins doing.. I'm starting to get like this actual 'feeling of anger' over these kpins.)
T+2:05.. Hmm, what stims did this vendor send me samples of? wtf? they all have stim properties? Is anything going to beat this stupid dose of kolonopin? I suddenly feel great anger for my doctor at this point like almost what I'd write off as a 'smoking dust rage', I run to the garage, I grab every blunt object there is and I throw it in the car and this whole time I'm screaming at the top of my lungs in rage (thank god we have no neighbors) and I tell my wife we need to go get this fucker, my wife left me in the car screaming and really raging. My throat hurts more from the screaming than harsh chemical smoking. After bout 5 minutes this subsided and I realized but again, this subsided.. (note, this is the second episode of delirium - the reason I say delirium is because I don't think I'm overpowering my 12mg of kpin at this point)
T+2:10 Ok, feeling like the doctor can live, in fact I love him. I need to give him a call tomorrow tell him for thank you for taking care of me and I'm a moron.. ahh let me call him now. I started to walk inside then I remember I have my bag of goodies and a vaporgenie in my left pocket.
T+2:15 Okay, back to the original plan. I'm no longer tripping. I'm high, I'm still really euphoric there's no anxiety, breathing is what i believe is forced due to kpins and the intense body high.. O2SAT 90 BP 153/94 PULSE 95 (not low, but low enough to believe I'm invincible.)
T+2:25 Here comes the real idiocy, you thought the 80mg of 2C-I & 5-MeO-AMT was enough to believe I wound up in the hospital.. Grab the vapor genie, I premeasured doses prior to this knowing I would be unable to do so high because of the shakes and my wife will watch me and keep me alive but not help me.
My pre measured doses look massive to me, somethings not right. No, you're just high. You pre measured them to be safe, so you're okay. Let's get it going!
T+2:26 I fumble around for what I feel is literally HOURS trying to get this fucking pipe out of my pocket. My wife said it lasted a minute. Load 15mg of MDPV (I know smoking it is considered dangerous because of the possible carcinogenic release, but the way it hits me like this over insulffated makes it one of those things I'll do occasionally. Vape it until it's gone. Oooooh, I feel good. Scrape out the genie. What else did we pre-measure here.. let's see... wait you already smoked everything, there's nothing left to smoke. I sit down and begin to pout because I feel my journey has ended with shitty results (I don't realize how high I am right now, but I'm not "stunningly euphoric").
T+2:50 I hear someone yelling, I plug my ears like a child and I hum because my journey is over and I refuse to be yelled at. All the sudden my arm pulls away from my head. My wife yanked my finger out of my air and told me to get the hell off the ground and get inside. I asked her what happened last night and she said what do you mean, it's not over, you tell me. Now I suddenly feel like I'm in a time warp or she's really fucking with me. Last night's over, it was intense but the journey ended. I handled it fine and overdid the benzos. I start wandering towards the house and it quickly hits me that I can barely walk straight, oddly breathing is no longer forced (MDPV ANXIETY GO, BUT NO ANXIETY!). Things start to make sense, I was still high but I was out of drugs. Well let me go inside and just hang out for now I guess, my wife's bitching about the cold (28 degrees)
T+3:00 We get inside, we go to the room and I'm a giddy school girl. My wife said (I don't remember) I jumped up and down clapping my hands when I saw the rest of my pre measured doses. (I thought they were LOL, they were the piles I had left AFTER the pre measured doses that were STILL IN MY FUCKING POCKET.)
In those piles, I had left...
500mg Methylone
250mg 4-MEC
300mg NRG-1
and last but not least.....
300mg MDPV (super high, super super high. I do not EVER reccomend a dose like this intentionally, it is lethal. It's not 'winnable' like the 500mg of Methylone)
T+3:10 Scrape the first pile in (500mg of dirty ass looking methylone), these are definitely my pre measured doses in my head. The other ones were surely my left overs and I left them in the car. I'll get em later.
T+3:15 Vape the 500mg Methylone... hmm.. let me spark the bowl again, didn't get much (Methylone vapes like shit, the shit still looked wet and again, Methylone really seems to vape like shit, especially the brownish stuff.) Spark again.. inhale.. let's see if I feel anything.
T+3:16 You know what, I didn't see anything come out so I'll hit it again (again, my wife says other wise - she said my first hit was HUGE) Spark again.. inhale.. exhale a huge cloud.. hmm, is there any more of those? spark again, hold it to the genie for over a minute reallllllly slowly inhaling. This will definitely give me a huge hit. (That makes 3) I let it out.. it tastes like shit, but the Methylone rush is instaneous when I exhale the second hit, I've never felt it this strong. Whoa, I wasn't supposed to mix it with these chemicals.. Ahhhh.... FOCUSED. ENERGY. GO... Methylone has a speed type effect on me with a 50min duration in doses of 150mg and no comedown. If I didn't have the kpins in me at this point, I'd of probably had a heart attack lol.
T+3:30 Meh, I need some pot. I smoke a bowl of reggie brown with some more methylone on top, roughly 50mg. Look out the window, the suns coming up.. wow.. I've been up awhile, I still have a ton of energy. My wife and I begin to talk, I feel super social for some reason. I think the higher dose of Methylone did this (it did, I'll explain later)
T+4:00 Well, it's been about an hour since I did the Methylone, I still feel kinda speedy and social from it but I don't feel like going to bed yet. I'm still upset I didn't get to trip. Load my next preloaded bowl in, this was the 300mg NRG-1..
T+4:15 I realize I packed the genie! It must burn! I'm super excited and I even tell my wife I'm really excited and I made this big thing out of it supposedly. (MDPV really rocks my short term memory when I'm high)
T+4:20 I smoked the 300mg NRG-1 after my wife took my vitals and wrote down the dosage. She wrote it down as 100mg (what it was supposed to be, lol) NRG-1 doesn't do much for me but make me focus. In doses this high it makes me focus and it makes me do the fucking crackhead rock. T+4:20 was so miserable, because that's when the rock started. I really hate compulsive or uncontrollable body movements. They make me feel funny, it's why I never messed with DPH. I heard the shit makes people twitch. It's T+23:30 now and I'm still fucking rocking... anyways...
T+4:30, okay, it's been about 12 hours (lol, really it's been about 2) the kpins should starting to be settle off! (super long half life ftl), so I load up my last bowl of White Widow, sprinkle my 30mg of 5-MeO-AMT and yet again, my 80mg of 2C-I on top. Spark, inhale, sizzle, burn. Ooh this is a bad idea, the smell is burning my nose. Don't inhale this, do something else. Ahh fuck it, just inhale it you've done it before. I can't hold it. 2C-i is too fucking rough, held the hit honestly 2s. This hit is what has had me tripping ever since though. I feel the instant euphoria rush, YAYYYYY.. I beat the kpins!~ (No, they just only work for so much.. lol)
Really after T+4:30 shit gets fuzzy until about T+10:00, at this point I started to come back to earth instead of feeling like I was trapped in lego land. I really really enjoyed this and it lasted for what felt like until T+10:00 but it was probably only about 20 minutes. Everything in our kitchen looked to be built of legos to me.
I've had intense visuals that were OEVs not good CEVs.
CEVs weren't really there, they were like tons of little pacman circles that would not stop moving, they actually made me sick to watch.
Mind blowing sex, rolling on e type sex.. I need to figure out what drug made me so ... touchy and sexual. That's an important part of this learning experience!
Very intricate and intellectual conversations and debates with my wife. Keep in mind, my wife and I never really 'debate' we 'argue' (it's a happily married argue) and our intellectual conversations are far and wide because I don't know shit about being a nurse and she could care less about the structural properties of a roadway. We're both typically very heavily work focused.
Also, just to throw it in there... I had what I still believe to have been 'revelations'. I feel very calm about a lot of things and I feel like I really bonded with my wife and understand her so much more. I as if we renewed our vows (as in a sense of how much these conversations benefited our marriage and I feel we already have a good marriage although she feels I do too much stupid shit)
I feel very calm right now, but obviously 24 hours after loading up on drugs and not sleeping I'm going to be a bit tired. I stayed awake with the trip and will update this report just a bit further so the other drugs I did are included.. I redosed all day on all of the chemicals besides 5-MeO-AMT, Kpins and 2C-i.
Here's to hoping I feel like absolute shit when I wake up so that the quick fixes of methylone and mdpv don't haunt me. Compulsive motherfucker I am I should probably flush the bags haha.
I haven't eaten in 32 hours. I hear my stomach but because of the silly stims I don't feel hungry. I know I need to eat something and let it digest before I go to sleep but bleh. That's about 45 minutes of being awake depending on what I eat.
I did though make sure to drink fluid regularly on the hour and my wife made sure I did as well when I was too far out of it. About 4oz water/hr.
I am a strong believer in harm reduction and do not endorse nor recommend any dose that I noted here. Please prior to ingesting ANY chemical I listed here, do complete and full research. It is needed. Every single person reacts differently. While I did do all these chemicals at once, I did allergy test them all over the prior week. Please understand that what I did was very reckless and if my wife wasn't a R/N and one of the best sitters in the world, I'd probably not have made it because I'd of lost mind of doses, where I was, what I did, and just kept going.
All that said... god damn I had fun.
