Mental Health Need help concerning possible psychosis

[Sorevirt]

Hello, i want to ask if its normal for me to have ALL day long in my mind drugs i have never tried but unable to find easily or at all.whatever i do its this thought in my mind making feel inferior.(also cause in my mind everybody else has tried what they want or they dont care about stuff like that so they are cool anyways)is it psychosis? Its in a level that makes me antisocial and not being able to enjoy anything. I tried once smth and was super content but after a few days my focus transcended into another substance that hadnt tried and stuck there since.with the same symptoms.(but cant find that substance so my mind would unstuck from that torture)
For me its not about having a good time, just relieve from this abnormal torturing disabilitating mind state.
(plz some1 help me or enlighten me...)
should i go to a psychiatrist or neurologists?
are those symptoms common with someone else. Are there medicines for that but without libido loss?
plz let me know cause i cant enjoy anything anymore and keep searching on internet and in my mind all day long, unable to work and keep my gf happy. Ty

P.s : my description :im an adult , with a decent work but not much money (but i dont mind)and a very close person passed away last month after years of disabilitating disease

any kind of info is too much appreciated

Extra info about me : im havent seen a doctor yet so obviously not diagnosed !
my sis has some ocd symptoms (closing doors repeatedly) but also not seen by a doctor. I just feel
for me it could be more mentally.
We are both around 30 years old
Also im embarassed to discuss with any health professional about drugs given that in
my age people must be responsible and active socially and in their work and in society.

P.s2 : The last symptom is that i experienced a piter-pan like period of a few months trying to
finish all the zelda games that exists!from the 80' till now.achieved it and my mind moved
in my current state that just described.

ty this far for your answeres! Plz continue if possible

 

[PotatoMan]

please edit your post. we refer to ourselves as 'i' here. using swim does not protect you and makes your post harder to read.

homeless ----> MH

 

[PriestTheyCalledHim]

We do not use the terms SWIM, my friend, my pet dog, etc. on this site. Everyone knows that it's you, and it does nothing to offer any sort of legal protection.

If you have questions about your mental health see a medical professional and be honest about your drug use, and tell them what's happening with you, or what you think about a lot. Good luck.

 

[SKL]

1. We do not use "SWIM" here, everyone knows that it's you.

2. To reassure you, this is not psychosis properly - your thoughts are organized, reality based, nonbizarre, nondelusional - but is problematic, sounds like an obsessive-compulsive sort of thing, there are meds for this, also CBT (cognitive-behavioral therapy) is helpful, probably even more helpful than meds. Also are you on "the spectrum" i.e. the syndrome formerly known as Asperger's, or similar? Preoccupations with a single topic is often present there.

3. We have a Mental Health forum to which this post is probably going to get moved.

4. It is essential that you seek professional help rather than ask strangers on the Internet, though.

standard disclaimer - not medical advice, etc.

 

[Chatative]

I'd have to agree with the other moderators here... the best thing you can do for yourself is get an evaluation.

I'm having a bit of trouble discerning your exact problems from your post, but it certainly doesn't sound like psychosis by what you have written. I would second what SKL said about it perhaps being an OCD-style thing; it sounds rather like it could be intrusive thoughts.

I do also wonder whether there might be an element of depression as well. In terms of the latter, a starting point would be to eat healthily, take a break from drugs (might be hard in the circumstances) & take some regular exercise. Those things can make a significant difference in cases of mild depression.

In the end though, to reiterate, the only real advice we can give is to see a mental health professional. We are not medical professionals & even if we were we couldn't diagnose you over the internet. All we can do here is speculate, which will do nothing to resolve your problems...

I wish you all the best of luck in getting to the bottom of this.

 

[RickityRick]

SKL beat me to it in regards to aspergers.

I too find myself obsessing over things and recently (the past two years) that thing has been drugs.

Drugs I find are quite easy to become obsessed with due to their complexity and variety, especially in combination with great sources of info on drugs such as bluelight and eroded being readily available.

If this bothers you I'd recommend finding a new hobby/somethin new to obsess over that's what I tend to try anyway with some success.

But yea I consider myself to be on the 'spectrum'.

 

[Sorevirt]

posting to thank you all!

i realise that at this rate my thought is stuck but it will roll somewhere else once i achieve the thing my mind is telling me now so its fruitless to continue this way, especially with harmfull for my health consequenses maybe.
thank you all for telling me of a syndrome i didnt even know existed. i researched...what else.. google !! hehe.
you helped me this far.i think ill go to a specialist.again ty and if u all want i can post what happened

 

[Sorevirt]

@RickityRick Can you tell me about your "obsession" to see if its like mine?

 

[Ozle]

To reassure you, this is not psychosis properly - your thoughts are organized, reality based, nonbizarre, nondelusional - but is problematic

That really depends on how you define psychosis. Even in the last century the definition has been frequently morphing, sometimes practically contradicting itself, and the neurochemical hypotheses proposed have done practically nothing to help toward clarifying anything.

As I see it, there's a relatively thin dividing line between some type of obsessive thoughts and the kind of thoughts that can be called paranoid or persecutory delusions. Interestingly, the other possibility you mentioned, the autistic spectrum, also used to be considered a type of psychosis.

 

[negrogesic]

The symptoms were not described in sufficient detail....

The real question is as follows: Do you see, hear or feel things that may or not be real? Also, do you ever experience difficult distinguishing what is real and what is not? These questions are not all inclusive, but they may indicate something depending on the response.

 

[Sorevirt]

well i dont see hear or feel things that are not real but whatever i do is linked by the wierd thought that to be worthing i need to be more advanced or at least equally experienced with others.so for example i had the urge to finish the zelda games just to feel whole.then i feel good for a very short period of time and another way pops in.lately drugs but offcourse i wont be continuing this obsession, its too far and dangerous. i prefer to be miserable than doing that. now i tried to return to games but the problem is that when i go out to find a girl or have fun with friends, i dont feel whole and i cant talk much.for me finding girls is crucial since little i did that with success.i cant play games its childish and geeky to the girls issue.so with that mind set i cant turn to the games obsession again cause it will make me problematic in social situations and very sad and distressed,wont be able to talk at all! it will be a backward step to me in my mind.
any info extra i can give on request! ty !

 

[Sorevirt]

and just now i had a mental block ,as i call it ,after reading the last 2 replies ,cause im in a position of not knowing whats going on with me! but im used to it.im currently at work and i now cant just face people i become very shy and irritable and i find it very difficult to communicate. when im like this i take atarax and buspar(they are otc here in my country) and wait to pass. it last some hours! i hope that helps !

p.s i understand that my thought or thought pattern is not reallity based but i cant change it unfortunately.it just pops and blocks my mind.it wont go away if i wont do as my mind thinks... which is dumb

 

[Ozle]

The symptoms were not described in sufficient detail....

The real question is as follows: Do you see, hear or feel things that may or not be real? Also, do you ever experience difficult distinguishing what is real and what is not? These questions are not all inclusive, but they may indicate something depending on the response.

An affirmative response to that question could indicate either psychosis or moderate to severe dissociative symptoms. Even now, I'm don't understand the finer point of the dividing line between them, and I've often wondered whether we're may just be missing a link that would allow us to unify these two concepts into a single paradigm.

 

[paranoid android]

It sounds like a form of OCD but I am certainly no doctor with any medical qualifications at all. There are lot's of medications and other treatments for that and the best thingyou can do really is see a psychiatrist about it and go from there.

Damn finishing every Zelda game. I musta spent every weekend for months when i was 12 finishing the Legend of Zelda lol

 

[Sorevirt]

1. Concerning the zelda games, some times i liked it some others it was like my duty doing it so i can feel equal to other people so then it wasnt anything more than an obstacle in my everyday life. (offcourse i like all zelda games so much and ill replay them some time)
2. As for my ocd like symptoms im working on finding something that will use those symptoms to make me benefit from them.but its a lil difficult cause i get bored easily after i learn the basic mechanism of smthin. And also im bored learning stuff without a purpose. Uni was a purpose and i only failed 1 exam.and maybe obssesed on it and finished it a semester earlier.
3. Concerning the psychiatrist, i want to go to be diagnosed basically. To know whats going on .i dont believe in therapy very much , even though i could do that too if the specialist think so.
4. Concerning this forum, i like it so much once a week or twice that i remember it and i log in and partecipate! Very interesting.
5. Concerning the music i used to play for 9 years when i was a kid. Then the exams , school and stuff made me stop even though i was good at it.classical music.

6. Concerning my brain and how it functions and react,i begin to be able to analyze depending on a given situation
why its reacting in a way or another. So then im able to understand and be calm happy and not paniced.not lose control and block.when im out for a drink that is a lil more difficult cause there are many distractions.some times i fail,when i fail to analyze good,my mind blocks,i get ashamed and shy.since i know that i just accept it and continiue.im used to it so in some hours, back to normal!!!!
This thing though, the whole concept has also many advantages i think.things that people think in everyday life.problems.
they dont seem to hit me so hard.i can analyze them,see them with logic and go on with what i can. The disadvantage is when the
thought patterns screw up and im there blocked without being able to speak decently!

7. and thank you guys ill be in touch and update my news , if any !

p.s i took some okra seeds to begin planting ! (Like the plant and zombie game, just without the zombies!lol)
P.s2 I love eating okra!
p.s3 why it keeps login me out and i dont have time to reply? Is there a way to be logged in longer?ty

 

[Sorevirt]

Update : Latest my mind stuck on making the perfect hamstring muscles! Wow my mind impressed me again. At least this is better
and easier than my previous situation!
Im obsessing with calories now . Lol! Eating 2k cals and hitting gym! Cut everything and beers and alcohol ! Just cappucinnos! Hehe
hope ill achieve my goal in 2-3 months

 

[Ligaturd]

Good on ya sorevirt! It's a complete minefield nutrition and calories and all that. Once you get into its really interesting, and a big eye opener. I reckon it should be a subject on its own in school. Without getting to gripey about what's inherently wrong with the world, it's the most important thing. If we don't have our mental and physical health were knackered.

Proper nutrition and exercise, being healthy would probably solve a lot of self image, confidence, depression, and anxiety issues that seem so prevalent nowadays. Anti-depressants, anti-anxiety drugs have their place and valid usage but most people refuse to put in real work to achieve fulfillment and happiness. Unhealthy coping mechanisms and the removal of personal accpuntability.

 

[Sorevirt]

Ok im making progress. Losing some weight going good. Even though i work all day and hitting gym also. Gym gives me more energy than napping during the day!
thank you for the nice replies. Hope everything goes well for all of us !
if anything changes ill report here . Hopely!

p.s i realise its like my mind passes my life from puberty till now in fast forward. Like trying to relive again this circle. Now it seems im in the gym phase. Before i was in the previous phase...u know... And afterwards im in the study mode. After the study phase though comes the work? Which i dont know how intergrated phase is that. But anyways my current state is good, hope the future wont be as bad as my previous phase.ill just wait patiently and see...

p.s2 my concerns now are 2
1st.) dont wont to experience another bad phase, like the one with the drugs.
2nd.) im afraid my mind maybe is preparing me for smth bad with all that relive circle. Or it is just bored and tryes to brighten my life somehow

Ps3 maybe all that thing happens because of the recent loss of a loved one. Even though signs of all my mind problems did present way before the illness of that loved one and they came unexpectedly and suddenly. Not slowly and gradually

 

[Hilary]

... maybe all that thing happens because of the recent loss of a loved one. Even though signs of all my mind problems did present way before the illness of that loved one and they came unexpectedly and suddenly. Not slowly and gradually

You've gotten a lot of great advice here. Although I have a strong aversion to psychiatrists - they usually want to prescribe drugs as a first resort. A counselor might be helpful to help you through your loss and the stress.

I would just like to add that stress is extremely hard on a person, and stress depletes your body of lots of nutrients that are important for good mental health. Be sure to take extra Vitamin C, B complex, D3, and Omega 3s to keep your nervous system in good condition. Human's are one of the few creatures on earth unable to manufacture their own vitamin C. When animals are stressed they produce tremendous amounts of Vitamin C to combat the destructive effects of stress.
Vitamin C Production in Goats when stressed

You're already exercising, which is great. There are lots of other ways to combat stress too. (Tai Chi, yoga, meditation, acupuncture, etc) Stay hydrated too.

nmwfl suggested CBD oil, which helps with psychosis, obsessive behaviors, even autism. I've personally seen it work for someone I know who is a bit of a 'germaphobe'.

Good luck!