Hello my name is Brit. Back to last summer I was really depressed, living home with my grandmother. I wasn't working no car no job just basically looking for any reason to get out of the house. This guy was hitting me up on fb and I've seen him a time or two at parties. He wanted to smoke so we met up and chilled a few times smoked out and chilled, whatever. well one day he asked me if I wanted to meet his friend. We went over his house and the guy had a shit ton of Molly. Brown crystals. We started doing some it was amazing I loved it then the feeling started Togo away and we decided to just keep taking more. Well three four who knows how many days later I finally "sobered up" and requested I wanted to go home now. So they took me home mind you my legs were shaking so bad I could barely stand I puked after my last ingestion of the shit. I keep falling to the ground literally. Well I get home sit on my porch "door was locked couldn't go in, had no key) and just stare hard as fuck at the grass and wonder if I was ever going to be "normal" again . Couldn't sleep for days even felt strange electric current shocking my from my spinal step down . Scared the shit out of me just layed on my couch with the fan on me trying to figure out was was going on in my head . Well unfortunately I did Molly once or twice more after that like an idiot. And my state of mind seemed to have been different ever since. I seem to want to be isolated and I function okay at work. But I'm socially awkward and I have no memory what's so ever. I don't know what to do! I'm taking it day by day it feels like. Makes me depressed. I'll stare at a wall in complete silence and could Prolly sit there all day. I have no motivation really and it's hard for me to perform daily tasks. Please help me. I'm 21 years old and I have my whole life to live this this??

