Need advice from people who have QUIT drugs...

[Flo-Rida]

Here's a big problem I've noticed while being clean from Oxy for almost a year... I still fucking desire it!

I use the word "desire" instead of "crave," because when it comes to drugs I feel there's a difference. If I was physically and mentally addicted, I would crave them just to get through my day. And I've certainly been down that road before. Instead, it's not really a craving but more of a desire to do them again because I remember how good they made me feel.

I don't really act upon my desires, but they're still there nonetheless. So, my question is why?

Further more, from YOUR personal experiences, do you still crave/desire drugs after quitting them? How do you fight the desire to do them again? And if you don't desire them, then how long did it take you to reach a point where you just stopped caring about drugs all together?

I'd like to believe that maybe I'm just going through a bad time in life, as I am, so I'm trying to convince myself to do drugs again as a way to escape from this mundane reality, even though I KNOW that if I go down that road again my situation could substantially worsen.

 

[Mr.Scagnattie]

I think this might belong more in The Dark Side or Drug Culture..

 

[Kudi85]

Fill up that beautiful mind with other things you desire. Fun, innocent things. If you see the word OXY or hear it from a friend you're gonna go back in time, within your own lil mind. Sometimes it'll put a smile on your face and sometimes it could upset you because you want to go back so bad. Think about how far you've gone and TRY your hardest to not look back. These thoughts will ALWAYS be with you until you fill your life with "normal" things like jobs, families, hobbies....

 

[sarcophagus.heels]

I mean, it may just be something you have to learn to live with. I haven't done oxy in over a year, but every time I drink or what have you, there's a little bit of my brain that would rather be on oxy. Maybe that'll get better with time, but I certainly haven't gotten to that point yet.

 

[Tripman]

Moving to TDS.

 

[stardust.hero]

I haven't done oxy in over a year, but every time I drink or what have you, there's a little bit of my brain that would rather be on oxy. Maybe that'll get better with time, but I certainly haven't gotten to that point yet.

I get this EXACT feeling. Especially with drinking. I rationalize that drinking is worse for me than opiates and I would much rater be on them instead of drinking bottles of poison.

I know personally that I am one of those people that needs to abstain completely from drugs in order to maintain myself. I can't have one drink or I'm back down the hole.

I still desire opiates in particular. I've noticed they are a constant battle. I have cravings/desires less frequently as time passes but I still do get strong ones. Ones where if I were given the chance and didn't provide myself a little barrier (IE: new location, boyfriend as support) I probably would give in.

 

[J.Wallace]

OP, do you still use other substances? I was hooked on Oxy for over a year, building up to a 150mg a day habit at my peak. I craved and desired them for months after I quit cold turkey. To be perfectly honest, the only way I overcame them was by using other substances, mostly Cannabis and LSD. Though, obviously I do not recommend this method.

Nowadays, I still crave the high. I love a good Opiate high, it's honestly one of my favorite highs. However, I simply don't buy them anymore because of how expensive they are. So much money, for such a short lived high is not worth it. In all honesty, I look at what substance I can get the most bang for my buck, and right now it's MXE. I think about either getting a Perc 30, or a Gram of MXE. The clear choice for me is a Gram of MXE.

 

[ihatepipes]

I only read the original post so this may have already be said If so I apologize and a mod can delete it if they please...

OP remember no old people places or things. That is really important if you want to stay clean it really makes it alot easier and if you go to the barrber shop every day you are going to end up with a haircut .

As far as your desires go if you have not already done this you have to replace your use with a positive habit. Once you find something you enjoy doing, then every time you have a desire to use go and do that activity. Before too long your desire for oxy will be replaced with the desire to do whatever hobby it is that you chose to involve yourself in. Make sure it is not something you did while using as this will probably bring on a craving.

In closing: they say it takes 90 days to make or break a habit I would say that is probably like 90 days + or - 30 days.

Good luck to you.

 

[Missykins]

I haven't used in six years but that doesn't mean that I've quit using for more than anything other than today. Tomorrow I might pick up again, which is why I don't take for granted the Alcoholics Anonymous aphorism just for today.

I do have cravings, and there are times when I can't imagine my life without using drugs again. And when that happens, I say to myself that right now, I'm not going to use. If you do that everyday, if you make that pact with yourself, the next thing you know is that six years of "just for today's" have passed. Because that's all recovery, sobriety, "clean time," or whatever you want to call it is, just a series of twenty-four hours without using. There are times when it's just for the next fifteen minutes I won't use, especially in the beginning when I really wanted to use. Also it's seemingly silly things that make a difference, like a trick that my first doctor out of rehab taught me: put fifty pennies in your pocket, and when you want to use, take one penny from one pocket and place it in the other pocket. By the time I had counted fifty pennies, any craving that I might have had would have passed.