Well, I've been feeling pretty good lately, for the most part. I still feel like I've dropped one or two levels of reality after quitting tramadol, but I'm sure it'll get easier with time.
The irony, though, is that I have some kind of serious back issue now, and I might need to be put on medication! Good lord. I've been taking Soma here and there, and it seems to help, but it makes me too sleepy. It metabolizes partly into freakin' meprobamate, that old school fifties type sleep aid. That's exactly what I want to be on when I'm taking a Bio test. Yep.
But more or less, I feel a lot better.
I've realized what I hate about tramadol the most. It's not the withdrawals that I would get every morning--that was remedied by the simultaneous thought of knowing you've just taken your morning dose and you'll be perfect in a half hour. It wasn't the mild tremors in my hands, nor the near-chronic low-level nausea. It was the fact that my sense of right and wrong was made so nebulous. I mean, how could what I was doing be wrong if I felt so good? My ethical center was out of wack the whole time, and I never even noticed it until, in retrospect, I really sat down and thought about it. Man...
The irony, though, is that I have some kind of serious back issue now, and I might need to be put on medication! Good lord. I've been taking Soma here and there, and it seems to help, but it makes me too sleepy. It metabolizes partly into freakin' meprobamate, that old school fifties type sleep aid. That's exactly what I want to be on when I'm taking a Bio test. Yep.
But more or less, I feel a lot better.
I've realized what I hate about tramadol the most. It's not the withdrawals that I would get every morning--that was remedied by the simultaneous thought of knowing you've just taken your morning dose and you'll be perfect in a half hour. It wasn't the mild tremors in my hands, nor the near-chronic low-level nausea. It was the fact that my sense of right and wrong was made so nebulous. I mean, how could what I was doing be wrong if I felt so good? My ethical center was out of wack the whole time, and I never even noticed it until, in retrospect, I really sat down and thought about it. Man...
