Need support, before I self destruct.

[thegreatnewyork]

I'm sorry if this is in the wrong place forum wise for posting this, I need to stay anon because of the high profile career choices I'm working on, regardless, that is not really of any importance right now. Anyways I'm sure this is going to sound markedly familiar. I'm an addict, specifically nicotine, adderall, alcohol. I've tried a lot of other things, like heroin, cocaine, but knowing my own behavioral patterns I made insane and thank god successful attempts to never do those twice. Anyways, as of tonight i'm going to cold turkey these. I have a scale of priority, Alcohol, firstly, aderall second, nicotine thirdly. I'm sure many of you know these all intermingle, aderall makes smoking and drinking better, drinking makes smoking and aderall better, smoking (cigs) just sucks you in and gives no fucks and having them around makes quitting everything harder. I think we ll know it's a problem when you're bad habits become entirely compulsive. You dont think, you just do. For the (scratched?) record these drugs have destroyed my marriage, and fucked with my life beyond happiness. I drink alcohol too much to the point where i've started stealing alcohol recently, and I drink on a an almost daily basis. I faked symptoms for a prescription to aderall, which i quit then started retaking recently, and im paying out the ass for it to the point where if i continue i will not make my living expenses. Obviously nicotine is compounded by these poor choices.In the last three weeks I've started working out again and caring about life, it's the only thing keeping me going right now. And I know to fully embrace the shit i need to quit these evil drugs, i've done it before. And for whatever reason, keeping track of my progress is a major help for me. As of right now I have no one to hold me accountable so I joined this forum in a last ditch effort to get clean. I will of course be checking in daily. As this shit is not worth my freedom happiness and health. I appreciate the support

 

[Captain.Heroin]

aderall makes smoking and drinking better

to be technically accurate, the sensation of completion or satisfaction is increased because of what amphetamines (which adderall contains some salt forms of) does to the brain (increased release of dopamine)

best of luck quitting; stop by Sober Living for support