need help coming off methadone

[fender81]

Hey all, new here. Ive searched these threads for many things in the past but today i am posting for my first time to ask for help. I have been addicted to methadone for about 5 years now. Was in the clinic for a while but things changed and am not able to go anymore. I deal with the public, and started seeing familiar faces (even had one of the nurses come into my store and give me a big hug). Yes work is the hardest part right now. I have detoxed in the past and it sucks, but i cannot detox AND work, which is the biggest issue.

Anyway, i guess im what you would call a closet addict. There is really only like 1 person in my life that knows im addicted, and thats my dealer. So I have no support system. So I guess thats what im really looking for. Recently i decided to give kratom a try, and its day 4 now without any methadone, and I feel ok. doesnt get me to where i need to be though. Im not sure if the stuff i got wasnt that strong or maybe it doesnt help me as much as other people. But am about to head into work, and dreading the day. Im trying very hard to not call my guy and just say screw it. But i decided to post here instead.

Anyway, i dont know what to really expect here, or what i want/need. Just wanted someone to know that I was going through this i guess. Trying to hide it from the whole world really gets to me.

So day 4 and counting...

Thanks for listening.

 

[neversickanymore]

Hey fender and welcome to BL.

What is the dose your jumping off from?

 

[fender81]

thanks!
I'm coming off about 60mg/day.

I seem to be doing a bit better right now as I post this than earlier, after another dose of tea. But still a lot of small issues I guess. Low energy, RLS, and hot/cold. But def easier than with nothing at all.

 

[fender81]

Day 5, feeling way better this morning. Maybe its just that the methadone takes so long to get out of your system or what, but things are looking up today. Got a text this morning asking if i needed anything, and I deleted it and just went to work. Thats a big win for me. I also put my cash into my gas tank in the car so i wouldnt have extra on me. Very optimistic this time around.

 

[neversickanymore]

Nice work fender keep it up!!!

I definitely think that keeping moving produces better results than just sitting around.

When you through the acutes I would add in aerobic exercise four or five days a week. It makes us feal good, treats many paws symptoms esp fatigue and depression, increases neuroplasticity speeding healing.

Your doing great. in a little while you will feal good and a little while after that you will feal great. Keep your mind on the prize.. FREEDOM

A short two week course on gabapentin or lyrica can really help with the RLS.

 

[Get2Think]

Dude I thought I was ballsy jumping off 40mg which I've been on like 3 months. Did I read your post correctly? You've been on MMT FIVE YEARS and your jumping at 60mg.... You sir are an inspiration and encouragement to me. I used tramadol and 8mg sub before going completely opiate free and now I'm just taking benzos. Not feeling that bad.

Still expect a bunch of bluelighters to come in here and tell you what your in for. Weeks and weeks of fucking opiate detox hell. But they mean well. But telling someone their detox is only gonna get worse is counterproductive in my opinion. I'd rather have someone lie to me and tell me 60mg ain't shit, you'll feel fine real soon enough and the WD symptoms won't be that bad. If people say it's gonna be agony it's hard not to buy into it. But that's just me, I can think myself into or out of WD symptoms almost.

 

[fender81]

Thanks for the replies guys!

A lot of it is psychological. Used to talk myself into wds too. Yeah most recently I was on 60, and have been up and down for the past 5 years or so. At most around 150. But I have quit once before and I can do it again. I tell ya this time is going very smoothly though. Worst part is the mornings but once i drink my brew I'm good to take on the day. Because I'm also working full time while doing this. So I'm thankful the kratom is working, AND I'm in the right frame of mind.

I have a daughter to quit for, and just had a family member die from OD at age 26. It's just time to tough through it, it isn't worth it.

cannot WAIT to have that freedom again. It feels as though I'm coming out of a cloud. I used to play my guitar a whole lot but I just couldn't get as passionate about music as I used to be and didn't know why. I tell ya I know now, everything was dulled. Found myself playing for the first time in a long time last night.

So day 6, still feeling pretty good. The mornings seem to be the worst, but after drinking my morning brew , I'll get through the day without a problem. One day at a time.